so i found my mom's collection of janis joplin cd's and decided i would give them a listen...i have decided that she is one of my new heroes. it just blows me away how much of herself she puts into each of her songs. there is so much emotion and so much...ah. i don't even know how to word it. it's just incredible. if you don't like her voice, you ( Read more... )

well. i'm confirmed...woohoo? i don't feel different...at all. hahaha. oh well. i feel like shit. it feels like someone has been poking the back of my throat with a knife for the past day. it hurts. io've been thinking a lot about stuff, and wondering what it would have been like if i had done certain things differently...maybe i wouldn't feel so ( Read more... )

p.s. i wasn't crying yesterday...christie poked me in the eye

the overall mood predicted for this weekend? stressed. i have to study for exams and then i have to celebrate the fact that my mom is 60...then i go on a retreat and then i get confirmed (i'm not even sure i WANT to get confirmed....)...and then i try and study some more. woohoo! sounds like fun right? blech. well. it's warm out, and summer is in ( Read more... )

the best part about a bad day, or a tough situation is having awesome friends (coughletikiliangalenanthonycassyjakecough) to cheer you up. friends are quite fantastic. especially the ones you know will be there, always. it doesn't necessarily make life any easier, but it makes it a bit more bearable knowing that you have people who love you. *sigh ( Read more... )

i am a silly girl. i can't really say anything at the moment...i shall leave you with these wonderful words:

'and it'll happen once again, and i'll turn to a friend, someone who understands, sees through the master plan, but everybody's gone and i've been here for too long, to face this on my own well i guess this is growing up...'

a very eventful day. i spent most of it outside, lying in the yummy sun. except when my cat got on to the roof and i had to climb on to the roof to get him down (because he is a dumbass) at which point he decided it would be funny to pull my bathing suit top down. it was AWESOME. dumb cat. i got him back though, because the hose went psycho while i ( Read more... )

it is a new day, a very pretty day, and i am feeling a bit better. i had some breakfast this morning, but i didn't really enjoy eating it...and for those of you who know me, this is very strange and somewhat frightening. i can't let myself slip though, i don't want to be all lame and depressed. it's times like these when i wish annabel and lily ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do with myself. i can't sleep, because then i dream, and when i dream i get restless. i can't eat because my body won't let me even though i'm starving. and my thoughts are swirling like crazy in my head and i can't get them to stop. i feel constantly nauseous and dizzy. whatever this is, i want it to stop. i just want to ( Read more... )

i just went runing for like half an hour or an hour and i still don't feel any better. all i feel is hot and tired. and my knees hurt. and i tripped at one point when my knee gave out...maybe someone was trying to tell me to stop running...but i didn't. i ran up to the school and lay down in the middle of the highland field. i like that field. i ( Read more... )