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This is all from my xanga account, it is peoms and quotes. if its a poem i wrote it, if its a quote, i'm just quoting it. its long and will give you something to do with your day....weeee.......
Hate
My blood was spilled
It wasn't drawn
It's not my fault
Scars on my arm
Knife drawn by hate
Hate makes it strong
Problem
The situation isn't the problem
The solution is the problem
I don't yet know the question
But I konw how it will end
Loveless
Why do you say you love me
When you don't know how to love
You think that sex means everything
But sex without love just makes you a slut
Loving Hate
There is not enough room for you and me
My enemy is you
Your enemy is me
We'd kill each other if we could
But we're halted
Stopped by this love
who are you to me
a friend of a foe?
Do i welcome with embrace
or quickly shove away?
you met me with comfort
and i fell in quick
i needed you to cope
dependant to live
we moved too fast
now i can't leave
i should be the master
you sould be the slave
but thats not how it is
you control me
you're always in my thoughts
you are not my ally
you are the enemy
i love you when i hate you
and hate you when i love you
but its too late to leave you
i'm hooked
dependant on how you make me feel
the power, control, the strength
you are the knife
you spill my blood
it runs down my arm
washing away the pain
hours of hurt released in seconds
it felt good at first
but as my dependace increases
so does the fear
fear that one day you will be my end
------------------------------------------------
mother i love you
i know it doesn't show
i've yelled at you
ignored what you said
it made you scream
it made you cry
given the power
i'd change it all
we'd both be happy
i'd make you laugh
its all my fault
please forgive me
you did your best
mother, please forgive me
---------------------------------------------
This knife i have i used for you
The pain i caused
I turned on me
will not help you heal
but it will help me understand
to know the suffering
to know the pain
to know the loss
losing who we are
the lose of who we were
the pain manifests in blood
when i see the blood on the knife
I understand what i've done to you
and just like the scars
the memory will remain
--------------------------------------------------
I'm screaming for your hearing
But you will never listen
You say you understand me
Or is it just who you want me to be?
Go ahead and judge me
You must think you're something
But I don't need your shit
And I will not accept it
you're a souless supermodel
hair done up just right
burning you skin
with their tanning lights
you're a souless supermodel
walking how you should
keel that smile
no matter what the mood
you're a souless supermodel
make sure not to eat
and if you do
shoot some heroin in your feet
you're a souless supermodel
i've no respect for you
you don't do anything
except what they tell you to
you're a souless supermodel
they don't care about you
they want your legs your hair, you boobs
but thats not really you
you're a souless supermodel
you can do better than this
so use your head, not your legs
and leave this stupid shit
--------------------------------------------------
are out bodies special
or are they just a shell
do they make who we are
or mearly hold our soul
because the body reflects the soul
i laugh when i see you
you are nothing special
youi're a copy of a copy
you want to be like them
you are not unique
burying who you are
to be who they want you to
thats not how life should be
you live as a puppet
moving and changing
to the rhythm of the scene
--------------------------------------------------
You're blinded by emotion
You think the world means something
This life means nothing, its worthless
But you and I are stuck in it
You choose your way, I'll choose mine
But don't you dare try to change my life
You let me by I'll let you be
Maybe then we can live in peace
If in time we don't get along
I'm afraid we should just move on
There's no time for fights
In this thing we call our lives
You are too attatched
But we can't go back
Maybe the best bet
Is to try to forget
Forget the time we shared
Forget you ever cared
Forget the song we sang
Forget me if you can...
---------------------------------------------
"No person is your friend who demands your silence, or denies your right to grow."
- Alice Walker
Sticks and Stones are hard on bones, aimed with angry art. Words can sting like anything, but silence breaks the heart."
Conformity is the jailer of freedom and the enemy of growth."
- John F. Kennedy
Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent."
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear." "What is hate, but love tortured by it's own hunger."
"If you listen to your fears, you will die never knowing what a great person you might have been."
- Robert H. Schuller
"Suicide is not chosen---it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain"
"Our Individuality makes us unique, our abnormailty makes us interesting."
"Quick to judge, quick to anger, slow to understand. Ignorance and prejudice, and fear, walk hand in hand..."
There are no uninteresting things, there are only uninterested people."
Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you?"
- Fanny Brice
Beauty is whatever we refer to and understand as Beauty.
"Never argue with an idiot. They drag you down to their level, then beat you with experience."
"If you really put a small value upon yourself, rest assured that the world will not raise your price."
"Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark. Professionals built the Titanic."
"I've learned- that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do, is stalk them and hope they panic and give in
"I can picture in my mind a world without war, a world without hate. And I can picture us attacking that world, because they'd never expect it."
"The game of life is not so much in holding a good hand as playing a poor hand well." - H. T. Leslie
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."
For those who understand you, no explanation is necessary. For those who don't, none is possible."
"The optimist proclaims that we live in the best of all possible worlds, and the pessimist fears this is true." - James Branch Cabell
Everyone dies, but not everyone lives."
"I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it."
When all your wishes are granted many of your dreams will be destroyed
"Love isn't finding the perfect person, it's finding the imperfect person perfect."
A positive attitude will not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort."
Life is a disease: sexually transmitted and always fatal."
People need love the most when they deserve it the least."
"All that we see or seem, Is a dream within a dream." - Edgar Allen Poe
Virtue is one thing that doesn't seem to become worth more when less is in circulation
Stupidity's cause hasn't been advanced much by its many martyrs
A pessimist is a man who thinks all women are bad. An optimist is one who hopes they are.
The nice part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised
The basis of optimism is sheer terror.
There is no sense in being pessimistic. It would not work anyway.
You are cordially invited to the theological place of eternal punishment.
It’s only after you’ve lost everything, that you’re free to do anything.”
The first step to eternal life is you have to die.”
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
feelings comming on so so strong
everyday i try to grab on
grabbing...fighting
but just mearly surviving
lately its so hard to be
the man that once was me
i'm longing for those times
when my emotions were mine
why don't i let them know
how much they help me grow
not just everyday
but with every word they say
my efforts are in vain
giving up to my pain
victory is lost
soon i'll pay the cost
i know this price is high
because everyday i cry
pray for the day to come
when all my pain is gone
---------------------------------------------------------------
Holding you close
i though it would last
maybe not forver
but longer than this
kissing you cheek
holding you hand
i felt so close
heaven in hand
when we made love
my soul was free
my heart was moved
chaged by your touch
its just not fair
taking all we had
leaving only memories
which feed my broken heart
i can't have it back
but i want something
no longer a lover
i want a friend
a friend that knows me
a friend that cares
one that knows my thoughts
one that knows my fears
but you don't care
not now, did you ever?
or was i just there
to fill your lonely days
none of that matters
its all over now
you said goodbye
needing to mend you life
was i that bad?
did i wreck you life?
am i just a mistake
that only avoidance can fix?
you said you loved me
you said you cared
and i believed you
i believed your lies
i'm glad its over
though i still hurt
because you're lost to me
i'm better now, because i'm free
----------------------------------------------------------
I´ve gazed into my deformed self:
Tormented and set ablaze.
Cannot ease this pain called living.
Something inside me has died.
I succumb to the pain.
Fighting this long-lost battle.
Struggling in vain.
Something within me has died.
I succumb to the dark.
Drain the life blood from my veins,
Ease this pain called living
---------------------------------------------------------
Is this what i wanted?
To be different from everyone
That when they looked in my eyes
The knew different thoughts were there
The problem is "I don't know"
I don't know why i feel
I don't konw what i feel
And i don't know what I think
Happy one minute, pissed off the next
Happening no matter what I want
I try to change it, try to fake it
But it wears me down, it kills me inside
Is life even worth living?
It wouldn't be hard to end it
Is the only way to kill my pain
To kill myself as well?
I know i couldn't do that
Not because of me
But those that would suffer
Suffer from my release
Am I wrapped up in pity?
Do I do this to myself?
I'd hate to know the answer
In fear that it is "yes"
I find my vengance with knives
Breaking and tearing my skin
The blood, the pain, the rush
Somehow conforts me within
This peace is for a moment
Then turns to greater fear
Fear that soon my peace will come
At costs that life can not bare
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The magic of first love is the ignorance that is can never end.
We pardon to the extent that we love.
Him that I love, I wish to be free-even from me
No mn can be friends with a woman he finds attractive. He always wants to have sex with her. Sex is always out there friendship is ultimately doomed and that's the end of it.
Underneath love there always lies in wait hatred.
Never give all of the heart for love, it always ends in aching.
The heart has its reasons, which reason does not know.
Parting is all we know of heaven and all we need of hell.
We live as we die-alone.
If you be loved, be worthy of love.
Something there is moves me to love,k and I do know I love, but know not how or why.
To some people love is given, to others only heaven.
Falling in love with love is falling for make-believe.
One does not fall in love; one grows into lovek, and love grows in him.
Love sees no faults.
To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.
If love be timed, it be not love.
Inebraitions of love, shadows of love, fantasies of love, but never yet the one true love.
True love comes quietly, without banners of flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked.
Immature love says "I love you because I need you", mature love says "I need you because I love you"
Life after life after life goes by
Without poetry
Without seemliness
Without love...
Love is begot by fancy, bred
By ignorance, by expectation fed
Destroyed by knowledge, and at best
Lost in the moment it is possessed.
In love everything is true, evewrything is false and it is the one subject which one cannot express an absurdity.
To love is to suffer, to be loved is to cause suffering.
Love is a torment of the mind, a tempest everlasting.
There will be no great love without great pain.
To meet, to know, to love-and then to part
Is the sad tale of many a heart.
Love can not grow without passion.
The only adnormality is the incapacity to love.
Short pleasure, long lament.
Pains of love be sweeter far than all other pleasures are.
No one worth possessing can be quite possessed.
Do we really know anybody? Who does not wear a face to hide another?
Can I ever know you
Or you know me?
To fall in love is to create a religion that has a fallible god.
If I should go away
Beloved do not say
"He has forgotten me"
For you abide,
A singing rib within my dreaming side
You will always stay.
When one is in love one begins to deceive oneself and ends by deveiving others. That is what the world calls romance.
Follow love and it will flee
Flee love and it will follow
We stop loving ourselves when no one loves us
Are time not spent in love is wasted.
Whoever blushes is already guilty, true innocence is ashamed of nothing.
You must live through the time when everything hurts.
Love is an act of endless forgiving, a tender look which becomes a habit.
Love is the wisdom of a fool and the folly of the wise.
Love is an attempt to change a piece of the dream world into reality
Love is not love until loves vunerable
Love is a mystery, which when solved evaporates.
Love is a sickness full of woes
All remedies refusing
Love doesn't make the world go around
Love is what makes the ride worthwhile
Love is like a migraine
A bright stain on the vision
Blotting out reason
Perhaps a great love is never returned
At the beginning of love and at its end lovers are embarrassed to be left alone.
The song is ended
But the melody lingers on
When we two parted
In silence and tears
Half broken hearted
To sever for years
If I should meet thee
After long years
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears
Hate
My blood was spilled
It wasn't drawn
It's not my fault
Scars on my arm
Knife drawn by hate
Hate makes it strong
Problem
The situation isn't the problem
The solution is the problem
I don't yet know the question
But I konw how it will end
Loveless
Why do you say you love me
When you don't know how to love
You think that sex means everything
But sex without love just makes you a slut
Loving Hate
There is not enough room for you and me
My enemy is you
Your enemy is me
We'd kill each other if we could
But we're halted
Stopped by this love
who are you to me
a friend of a foe?
Do i welcome with embrace
or quickly shove away?
you met me with comfort
and i fell in quick
i needed you to cope
dependant to live
we moved too fast
now i can't leave
i should be the master
you sould be the slave
but thats not how it is
you control me
you're always in my thoughts
you are not my ally
you are the enemy
i love you when i hate you
and hate you when i love you
but its too late to leave you
i'm hooked
dependant on how you make me feel
the power, control, the strength
you are the knife
you spill my blood
it runs down my arm
washing away the pain
hours of hurt released in seconds
it felt good at first
but as my dependace increases
so does the fear
fear that one day you will be my end
------------------------------------------------
mother i love you
i know it doesn't show
i've yelled at you
ignored what you said
it made you scream
it made you cry
given the power
i'd change it all
we'd both be happy
i'd make you laugh
its all my fault
please forgive me
you did your best
mother, please forgive me
---------------------------------------------
This knife i have i used for you
The pain i caused
I turned on me
will not help you heal
but it will help me understand
to know the suffering
to know the pain
to know the loss
losing who we are
the lose of who we were
the pain manifests in blood
when i see the blood on the knife
I understand what i've done to you
and just like the scars
the memory will remain
--------------------------------------------------
I'm screaming for your hearing
But you will never listen
You say you understand me
Or is it just who you want me to be?
Go ahead and judge me
You must think you're something
But I don't need your shit
And I will not accept it
you're a souless supermodel
hair done up just right
burning you skin
with their tanning lights
you're a souless supermodel
walking how you should
keel that smile
no matter what the mood
you're a souless supermodel
make sure not to eat
and if you do
shoot some heroin in your feet
you're a souless supermodel
i've no respect for you
you don't do anything
except what they tell you to
you're a souless supermodel
they don't care about you
they want your legs your hair, you boobs
but thats not really you
you're a souless supermodel
you can do better than this
so use your head, not your legs
and leave this stupid shit
--------------------------------------------------
are out bodies special
or are they just a shell
do they make who we are
or mearly hold our soul
because the body reflects the soul
i laugh when i see you
you are nothing special
youi're a copy of a copy
you want to be like them
you are not unique
burying who you are
to be who they want you to
thats not how life should be
you live as a puppet
moving and changing
to the rhythm of the scene
--------------------------------------------------
You're blinded by emotion
You think the world means something
This life means nothing, its worthless
But you and I are stuck in it
You choose your way, I'll choose mine
But don't you dare try to change my life
You let me by I'll let you be
Maybe then we can live in peace
If in time we don't get along
I'm afraid we should just move on
There's no time for fights
In this thing we call our lives
You are too attatched
But we can't go back
Maybe the best bet
Is to try to forget
Forget the time we shared
Forget you ever cared
Forget the song we sang
Forget me if you can...
---------------------------------------------
"No person is your friend who demands your silence, or denies your right to grow."
- Alice Walker
Sticks and Stones are hard on bones, aimed with angry art. Words can sting like anything, but silence breaks the heart."
Conformity is the jailer of freedom and the enemy of growth."
- John F. Kennedy
Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent."
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear." "What is hate, but love tortured by it's own hunger."
"If you listen to your fears, you will die never knowing what a great person you might have been."
- Robert H. Schuller
"Suicide is not chosen---it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain"
"Our Individuality makes us unique, our abnormailty makes us interesting."
"Quick to judge, quick to anger, slow to understand. Ignorance and prejudice, and fear, walk hand in hand..."
There are no uninteresting things, there are only uninterested people."
Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you?"
- Fanny Brice
Beauty is whatever we refer to and understand as Beauty.
"Never argue with an idiot. They drag you down to their level, then beat you with experience."
"If you really put a small value upon yourself, rest assured that the world will not raise your price."
"Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark. Professionals built the Titanic."
"I've learned- that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do, is stalk them and hope they panic and give in
"I can picture in my mind a world without war, a world without hate. And I can picture us attacking that world, because they'd never expect it."
"The game of life is not so much in holding a good hand as playing a poor hand well." - H. T. Leslie
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."
For those who understand you, no explanation is necessary. For those who don't, none is possible."
"The optimist proclaims that we live in the best of all possible worlds, and the pessimist fears this is true." - James Branch Cabell
Everyone dies, but not everyone lives."
"I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it."
When all your wishes are granted many of your dreams will be destroyed
"Love isn't finding the perfect person, it's finding the imperfect person perfect."
A positive attitude will not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort."
Life is a disease: sexually transmitted and always fatal."
People need love the most when they deserve it the least."
"All that we see or seem, Is a dream within a dream." - Edgar Allen Poe
Virtue is one thing that doesn't seem to become worth more when less is in circulation
Stupidity's cause hasn't been advanced much by its many martyrs
A pessimist is a man who thinks all women are bad. An optimist is one who hopes they are.
The nice part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised
The basis of optimism is sheer terror.
There is no sense in being pessimistic. It would not work anyway.
You are cordially invited to the theological place of eternal punishment.
It’s only after you’ve lost everything, that you’re free to do anything.”
The first step to eternal life is you have to die.”
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
feelings comming on so so strong
everyday i try to grab on
grabbing...fighting
but just mearly surviving
lately its so hard to be
the man that once was me
i'm longing for those times
when my emotions were mine
why don't i let them know
how much they help me grow
not just everyday
but with every word they say
my efforts are in vain
giving up to my pain
victory is lost
soon i'll pay the cost
i know this price is high
because everyday i cry
pray for the day to come
when all my pain is gone
---------------------------------------------------------------
Holding you close
i though it would last
maybe not forver
but longer than this
kissing you cheek
holding you hand
i felt so close
heaven in hand
when we made love
my soul was free
my heart was moved
chaged by your touch
its just not fair
taking all we had
leaving only memories
which feed my broken heart
i can't have it back
but i want something
no longer a lover
i want a friend
a friend that knows me
a friend that cares
one that knows my thoughts
one that knows my fears
but you don't care
not now, did you ever?
or was i just there
to fill your lonely days
none of that matters
its all over now
you said goodbye
needing to mend you life
was i that bad?
did i wreck you life?
am i just a mistake
that only avoidance can fix?
you said you loved me
you said you cared
and i believed you
i believed your lies
i'm glad its over
though i still hurt
because you're lost to me
i'm better now, because i'm free
----------------------------------------------------------
I´ve gazed into my deformed self:
Tormented and set ablaze.
Cannot ease this pain called living.
Something inside me has died.
I succumb to the pain.
Fighting this long-lost battle.
Struggling in vain.
Something within me has died.
I succumb to the dark.
Drain the life blood from my veins,
Ease this pain called living
---------------------------------------------------------
Is this what i wanted?
To be different from everyone
That when they looked in my eyes
The knew different thoughts were there
The problem is "I don't know"
I don't know why i feel
I don't konw what i feel
And i don't know what I think
Happy one minute, pissed off the next
Happening no matter what I want
I try to change it, try to fake it
But it wears me down, it kills me inside
Is life even worth living?
It wouldn't be hard to end it
Is the only way to kill my pain
To kill myself as well?
I know i couldn't do that
Not because of me
But those that would suffer
Suffer from my release
Am I wrapped up in pity?
Do I do this to myself?
I'd hate to know the answer
In fear that it is "yes"
I find my vengance with knives
Breaking and tearing my skin
The blood, the pain, the rush
Somehow conforts me within
This peace is for a moment
Then turns to greater fear
Fear that soon my peace will come
At costs that life can not bare
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The magic of first love is the ignorance that is can never end.
We pardon to the extent that we love.
Him that I love, I wish to be free-even from me
No mn can be friends with a woman he finds attractive. He always wants to have sex with her. Sex is always out there friendship is ultimately doomed and that's the end of it.
Underneath love there always lies in wait hatred.
Never give all of the heart for love, it always ends in aching.
The heart has its reasons, which reason does not know.
Parting is all we know of heaven and all we need of hell.
We live as we die-alone.
If you be loved, be worthy of love.
Something there is moves me to love,k and I do know I love, but know not how or why.
To some people love is given, to others only heaven.
Falling in love with love is falling for make-believe.
One does not fall in love; one grows into lovek, and love grows in him.
Love sees no faults.
To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.
If love be timed, it be not love.
Inebraitions of love, shadows of love, fantasies of love, but never yet the one true love.
True love comes quietly, without banners of flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked.
Immature love says "I love you because I need you", mature love says "I need you because I love you"
Life after life after life goes by
Without poetry
Without seemliness
Without love...
Love is begot by fancy, bred
By ignorance, by expectation fed
Destroyed by knowledge, and at best
Lost in the moment it is possessed.
In love everything is true, evewrything is false and it is the one subject which one cannot express an absurdity.
To love is to suffer, to be loved is to cause suffering.
Love is a torment of the mind, a tempest everlasting.
There will be no great love without great pain.
To meet, to know, to love-and then to part
Is the sad tale of many a heart.
Love can not grow without passion.
The only adnormality is the incapacity to love.
Short pleasure, long lament.
Pains of love be sweeter far than all other pleasures are.
No one worth possessing can be quite possessed.
Do we really know anybody? Who does not wear a face to hide another?
Can I ever know you
Or you know me?
To fall in love is to create a religion that has a fallible god.
If I should go away
Beloved do not say
"He has forgotten me"
For you abide,
A singing rib within my dreaming side
You will always stay.
When one is in love one begins to deceive oneself and ends by deveiving others. That is what the world calls romance.
Follow love and it will flee
Flee love and it will follow
We stop loving ourselves when no one loves us
Are time not spent in love is wasted.
Whoever blushes is already guilty, true innocence is ashamed of nothing.
You must live through the time when everything hurts.
Love is an act of endless forgiving, a tender look which becomes a habit.
Love is the wisdom of a fool and the folly of the wise.
Love is an attempt to change a piece of the dream world into reality
Love is not love until loves vunerable
Love is a mystery, which when solved evaporates.
Love is a sickness full of woes
All remedies refusing
Love doesn't make the world go around
Love is what makes the ride worthwhile
Love is like a migraine
A bright stain on the vision
Blotting out reason
Perhaps a great love is never returned
At the beginning of love and at its end lovers are embarrassed to be left alone.
The song is ended
But the melody lingers on
When we two parted
In silence and tears
Half broken hearted
To sever for years
If I should meet thee
After long years
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears