clinging for dear life

[sparta_bk]

as of late i've relapsed into thoughts about amanda (see entry #2 for information about her). It's not often, but every once in a while, usually once or twice a week, I start thinking about her. It's not a thought of love, it's not a thought of fondness, it's a thought of hate, and anger. It bothers me

Comments

[vanhalenrocks05]

This is what a journal is for, to vent. Sure, part was fear, but you are also a decent person. What did you see in her? Only the good things. Relationships with people always start out like that. The test of who they are inside comes later. Unfortunately.

It's always tough to forget.
But it will happen in time.
Just wait, before you know it, it will be "Amanda who?"

[matt100fly]

This a good post ben.

i know that it is hard for you but this was something you shouldn't have kept boggled up.

You know what is best in the world?

I learned from a professor from Michigan State. He said that if you have a problem with anyone or anything you should write a letter. Now he said it is the best way to get people to listen to you. I really think you should write how you feel and send it to her in a letter, no email none of that bullshit write a real letter. Now here is the kicker you can send or just keep it, it is up to you. But in my opinion from reading this you should send it, let her know. Because from what I can understand she is a terrible person. I am in stance with you on saying, fuck her and her douche bag boyfriend. I had shit like this happen to me before so I understand some of this.

hope you feel better soon.

[sparta_bk]

thanks, but i've told her how i felt. i told her she fucked up majorly. so...she knows i'm pissed at her, so writing a letter i don't think works too well in this situation, but i agree that it's best to express how i feel.