Afraid of the dark...

[speqtre_ghast]

Well... it's been nearly a week... and my life still sucks... While it's true that I'm (barely) cheering up, I can't stop thinking about how much I need her. I can't stand this pain. It's unbarable... We talked today, and got into a discussion about it... but it ended up heating up, and I got angry and started being a jackass

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[lovlesnightmare]

you are being selfish. i've tried being caring and supportive but you are only thinking of yourself. when i talked to you about it a week ago and everytime i have talked to you or heard about it since all i hear is about how -you- miss her so much and how hard it is on -you-. you keep pushing her and you keep trying to get her back. *warning opinion statement to follow* have you considered the fact that perhaps the reason behind her being unhappy is the fact that you keep telling her that basically your entire being depends on her? its unhealthy to put so much of yourself into a relationship. yes being in a relationship is wonderful and you have to give to get in the relationship but you also have to be able to be yourself and stand on your own.

i love you like a brother but sometimes even sibling have to be harsh to help the other. i would like you to re-read that conversation, look at it and think about what i said.

[speqtre_ghast]

I already realise this, sis. There's nothing I can do about it. I stopped trying to push her, and I'm trying to live with this. I'm no good alone. I don't know how to stand up by myself. I have to have friends, or be in a relatioship to stand. It's nothing I can help. I'm trying to figure a way to, but it just doesn't work.

Only good thing is that I have a car, insured, and street legal. Next step is getting my liscense. I'm close to being on a good firm ground, but I'll never be able to stand on my own.