So me and Jessica talked tonight. I sat there and I realized that here I was trying to push myself into Jessica's life and trying to make our relationship something that it wasn't. She isn't through with Wes yet and I tried to ignore that, but it came crashing down tonite while I was thinking about it. So I started talking to her. I realized I had ( Read more... )

So we decided what our substitute for goodbye would be. It is that we will not say anything. We will stare into each other's eyes and give each other goodbye notes that will state what we mean but we can't read them until we leave and are on our way to vacation. I really want to kiss her when I leave as our first kiss. I don't know. She's still in ( Read more... )

So today was just one of those days that you are able to laugh at all of the bad things that happen. And they weren't bad just stupid little things that cause workplace drama or thinks that would usually annoy me. Me and my co-workers have been laughing a lot lately and I've realized Katie (not toohey, havelda or oliva) is really cool to work with ( Read more... )

Scratch what my last entry said. I just talked to her. Well she made me feel special for a while. Just a little bit. A little bit.

Ok so I know its stupid to whine about myspace because it's just a stupid little website on the internet that causes more drama than it is fun. But, Jessica has not left me a comment in forever. I leave her comments all the time. I really don't think she thinks about me or cares about me as much as I do for her. It's weird but some days I see "us" ( Read more... )

I was reading over my last entry and I was like what the heck are you talking about? Who really cares? Shaun Shut up! Haha. I just think that it's really important for Jessica's friends to want to be my friend because it is hard to have someone like you if their friends don't. But I'm not really worried about it anymore. I was just like Wow. Haha. ( Read more... )

Ok so it really upsets me. This whole Bobby situation. Here is bobby monday and tuesday: "I really don't like Danny and I really want you to be my best friend Shaun, i mean u are a potential best friend and you are really cool." Here's bobby since wednesday night: "I don't think it will work as us being best friends. Danny is my best friend and ( Read more... )

So tonight I worked for like 4 hours and I was late to work all because Jennifer had to go out to eat at a real restaraunt, but I enjoyed it, it's always a good time hanging out with that girl. But I was so excited because I got a raise today. A WHOLE FREAKIN' QUARTER! Haha. anyways, so today really reaffirmed what I said about surrounding myself ( Read more... )

Ok so as whoever reads this will already know, I'm going to italy in 6 days. I am so scared that the two weeks away from all communication will eradicate what I already sort of have with Jessica. I am completely "mezmerized" as josh would say. I don't know what it is, but she just makes me want to be a better person. And I don't think I will be ( Read more... )

I've recently decided that I need to take a look at my life and see who I should and shouldn't surround myself with. Lighthouse last night reaffirmed that. On the other hand, I already can't wait to go to lighthouse next week. Now that I actually know a lot of people, it wont be hard to seriously get into the "action". Haha, yeah, today was a good ( Read more... )