Insecurity is the devil.  Insecurity makes you do rash things and hesistate doin things you know you ought to. Because of insecurity relationships fail, fights start, and bad behavior becomes a habit. People who are insecure about themselves do things they later regret and people who are insecure about there relationships tend to be over protective ( Read more... )

So labor is not fun... not a single bit. When people say you've never experienced pain until you go into labor its true.  After twenty two hours of labor I had a  emergency c-section so I can only imagine the pain that is in the actual delivery part of it all.  I did finally give into an epediural after the doc. said i had no choice really. They ( Read more... )

So today we had a false alarm which suxs cause I was really hopin that the baby was comin today. Im getting contractions but not dialating or effacing. Arg!

So today is my b-day! Yay go me Im now 21!!!! Legally allowed to drink but can't, just my luck right? Lets see went to the docs yesterday found out Im 1cm dialated and 50% effaced wich means Im well on my way to having a baby. Im thinking she will come like the first week of may if not she will def. be here on may 14th cause thats when Im gonna be ( Read more... )

So I know it is common for prego's to be emo right?? Well I honestly think that having no contact with any of my old buddies is really really getting me down latly. I hear all the stories of parties and get togethers and I feel saddened. That my friends feel like me and chris are no longer good enough to chill with because we are married and soon ( Read more... )

So I had my docs appointment today... Rileys heart beat is good, she is only one centimeter too big so I don't have to have a c- section!  The lesion on my cervix however has not gone away as planned.  And to be perfectly honest Im kinda scared. Im afraid that it will turn into cancer. As of right now there are only minor changes so we are gonna ( Read more... )

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Ahhh so the joys of preganacy just keep comin. I got so sick last night that this morning my stomach actually hurt from all the pukin I did. I also yelled at Chris for no reason, made him feel bad about the fact that he wouldn't stay in the bathroom while I was gettin sick. Lol! He couldn't stand the smell it was making him sick and Im such a bitch ( Read more... )

So im trying to sell my car cause i need a car car to drive after Riley is born... but this is turning out to be disapointing..lol! Ive only had it for sale for like one night. I know I know but Im anxious to get rid of it. Doctors yesterday went really really well all my blood work came back and Im perfect. However the doc. says Im carrying big ( ( Read more... )

So I was hanging out with an old buddy today and we got to talking about the past how we had so much fun together and where the hell did it all go? Kinda funny how those I use to be so fuckin close to don't want anything to do with me. I call them up to say hi and I get " oh I gotta go" I think its fucked up that people have turned there backs on ( Read more... )