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well.. as i had promised in my latest entry.. this was supposed to be my entry of why i hate valentines day.. which i typed out.. the last half hour at this computer.. and i have concluded that Valentine's Day hates me back.. my entry basically deleted itself.. and really pissed me off.. basically i had calmly written why i hate today.. and mainly that it roots from me being so damn lonely.. why do i require love?.. wouldn't be much easier to just be able to live without the pain and the hunger for lust and love?..and how damned cruel it is to have a holiday honoring those who are so lucky to have that joy.. which shames us lonely ones.. reminding us of our pain.. and there was more.. but now im pissed.. i typed so much.. and thought about a lot of painful stuff in my past.. and now.. its all gone.. crap.. pissed in the wind.. and im pissed.. very.. and lonely.. i've sort of spent the day alone.. but i guess thats normal.. sorry i complain and go "emo".. but im not "cryign out for help".. im tellin it how it is
im right there with you nate.. hope today is ok for you.. love you dear