More of my incessant whining
Omg I don't even feel like writing in here idk why I bother to do it... I especially hate it when I don't wamt to wrtite in here but know I should. Well anyway, my main reason for updating: havn't done it in a little while...and I'm kinda making myself do it. I spared all y'all for a few days so you could have hopefully a more cheerful friends page...
I'm madd bored, but trying to make myself write stuff...guess it's not as easy for me as it is for fubz :P but idk that's the way it's workin out. Another day I can't sleep...errr i mean night, actually no I mean morning.
Work was gay, tommorow (today) is gonna be more gay. Not that I really have a problem with gays...just replace gay with any negative word basically. They piss and moan all the time...they know what their job entails but hey, why not bitch about it, I mean that'll motivate us even more! Wait don't yell at people who control when we close down the club....Brilliant!
Some people I just would like to erase their prescence from me, it's like I've been violated...gross.
So if anyone knows of a place that needs workers, tell them you may have someone who's very interested in leaving his job if the hours are decent...Me Nick and Kyle were all just about ready to leave work today. No respect it's such BS. Nick is getting yelled at for near anything he does anymore, and kyle dropped a bunch of glass and cut himself in a few spots, and he has to get up and work at 12 I feel bad for him, he has to work with Charlie...You can never hear/understand that guy. Plus he's always backstabbing us at the workplace when we're not there.
Life is kinda not getting too much better. I'm sitting here wishing I was drunk, but not really. I might feel good then but it'd suck even more later, plus it's bad habbit. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore, I usually stay after, do what my parents have planned, eat, do hw and sleep, and I factor in work somewhere. I do nothing...I'm bored of playing video games kinda, my friends keep trying to get me back into Diablo 2 again but I'm not feeling it, and now I'm madd bored cuse that's what they all do now, so I sit here doing something, don't really know what. Still gotta make dvd's for people, been unmotivated for that too. Now I'm just waiting to hear from Geneseo, probably didn't make it, I'd almost be willing to place down $100 on it. Everyone else keeps telling me I'll get in, but I highly doubt it. I guess my dad rubbed off on me...I used to be so optimistic, even if there was no reason. Now I'm just so pessimistic, you guys don't see it, you just see me in school, if you ever knew what was going on in my head outside of school, I'm sure a lot of your opinions about me would change, and probably not for the better...just being pessimistic again and going around in circles...new paragraph.
At least I try to stay self aware of myself, other people just are attention whores, not that anyone probably reading this is, but this is a public post so who knows, what am I saying, all of mine are public. Other ppl are like blah blah crap drama, and don't even bother to look at their situation from different perspectives. I could probably make a good psychologist or something like that, but then again I can't even fix my own problems. I wonder what you ppl even think about my opinion anyway. I mean everyone is partially biased, I always try not to be but I always feel that I kinda am, which I suppose makes sense. I think that I think about myself too much...
Bleh I feel like this x-acto knife on the desk is staring me down almost tempting me to use it...well ya know what, get the f out of here. It's like it's just sitting their with the biggest damn smile on its face, I should probably just throw it out anyway, the blade tip is chipped. What the heck happened to me...
I don't know, I just don't want to be anywhere, or doing anything, but then I'll be bored, and wish I was somewhere doing something. Just a big lose-lose situation. I feel dumb in school cuse half of you people actually read it and know how I really feel and the other half doesn't. it's like another lose-lose. I hate hearing the words "How are you?" because I just am so sick of hearing them. People always want the best for me, but ya know what, I just stopped caring at some point. Now it's Christmas, and I'm still in a slump, I thought for sure it woulda been done by now...it's kinda like today's sinking economy.
And right now I'm just trying to figure out what I've amounted too, and I can't think of much of anything...this window has been open for an hour now, but idk maybe I should just push it out to 2 hours for laughs. I'm not really too great at anything currently or even in the past. Sometimes I wonder what I do what I do I don't get much pleasure out of it...I think I need something to replace with what I do with my lack there of time, but idk still havn't found much of anything yet. Man this sucks, my lunch next half of the year changes to 4th period, then what am I gonna do with myself, no one goes to 4th period, that's crazy talk. I loved having lunch the same period as all the guys for 2.5 years of school. Now I have to change it all up again, I don't feel like it...
I gotta do some stuff tommorow (today) I'll say I'll wake up early, but I've started to realize I have nothing to wake up to, so what's the point slam the snooze, flip the switch and feel myself slip away.
There saved ya some friends space
I'm madd bored, but trying to make myself write stuff...guess it's not as easy for me as it is for fubz :P but idk that's the way it's workin out. Another day I can't sleep...errr i mean night, actually no I mean morning.
Work was gay, tommorow (today) is gonna be more gay. Not that I really have a problem with gays...just replace gay with any negative word basically. They piss and moan all the time...they know what their job entails but hey, why not bitch about it, I mean that'll motivate us even more! Wait don't yell at people who control when we close down the club....Brilliant!
Some people I just would like to erase their prescence from me, it's like I've been violated...gross.
So if anyone knows of a place that needs workers, tell them you may have someone who's very interested in leaving his job if the hours are decent...Me Nick and Kyle were all just about ready to leave work today. No respect it's such BS. Nick is getting yelled at for near anything he does anymore, and kyle dropped a bunch of glass and cut himself in a few spots, and he has to get up and work at 12 I feel bad for him, he has to work with Charlie...You can never hear/understand that guy. Plus he's always backstabbing us at the workplace when we're not there.
Life is kinda not getting too much better. I'm sitting here wishing I was drunk, but not really. I might feel good then but it'd suck even more later, plus it's bad habbit. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore, I usually stay after, do what my parents have planned, eat, do hw and sleep, and I factor in work somewhere. I do nothing...I'm bored of playing video games kinda, my friends keep trying to get me back into Diablo 2 again but I'm not feeling it, and now I'm madd bored cuse that's what they all do now, so I sit here doing something, don't really know what. Still gotta make dvd's for people, been unmotivated for that too. Now I'm just waiting to hear from Geneseo, probably didn't make it, I'd almost be willing to place down $100 on it. Everyone else keeps telling me I'll get in, but I highly doubt it. I guess my dad rubbed off on me...I used to be so optimistic, even if there was no reason. Now I'm just so pessimistic, you guys don't see it, you just see me in school, if you ever knew what was going on in my head outside of school, I'm sure a lot of your opinions about me would change, and probably not for the better...just being pessimistic again and going around in circles...new paragraph.
At least I try to stay self aware of myself, other people just are attention whores, not that anyone probably reading this is, but this is a public post so who knows, what am I saying, all of mine are public. Other ppl are like blah blah crap drama, and don't even bother to look at their situation from different perspectives. I could probably make a good psychologist or something like that, but then again I can't even fix my own problems. I wonder what you ppl even think about my opinion anyway. I mean everyone is partially biased, I always try not to be but I always feel that I kinda am, which I suppose makes sense. I think that I think about myself too much...
Bleh I feel like this x-acto knife on the desk is staring me down almost tempting me to use it...well ya know what, get the f out of here. It's like it's just sitting their with the biggest damn smile on its face, I should probably just throw it out anyway, the blade tip is chipped. What the heck happened to me...
I don't know, I just don't want to be anywhere, or doing anything, but then I'll be bored, and wish I was somewhere doing something. Just a big lose-lose situation. I feel dumb in school cuse half of you people actually read it and know how I really feel and the other half doesn't. it's like another lose-lose. I hate hearing the words "How are you?" because I just am so sick of hearing them. People always want the best for me, but ya know what, I just stopped caring at some point. Now it's Christmas, and I'm still in a slump, I thought for sure it woulda been done by now...it's kinda like today's sinking economy.
And right now I'm just trying to figure out what I've amounted too, and I can't think of much of anything...this window has been open for an hour now, but idk maybe I should just push it out to 2 hours for laughs. I'm not really too great at anything currently or even in the past. Sometimes I wonder what I do what I do I don't get much pleasure out of it...I think I need something to replace with what I do with my lack there of time, but idk still havn't found much of anything yet. Man this sucks, my lunch next half of the year changes to 4th period, then what am I gonna do with myself, no one goes to 4th period, that's crazy talk. I loved having lunch the same period as all the guys for 2.5 years of school. Now I have to change it all up again, I don't feel like it...
I gotta do some stuff tommorow (today) I'll say I'll wake up early, but I've started to realize I have nothing to wake up to, so what's the point slam the snooze, flip the switch and feel myself slip away.
There saved ya some friends space