Sorry

[sparrowssong]

And I know that if I stare at you long enough I'll find an answer. None of this is allowed outside of my head, but I know that you can feel my thoughts. I've kept quiet for so long, but you should know what I'm saying anyhow

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[lethallemon]

Dear Brandon

[sparrowssong]

I have stopped. I've been clean for a while now. Despite most of my entries being emotionally cathartic they aren't necessarily true. Heroin, as my own plot device, symbolises a raw nihilism that I'm not sure anything else would.
I appreciate the concern, confusing though it may be. I was writing about heroin before I ever used it, and generally I've tried to keep the knowledge of what happened on the down low. I would say I've only told maybe five people what happened. That being said, you are of course right. I've had my share of experiences, and I would hope that this, or anything else I have written doesn't glorify heroin, and having lost friendships and a father from cocaine, I can certainly understand that these things rarely have good endings.
I try to get that through in my writing, bad as it may be. It's been an influential part of my life, to put it mildly, so I write to try and get over it, among other things.