Become As Little Children

[sparrow_lately]

Title: Become As Little Children (or more scenes from an alternate universe wherein Sam stole the Winchester boys in 1987)
Rating: PG-13
Words: 4,335
Spoilers: Vague, but for all aired episodes.
Warnings: Language, briefly mentioned child abuse, briefly mentioned neglect.
Summary: More from the world of " Reverse Engineering" if Sam had stayed.

Comments

[tabaqui]

*sniffles hard*
Oh, these boys. *Boys*.

He’s thinking about Cas and the love-some bent and twisted version of love, but love nonetheless-he and Dean had shared; thinking about that love which cannot ever be, now, the Dean and Sam Winchester who will never exist in all their flaws and triumphs, all their courage and their cowardice gone.

That pretty much just broke my heart. Just...shattered. Damnit.
*wipes eyes*

[sparrow_lately]

Thank you so much! <3

[katsheswims]

I love this verse so much!

Every installment has made me tear up some though...

But I'm so happy that things are improving, and I just hope the future won't be so bleak for this Sam and Dean. And I hope adult!Sam will find happiness with them too (though I'm sure he'll always miss the Dean he knew).

[sparrow_lately]

Sorry to make you cry, dear!

I think Big Sam will always miss Dean, but I also think that despite his apparent selfishness he is also capable of enormous acts of blind self-sacrifice, which this sort of is. That said, little Sammy and Dean might fill some hole he didn't know he had... :)

So glad you enjoyed it!

[catsintheattic]

I enjoyed the many layers of this story, about Dean's healing, and how he yet misses his dad, about Sam slowly gaining the boys' trust and how he doesn't trust the angels - it all rings so very true.

Only - what about Sam changing the future with this new present? And won't that mean that some day will come when Sam won't be Sam anymore? Will he disappear from the boys world when he is no longer needed? (I just love time travel fic and the implications it brings.)

[sparrow_lately]

Timey wimey I'm not sure. This is sort of hugely self-indulgent fun for me without thinking too hard on the implications--the original story ended with Cas fetching Sam back to 2012 and I imagined that he did his angel thang and smoothed over any chronological snarls. As for this 'verse...I'm not really sure? What I'm sticking with is that when Sam decided to stay he changed history which for the purposes of this story is decently linear and singular--so the Sam and Dean of 2012 that we know and love ceased to be when Sam decided to stay long enough to make an impact on their lives? I don't know.

Will he disappear from the boys world when he is no longer needed? Oh god that gave me a little shiver--like those movies and cartoons from when you're little and you realize at the end that one of the characters was like an angel all along? Oooh.

[supersockie]

I just discovered this verse - totally awesome! I love that Sam is keeping the boys and offering them a different life. The blow up about Sammy calling Sam " daddy " was spot on. I love the idea of Dean having other options than just being the caretaker, and when he relaxes into Sam and lets him carry him, it's so touching.

I hope you continue this verse, it's fantastic!

[sparrow_lately]

Thank you so much! <3

I'm always struck by how much of Dean's potential just got funneled into hunting and taking care of John and Sam...so here's my self-indulgent little attempt to make it better. :)

[caithream]

So so fantastic. Your writing and balancing of the emotional punches of this story are wonderful. Can't wait to see more!

[sparrow_lately]

Thank you so much!