Fun weekend. A weekend away was needed. It was a weekend not away from my friends, just away from school. 11 of us went up to Nates house then the resort in Chico for the weekend. 6 of us got to Nates house at about 5:30 on friday morning, deciding it was worthless to go to bed, we all decided to go in the hot tub. Bathing suites became optional ( Read more... )

DRUGGED. I'm on 5 different meds, all of which have codeine in them. SLEEP is good. I'm supposed to eat but I don't want food, I need to force myself to eat. grr. I got a new cd, Kenny Wayne Shepherd came out with a new cd called The place you're in. It makes me happy, It helps me get my mind off the fact that it kills to breathe.

Sick of being sick. Ive been sick for 4 weeks now. I really hope i don't have mono considering one of my suite mates did and had to go home. that would be very bad. but i don't think that i do, i'm not overly tired. I'm so sick though, that i wouldn't even fight Nate. And he is helping me to train for heavys in the ren wars. I still have bruises ( Read more... )

So I am happy but sick. How that works I dont know. Its cold and wet up here. It rained yesterday, but we played capture the flag with glow sticks last night in the rain. It was a blast. Until some of the guys decided that it was tackle football, but with glow sticks vs footballs. I have a few scrapes from the grass but it was worth it ( Read more... )

I am reminded why I have more friends that are guys than girls. DRAMA. It sucks. Maybe he was right maybe I do bring drama. I tried being nice and not causing problems, biting my tounge when she made comments to me like who the fuck cares, but after awhile I just snapped. Now there is drama in my suite, and I don't know what to do. It sucks. And I ( Read more... )

I am reminded why I have more friends that are guys than girls. DRAMA. It sucks. Maybe he was right maybe I do bring drama. I tried being nice and not causing problems, biteing my toung when she made comments to me like who the fuck cares, but after awhile I just snaped. Now there is drama in my suite, and I don't know what to do. It sucks. And I ( Read more... )

Sleep deprived. The boys keep me up tell at least 2 every night, either playing halo or poker. Phone conversations tell 4:30 in the morning don't help that factor either. But it's all worth it. Class in 39 min and I don't want to go but I will. Recent developments at home make me wish I still live in the OC, but I don't and will have to make ( Read more... )

Its 11:14 and I haven't started my homework. Fuck. My class isn't tell 2 tomorrow but still ( Read more... )

So today I start over. I took a drive on wed night, and if you know me, a drive means trouble. I only take them if I really have a lot on my mind. I ended up 30 miles from San Fransisco before I turned around and got back at like 1:30 yesterday morning. It cleared my head, made everything come into prospective and helped me get over shit that ( Read more... )

So a lot has happened since I have been at school. A lot of stuff that I kept bottled up inside until 3 nights ago. Thats when I couldn't do it anymore. I partied with the boys, Nate made me a drink and I did shots after that. I sat on the floor in Anthony's room for almost 2 hours and cried, and cried on his shoulder. Everyone kept asking what was ( Read more... )