I feel like I did two years ago and when I didnt sleep for 5 days and I was hospitilized. My mind is running rampant with thoughts. I scare myself more and more and I have to hold back and I have to control myself until graduation. I cant afford this sort of mental breakdown right now. Also I want to stay to a special person FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU FUCK ( Read more... )

I havent been to school since monday last week. I was so happy just not going. I just had IB testing and I was ill a bit but it was nice to be away from this hell hole. Now I am back again and I am so depressed. I woke up really late. I couldnt even brush my teeth so now I feel disgusting. I come to school and ALL of my art is gone. All of my stuff ( Read more... )

Once again, isolation has fucked me ( Read more... )

All week I have been sick as a dog with a variety of issues ( Read more... )

So as graduation is coming closer and closer by the day(June 15th). I predicted that he would contact me prior to the graduation day. We havent spoken since the summer when it was just us arguing and yelling and saying we hate each other. I told him I wanted him dead. He said I was spoiled, selfish blah blah. I still hate him to this day. I hate ( Read more... )

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I love it when you have a conversation with someone and it gets so deep. They make you realize just certain little things you never thought about before. Then you come to have an epiphany about life. I feel so happy when I can find people to talk to that make conversations valuable again. Most the time when I talk to people and my friends its ( Read more... )

I had a smoke fest.

I cant remember what the hell I did when I got home. But all I know is I am up I dont know when I got up though :(

I just feel so ah ( Read more... )

I've learned my lesson ( Read more... )