(no subject)
Have you ever noticed I only write when it's late?
A theme recurrent in my various substance-induced meditations on the state of matters in my life is the world we live in. Moreso, the incredibly emasculated, feminized nightmare world of conformity and mass-production we all exist in willingly.
Every time I begin to ruminate over these matters, I'm tempted to fill my cars gas tank, drive until I run out of gas, light the car on fire, and live in the woods. Not because of any desire to remove myself from my friends, family, or social life in general, but to remove myself from society and my general dissatisfaction with the lack of direct consequences in modern society; To heat a dwelling in the city, you must first pay the bank for the dwelling, establish your residence at the dwelling with the heat company, make sure your heater is up to code, and then pay a monthly bill to have hot air blown into your living space.
Versus lighting some dry grass laid under some logs.
The lure of the rustic maintains its siren song through two ways; one is the removal from society and it's perceived 'evil-through-complication,' and the other, while similar, bears its own mention: By living by yourself for yourself, Your actions dictate your existence. To clarify, Act A has consequence B. There's a simple cause-effect relationship that is absent in our '7-steps-to-obtain-water' world of services we live in.
So what keeps men so inclined from striking out on their own to take their existence into their own hands? Society, it seems, is a self-perpetuating cycle. The trappings of modern life instill a sense of laziness in young persons growing up; they have literally no responsibilities until their cash expenditures or studies become intensive enough to warrant extra dedication towards the subject, a phenomenon that occurs between 14 years of age and sometime around 20.
Men are being raised in a world where it's no longer important to be a man. Laziness, self-obsession, vanity, and abstinence are products society has added to the recipe that were not present prior to the 1950's. And I view this dilution as a tragedy.
And why am I so concerned about all of this?
Because Theodore Roosevelt is my role model.