I think I'm losing...

[sparkly_cherry]

Anyone have any idea what it's like to a degree on Architecture or Creative Writing?

So, Liah is lost again. Liah can no longer make life changing decisions without becoming an alcoholic or cutting herself apparently. And struggles with not regretting past choices.

I probably shouldn't be shouting this all out of LJ but, I think I'm regretting

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[_sabriel]

Are you alright? Come talk to me if you need someone to rant to~

[sparkly_cherry]

I'm anything but okay :/ you on gtalk?

[miska158]

We all have things that we regret hun... but the only thing we can do is to realize where we went wrong along the way and try not to repeat them. Maybe I don't have the right to give you advice, or comfort or anything else for that matter after we lost contact, but I know you're stronger than what you give yourself credit for. You always have been, and its time you realize that yourself. A 'regret' is not a 'loss' until you yourself give up on what 'can be'. I hope someone else can get you to where we all know you can be, if you yourself have trouble finding it.

[sparkly_cherry]

True, but what if the regrets you have are actually making sense as you've pretty much made your parents give up on you, you can't do anything right and every choice you make changes every 2 weeks. I can't go on doing that but even though I try to stop it boom! 2 weeks later my interests fade again :x I have no idea how to tackle it... _sabriels talking to me about it all but I dno if anything's going to be fixed as I'm too stubborn to talk reasonably about it all...

I miss you btw :( I've sorta lost contact with everyone but sab on LJ :(

[miska158]

Although they're your parents, the only persons interests that you should be worried about are your own. You have to figure out why your interests fade, and hopefully then you can realize what you're wanting out of life. Take courses in every single major out there if you have to. And yes, get out of that stubborn phase. You have people willing to help you, so take it hun.

I've missed you too ♥ School and work make it so I can't be online as often as I'd like though, unfortunately.

[sparkly_cherry]

True :) and unfortunately we don't have the option of that in the UK. No testing of majors here as we don't have them. We sign up for one course - like I'm down for Japanese Studies and thats it. That's what we're stuck with for 3 - 5 years :/ It sucks really... the only place I've seen a flexible course is Glamorgan in Wales, and thats like 7 hours away |D But I know... :/

♥ Yeh, me falling out of fandom didn't help either lol XD

[cinoberis]

yeah. I know how it feels to be lost.

[sparkly_cherry]

♥

[cinoberis]

*hug*

[sparkly_cherry]

*hugs bk* <3

[purpl_kitten]

Aww hun... *huggles n holds* Hi, I've been studying for a career with horses, gone to musical highschool, worked at Burger King, studied at Järna one year, started the eurytmy education (stayed for 2 months ^^;;), took a free course in history (wanted to be an arkeologist (spell?), had my own company, worked as a cleaner and now I'm where I am and I'll probably go into the accademic work instead of becoming a teacher... So see? You're not the only one that keeps skipping around! <3
I guess that it's just worse for you cos of your education system :S

About the friend you lost... You know, I'm sure she's still there, it will just take a bit of work. <3 (We'll talk more about that on msn <333

[sparkly_cherry]

Wow, that is quite the skippiness but still, the problem is the UK's once you're in, you're in policy. Well, you can drop out but it costs ya and yo, I'm going to be in enough debt as it is. It's too much money to just dance around waiting so :/ grrr XD

I've talked to said friend now, and thing's should be okay |D <3 I feel a lot better from that too. Part of the reason why I'm going all emo really.

But... >.>;;; |D; *hugs* Thanks, but it's going to take a while for me to say no. It's like euphoria in a sense, I'm an addict to the pain they bring unfortunately... so :/ <3

I love you too <3 You're my life support I swear ♥ muchly <3

[jongina]

My second eldest sister has been taking up Architecture since 2006. She'll be in third-year this incoming June. After all the stress and shit she got for the past two years -- she dropped PE because of an asshole for a teacher, she rarely gets sleep, she sucks at advanced math, her drawing skills are good enough but don't make the crowd go "ZOMGWOW" -- somehow, I admire her for having the courage and love for architecture that she still pursues and goes on. Sure she denies all the hard work she has done and remains modest, but believe me she has the potential and inspiration to be a great architect. Sometimes, I envy how much effort she puts in a project even if it's crammed, and how hardworking she really is, without her even realizing it herself.

I'm not sure if I had even helped at all, but -- well -- I have not the right words to say. I say you can get over this obstacle, although not tomorrow or after, somehow, you will. You have friends here in LJ, so don't worry! We're here to support you. ♥ *gives MAAAAASSSSIVVVEEE hug*

[sparkly_cherry]

That did help a little, thank you :) I'm aware it's a competitive course - considering the Uni's in the UK need at least BBB and thats even for the polytechnic not so good Uni's so... we'll see.

*hugs bk* :) Thanks for the support ♥