i had the craziest dream last night after the storm. i dreamt that i was up in maine and there was a tornado, and when it was all over, there were four houses on my hill next to my house. trailers, to be exact, that had been blown up there. it was so weird. my house was all squished in. everything was still intact, but it was narrower. much ( Read more... )

don't you hate it how when you're trying to get out the door, your parents decide that they have eighty four thousand other things they have to do? is it just my mom? i don't think it is. but it sure is a pain in the ass ( Read more... )

"lawn chairs on hatties hill ( Read more... )

i miss my sisters a lot. i love how i feel when we're together. it feels like one of those corny made for t.v. movies where the three sisters have survived the shitty childhood together and stick together through anything. and i love that ( Read more... )

well. the oc premiere was slightly disappointing. it ended too happily. oh well. it was good, but not the totally crazy, amazing, dramatic, fabulous season premiere i wanted. OH WELL. it was cute. it would have been a really good one for a little later in the season after a long streak of crazy drama ( Read more... )

all the smell is gone from tabors shirt. i miss it, it smelled like summer. like the beach, and the sun, and peaches, and the opera house and the ocean...and fires and friends and...happy. i miss him and them ( Read more... )

i sometimes find myself getting this sudden missing of tyler. it's like, i almost forget he isn't here, until those moments. then i remember. boy do i remember. i don't know how to contact him. i just want to see him, or hear him. i need him here. i miss being able to have a guy i could talk to about ANYTHING. and he would understand. there are ( Read more... )

*sigh* it's been a while...the last time i wrote in here was when i was in maine. my first night back was really hard. i hated being here and missing them and feeling so alone ( Read more... )

i got this splendid email from my leti. it basically sums up what i've been feeling for the past few days ( Read more... )

it seems no matter how hard i try, i can't escape the fact that i'm leaving in six days. so last night it was so beautiful and the moon was out and so tabor and i went for a walk through the woods near his house and he lead me to this house with this huuuuge slanted roof, so we climbed on to it and lay there for almost three hours. and you could ( Read more... )