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i haven't written in a while.
well, not written written. just picture posted. i like it that way though. telling the story of my life through visual images. even if every other post is of me and my camwhore self.
right now my current mindset is in the mode where i don't really want to do anything besides lay outside in the sunshine and get some color. i feel nature calling my name, and i want to go say hello for the first time. even if it involves bugs and hiking for "fun." i'm up for new adventures.
knowing this, doing well in school is practically impossible. the last two tests i took i went in knowing that i was going to not know any of the answers. in my defense, even if i studied like crazy, read and analyzed every chapter of the small font textbooks, i still would have done bad. physics just doesn't click with me. i still think everything will work out in the end... i have accepted B's as decent grades. perfection is no longer a part of me.
three more weeks. three more weeks of RAing. of living in chico. i am going to miss my girls. a lot. they have become my little family. i swear we are like a soriority house. minus the uggs and mini skirts. drunkeness, drama, and random moments that compare to nothing else. they have been my support system. i can't wait till i can actually HANG out with them next year. they have helped me grow.
Boys right now are... lame. funny how you think you know someone, give them your trust, and end up getting completely screwed over in the end. i won't go into details, simply because it's not really worth it, but i will summarize it quickly: close friend tries to be more than friends. i say no to not mess up a friendship. he says it wont. i give in. i fall for him. he ignores me and goes back to his ex. which i predicted the entire time. but still was naive. stupid me.
looking back on it now, i truly feel that it is his loss. i know people will always say the whole "oooh you are so much better than him, he doesn't deserve you" thing, but this is the first time i actually believe it. silly immature boys. too bad he doesn't know a good thing even when its staring him in the face [[right turtle?]] (:
moving on.
i feel like i am kate hudson in almost famous. i watched that movie the other night for the 2335423523423 time, and still shed a tear in the end. corny i know, but there's something about that movie... it just gets to me. little things. images. specific lines. the musiiic. everything. i have decided to live her motto from now on...
never take it seriously.
if you never take it seriously, you never get hurt.
you never get hurt, you always have fun.
and if you ever get lonely,
just got to the record store and visit your friends...
i love that line. lovelovelove it. now lets just see if i can evolve from it.
turtle/nica/ashley time this weekend. i am SO excited. lets see what adventures we can get in, how many pictures we can take, and how many knees we can break. i am looking forward to it. (:
cheers,
your tiny dancer.