Yesterday I thought I had a lot to do, and in the end almost everything planned fell through. But the good thing was that I didn't know that would happen, so I got up early (or, at a decent hour) and did my laundry and some cleaning. Then as I waited and waited to get an email, I started cooking. I ended up spending the whole day in the kitchen, ( Read more... )

"Loneliness, I've read, is like being in a long line, waiting to reach the front where it's promised something good will happen. Only the line never moves, and other people are always coming in ahead of you, and the front, the place where you want to be, is always farther and farther away until you no longer believe it has anything to offer you ( Read more... )

In just one single day, all of the following happened ( Read more... )

- must like to dance (any styles)
- must take risks, whether or not she likes to
- must have opinions, regardless of what I think of them
- must like to travel
- must be at least bilingual
- must be at least somewhat weird (and at least somewhat aware of it)
- must be at least somewhat personable
- must be attractive (at least, to me, anyway)?

Tbc

Today was a strange day. It started out hot and humid, and then by early afternoon the darkest of dark clouds shaded the mountain and opened their flood gates. My co-worker mistook lightning for someone sending a flare out on the mountain. I called up a few places and did all the chores I've been putting off for so long--purchased health insurance ( Read more... )

I lay down my mat and start stepping in a sea of left-right legs, waiting for some higher instruction ( Read more... )

Saturday I went out to a queer bar with a friend. We were standing at the bar when, on the other side of my friend, the most beautiful woman I have ever seen appeared out of nowhere and smiled in our direction. She ordered her drink, and when she squeezed the lime it squirted down the bar directly onto my forehead. I said nothing, even though I'd ( Read more... )

At this moment, I feel it is important take stock of where I am in life ( Read more... )

Yesterday, at work, we had our first in-person team meeting with our boss. It started out on a very somber note: our boss announced that our co-worker in Toronto had a brain tumour. It was not cancerous, but she'd have to undergo radiation for the next 6 weeks, or else risk going blind in one eye ( Read more... )

Some people think they have ghosts that haunt them. I have memories. Memories of a time, a place, of people who are no longer here, who have gone away. The leaves fall, crinkling under my tires, the city is eerily silent. The leaves, reminding me at once of snow in all its deafening silence, of wearing layer upon layer and drinking tea and stlll ( Read more... )