Why do you love me?

[speakup_let_out]

Went to the beach house this weekend. Justin came. <3. I miss him. :'(. This weekend had its ups and downs. :-/...I don't know man. I can't stand school anymore. I can't stand my family. Actually, they all hate me. Courtney claims not to hate me, but after all the shit she's done to me, I don't even bother listening to her. I don't bother listening

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[enemyoflove]

i care about you even though you are my best friends little sister. i am never mean to you, unless i am joking.

but for real, courtney gets mad and shit at you, but if it came down to it, she'd kill for you.

[speakup_let_out]

I know your never mean to me. its just other people. a lot of other people, who claimed to be my friend, but definetely aren't. I know she'd kill for me. I definetely know that. Don't get me wrong. Its just that some of the shit she's done and the shit she's told people that she SHOULD NOT have told, it hurts. a lot. we used to be close. I'm just not so sure anymore. it hurts having your family hate you.

[enemyoflove]

well, i won't hesitate to beat the living fuck out of anyone for you. because no one fucks around with people i have some sort of good relation with.
yeah courtney does tend to say alot of things that she shouldn't. i'm usually the first one to be told about some shit. my sister is like that to an extent too though. blah at older sisters. haha.
my family hated me through middle school and the begining of high school. it sucks wicked hard. and it's hard ignoring it, but you have to try to. iiiiiiiiii dunno!

[speakup_let_out]

I know you wouldn't hesitate. neither would any of her other friends. it just hurts that she'd sit there and spread around some of the stuff she has. because seriously. its my life. she shouldn't be making anything out of it. or making anything up. or even telling anyone half the shit she has. ugh. I don't know man

Always And Forever

[my_halo_bends]

I don't like you being upset. I know that you're family get's you really upset. But maybe Sam's right, just try and talk to her. Maybe if you guy's got closer, then she wouldn't say all those things. But I don't know. I can't stand my family either. My mom became this really big jerk. She's yelling more then ever. And she's gotten stricter. Not that I listen to her or anything. I do what I want. But seriously. Kevin's like, curupting her mind. I'm surprised that I don't .. 'LEAVE THIS TOWN, AND RUN FOREVER!' *current song* haha.
:-) . I wish that I could though. And not have a care in the world. That'd be awesome. Of course I'd wanna be with you. I love you. I have to go to sleep though. MWA! ::heart::

Re: Always And Forever

[speakup_let_out]

<3 I know you don't like me being upset. Its hard not to though. yeah. I want to leave this town too. it blows. but yeah. no good man. I can't wait to see you. <3 I love you. mwa ::heart::