my reasons are as follows:

~nice

~sweet

~eyes

~funny

~interesting

~athletic

~again...eyes

~cutie

~easy to talk to

~confidable

~idk...its just every little thing about him. i could go on forever if i tried. but i wont.

today im surviving on something that happened last night. its pretty damn pathetic. lmao. i always say im pathetic now. idk why. but when i went running yesterday, i like really vented. to my self that is, in my mind, ya know. but i think ive finally figured out why i like him. blake is such a loser, i hate him oh so much. not agian with the oh so' ( Read more... )

im just so stupid. really. I just don’t understand why in the hell I like him. I mean I know why, but, why do I fall for guys for basically no reason. I just don’t get it. but I had a shitty day. I mean I didn’t even talk to him. im so pathetic like that. but w/e I mine as well forget about him now, so I don’t get too far in. have no more to say. ( Read more... )

he said hi to me. I was so excited. I know, im pathetic. I don’t even know why I like him. blake kept asking me why I liked him, and I was just like because I do, its none of your business, which is true. but the real truth is that I don’t really know why. but I guess its just one of those things that maybe will be revealed in time.

omg i am such a loser. seriously i am. i really truly am. and why hasnt erika emailed me back with the info i need. lmao and tony is being an ass and always says that he cant find it right now, but he doesnt understand that i need it, now! i am being a pushy little bitch. OMG revelation, i can ask kelcie! ok waiting for a response from her...god i ( Read more... )

ok today i told 3 people who i like, i really shouldnt have told anybody but erika. not to be like idk dissing them, but idk, i just really really dont want him to find out. i mean i know that he would like never ever go out with me, but erika seems to think so. but i seriously dont think that he ever would. maybe if i lost like 45 pounds, maybe ( Read more... )

well i should really change my colors for my Lj i just realized how blah they really were. i mean its totally depressing. but later the OC is on!!! yay! sorry but its liek my favoritest show in the world! but i am going to go change my colors, ill write more later if i feel like it. bye.

my parents got home right around noon today. it was nothing that interesting. but my dad has the most hilarious tan from his sungalsses. its like white where they were. but thats about all i have to say. and to erika, i seriously promise, and i its ok about the thing in the MRC. but im out. i need to change my colors according to kt. bye.

im just so sick of myself, and everything around me. i want to change so desperately, but i cant. and i want the complete trust of my friends. just yesterday mandy, erika, and me were in the MRC and erika was talking about something and then she was like wait, julia will tell. and she turned to mandy and whispered it to her. i felt so betrayed. and ( Read more... )

wow today wasnt that bad. except for that, idk i guess i like a guy i have liked before. and seriously, that is pathetic. for me and for the guys at west. for me because ive come back to liking a guy that obviously doesnt measure up for me. for the guys, because there are absolutely no better guys than what i have already known about, and god i ( Read more... )