100 Fic Challenge
065. Grip, Donghae/Donghae
“Stop it!” Donghae yelled, squeezing his eyes shut and falling to his knees.
Everyone stopped and turned to face Donghae, surprised looks all adorning their faces, the music still playing, going on without them.
“Donghae?” Eeteuk asked worriedly, hurrying to his side. He attempted to wrap his arms around Donghae’s shaking figure, but Donghae pushed them away.
“I…” Donghae tried forcing his eyes open, to look at all the worried faces in the practice room, “I’ll…” He shut his eyes again, the pain shooting through his head like a bolt of lighting. Ignoring all the concerned voices calling his name, he used all his strength to stand and run from the room.
Where are you going in such a hurry?
“Leave me alone!” Donghae seethed, clenching his head in his hands. He pushed the door to the bathroom open and slipped in.
You know I can’t do that...I can’t just leave whenever I want to.
Donghae took a deep shaky breath and shuffled over to the sink, “You came when you wanted,” Donghae choked turning on the faucet, “Why can’t you leave whenever you want too?
No, you’re wrong. I’ve always been here…Here inside of you.
There was an echo of laughter and Donghae flinched, placing his hand under the falling water splashing it into his face.
You see. I can’t leave, because I am you, Lee Donghae. I am you.
The pain in Donghae’s head increased, as he tried to keep himself stable, holding onto the sink. “Get out of my head!” Donghae tried screaming, but it only came out as a hoarse whisper.
I can’t. I am you Donghae. I control your thoughts, your dreams, your nightmares, your hopes, the ones you love, the ones you hate…
“You can’t-“ Donghae began but was cut off, his grip becoming tighter on the porcelain sink.
Control you?
More laughter echoed throughout the bathroom…but it seemed more like it was coming from inside Donghae. “Just leave me alone!”
I apologize for your suffering, because when you suffer, I suffer. After all we are one in the same.
“Stop saying that!” Donghae fell to his knees, his legs suddenly becoming week.
Can you not understand? Your dreams are my own, and the things you love are mine also.
“Leave me alone!” Donghae squeezed his eyes shut, and clenched his teeth, “You know nothing about me!”
The voice seemed to chuckle at him, and the room seemed to slowly become darker with each one of its words. The sound of the water emptying into the sink hovering in the air like an ominous charm.
I don’t know anything about you. Like how you love the way the house smells in the morning when the scent of coffee hangs in the air. Or the comforting feeling of arms around you in a gentle hug, when you think…
Donghae shuddered, his skin glistening with sweat.
…that no one is there for you and all that’s out there is darkness.
The last words were said in a harsh whisper, reverberating off the walls, now barely visible to Donghae.
I know you don’t like it when Eunhyuk asks for a sip of your water bottle, and then takes an entire gulp. Or how you love allowing Kibum to drink it all, just because you like to watch how gracefully he unscrews the lid and tilts his head back just so.
“Shut up!” Donghae screamed, covering his ears hoping that it would make his words stop.
I know how you were the one that tripped Hankyung. I know how you watched him fall down those concrete stairs and scratch his face, because you were jealous of his smooth skin and attractive appearance.
Donghae let out a small whimper.
I know how you stole Heechul’s cell phone, and then blamed it on Sungmin. I know how you enjoyed watching the young boy’s eyes flood with tears because he didn’t actually commit the crime.
“I never did that!” Donghae began to sob helplessly.
You enjoy watching the pain of others.
“LEAVE ME ALONE!” Donghae shrieked, curling up on the floor, tears beginning to fall from his eyes.
Grasp the situation, Donghae.
There was a quick knock on the bathroom door, and then the doorknob being turned.
No one is here…no one can save you.
The door shook violently, locked in place not being able to be pulled open.
“Donghae!” A concerned voice yelled through the door.
No one can here you. No one will save you. The darkness is closing in all around you. What will you do?
“Go away…” Donghae begged weakly, tears streaming down his face. The bathroom lights fading completely leaving Donghae in a veil of black.
I am you Lee Donghae. I am you.
“You aren’t anything like me!”
You are wrong…you see. I enjoy watching others suffer as well.
“Stop!” Donghae choked, seeming to suffocate in the cloud of black.
I don’t think I will.
Donghae tried to feel his way in the darkness. His fingers met the cold smooth surface of the sink, the water overflowing and spilling over the sides.
You were the one that rigged the car…Yes it was you. You made the car lose control and flip. You sent 4 of the members to the hospital, watching them suffer. Watching glass being removed from their torn backs. Watching the tears stream down everyone else’s faces. The pain in their eyes.
Donghae’s hand slipped from the sink, and he collapsed to the floor once again.
You made the whole group suffer…suffer because of your arrogance.
“You made them suffer,” Donghae whispered, his voice fading into the darkness.
Yes, WE made them suffer. Together. We are one.
Donghae felt a chill run down his spine, as he lay in pain across the tiled floor. It felt as though ice cold fingers were crawling up his back.
Donghae took a shaky breath.
The cold trailing up to his neck.
Donghae closed his eyes struggling to breath.
No one is here. No one can save you. You have no one but me.
“Leave me alone…” Donghae struggled to mutter.
I can’t. I have a hold on you, you cannot escape…
The cold around Donghae’s neck was ice cold. It was tightening…it was harder to breath.
I control your life.
Donghae clawed at his neck, trying to release himself from invisible hands.
I hold your fate in my hands.
Donghae choked, now not even able to release a squeak.
It all is in my...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The bathroom door was finally forced open, as a worried Eeteuk rushed in, only to cover his eyes and fall to his knees horrified.
Donghae’s body lay motionless on the ground. His eyes open in a silent plea for help and on the walls in dark crimson blood read the word…
Grip.
“Stop it!” Donghae yelled, squeezing his eyes shut and falling to his knees.
Everyone stopped and turned to face Donghae, surprised looks all adorning their faces, the music still playing, going on without them.
“Donghae?” Eeteuk asked worriedly, hurrying to his side. He attempted to wrap his arms around Donghae’s shaking figure, but Donghae pushed them away.
“I…” Donghae tried forcing his eyes open, to look at all the worried faces in the practice room, “I’ll…” He shut his eyes again, the pain shooting through his head like a bolt of lighting. Ignoring all the concerned voices calling his name, he used all his strength to stand and run from the room.
Where are you going in such a hurry?
“Leave me alone!” Donghae seethed, clenching his head in his hands. He pushed the door to the bathroom open and slipped in.
You know I can’t do that...I can’t just leave whenever I want to.
Donghae took a deep shaky breath and shuffled over to the sink, “You came when you wanted,” Donghae choked turning on the faucet, “Why can’t you leave whenever you want too?
No, you’re wrong. I’ve always been here…Here inside of you.
There was an echo of laughter and Donghae flinched, placing his hand under the falling water splashing it into his face.
You see. I can’t leave, because I am you, Lee Donghae. I am you.
The pain in Donghae’s head increased, as he tried to keep himself stable, holding onto the sink. “Get out of my head!” Donghae tried screaming, but it only came out as a hoarse whisper.
I can’t. I am you Donghae. I control your thoughts, your dreams, your nightmares, your hopes, the ones you love, the ones you hate…
“You can’t-“ Donghae began but was cut off, his grip becoming tighter on the porcelain sink.
Control you?
More laughter echoed throughout the bathroom…but it seemed more like it was coming from inside Donghae. “Just leave me alone!”
I apologize for your suffering, because when you suffer, I suffer. After all we are one in the same.
“Stop saying that!” Donghae fell to his knees, his legs suddenly becoming week.
Can you not understand? Your dreams are my own, and the things you love are mine also.
“Leave me alone!” Donghae squeezed his eyes shut, and clenched his teeth, “You know nothing about me!”
The voice seemed to chuckle at him, and the room seemed to slowly become darker with each one of its words. The sound of the water emptying into the sink hovering in the air like an ominous charm.
I don’t know anything about you. Like how you love the way the house smells in the morning when the scent of coffee hangs in the air. Or the comforting feeling of arms around you in a gentle hug, when you think…
Donghae shuddered, his skin glistening with sweat.
…that no one is there for you and all that’s out there is darkness.
The last words were said in a harsh whisper, reverberating off the walls, now barely visible to Donghae.
I know you don’t like it when Eunhyuk asks for a sip of your water bottle, and then takes an entire gulp. Or how you love allowing Kibum to drink it all, just because you like to watch how gracefully he unscrews the lid and tilts his head back just so.
“Shut up!” Donghae screamed, covering his ears hoping that it would make his words stop.
I know how you were the one that tripped Hankyung. I know how you watched him fall down those concrete stairs and scratch his face, because you were jealous of his smooth skin and attractive appearance.
Donghae let out a small whimper.
I know how you stole Heechul’s cell phone, and then blamed it on Sungmin. I know how you enjoyed watching the young boy’s eyes flood with tears because he didn’t actually commit the crime.
“I never did that!” Donghae began to sob helplessly.
You enjoy watching the pain of others.
“LEAVE ME ALONE!” Donghae shrieked, curling up on the floor, tears beginning to fall from his eyes.
Grasp the situation, Donghae.
There was a quick knock on the bathroom door, and then the doorknob being turned.
No one is here…no one can save you.
The door shook violently, locked in place not being able to be pulled open.
“Donghae!” A concerned voice yelled through the door.
No one can here you. No one will save you. The darkness is closing in all around you. What will you do?
“Go away…” Donghae begged weakly, tears streaming down his face. The bathroom lights fading completely leaving Donghae in a veil of black.
I am you Lee Donghae. I am you.
“You aren’t anything like me!”
You are wrong…you see. I enjoy watching others suffer as well.
“Stop!” Donghae choked, seeming to suffocate in the cloud of black.
I don’t think I will.
Donghae tried to feel his way in the darkness. His fingers met the cold smooth surface of the sink, the water overflowing and spilling over the sides.
You were the one that rigged the car…Yes it was you. You made the car lose control and flip. You sent 4 of the members to the hospital, watching them suffer. Watching glass being removed from their torn backs. Watching the tears stream down everyone else’s faces. The pain in their eyes.
Donghae’s hand slipped from the sink, and he collapsed to the floor once again.
You made the whole group suffer…suffer because of your arrogance.
“You made them suffer,” Donghae whispered, his voice fading into the darkness.
Yes, WE made them suffer. Together. We are one.
Donghae felt a chill run down his spine, as he lay in pain across the tiled floor. It felt as though ice cold fingers were crawling up his back.
Donghae took a shaky breath.
The cold trailing up to his neck.
Donghae closed his eyes struggling to breath.
No one is here. No one can save you. You have no one but me.
“Leave me alone…” Donghae struggled to mutter.
I can’t. I have a hold on you, you cannot escape…
The cold around Donghae’s neck was ice cold. It was tightening…it was harder to breath.
I control your life.
Donghae clawed at his neck, trying to release himself from invisible hands.
I hold your fate in my hands.
Donghae choked, now not even able to release a squeak.
It all is in my...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The bathroom door was finally forced open, as a worried Eeteuk rushed in, only to cover his eyes and fall to his knees horrified.
Donghae’s body lay motionless on the ground. His eyes open in a silent plea for help and on the walls in dark crimson blood read the word…
Grip.