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[sperenza]

It looks as though I've taken somewhat of an hiatus from livejournal. I haven't really, but almost everything I have been writing I have been making private, which is normally really unlike me

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[mxristine]

I really like that icon.

[sperenza]

I love that picture, too. If you haven't seen that photo before, it's by Gottfried Helnwein, and that's actually Dita von Teese pushing the needle.

so..tired..

[plasticjsus]

I know you didn't really ask for advice per se, but.. I'm just giving it b/c I'm a concerned friend

Re: so..tired..

[sperenza]

I think I do accept myself for simply being a generally sad person. Depression really set in for me when I was about eleven or twelve...I thought it was just pre-teen, middle school angst, but it never really went away completely. Earlier on, there always used to be a very specific reason for why I felt the way I did. I started feeling depressed for no good reason when I was about fourteen, and I remember telling somebody that I just was feeling depressed for no reason at all, and he refuted that, saying that there had to be some sort of reason (not including a psychological culprit, which I'm assuming he either didn't believe in or wasn't familiar with).

Because my depression does feel situational (in the end, it almost always boils down to unfulfilled desires), I never really do anything about it, and my coping skills aren't the best.

I really appreciate your advice, and it didn't ramble and it made sense. And it wasn't long and/or preachy, either.

BTW, I bought you a copy of that magazine for you on Friday.

Re: so..tired..

[plasticjsus]

Thanks. A lot of times I post these things, especially anytime at night, I have no idea if I'm making any sense. and thanks for the mag! I'll send it off whenever I get it to prompt the absinthe shipment. I might be up for DG tomorrow..depending on how I feel.