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Before I get started with the meat of this post, let me recap what's been going on since my last post.
Work with CSU has been okay. Being the only EE on an ME/civE project has its benefits and drawbacks. On the one hand, when EE problems come up, I am the only one to call and there is plenty to do... on the other, if it's not an EE problem, I am more of a "body" than an asset... work is sporadic to say the least.
School started this week and I am reasonably excited about it. Finally get to study what I want to study. Namely, power systems, power electronics and control systems. Also, after some limited work with microcontrollers over the summer, I am decently excited for that class. The overall hope is for a semester full of A's and B's to boost my cumulative. Unfortunately, though I did a bit of hoop-jumping and butt-kissing, I could not get an exemption to take the one 400 level course I need to graduate on time. Sorta pissed, but trying to take it as an "opportunity"... also, with current economic news, I am not as confident about graduating in May any more.
Also, had an interview with Xcel Energy yesterday. It was hard to read the guy to be "engaging" like I know I'm supposed to be. Turns out he's the sort of lead engineer not the supervisor... so it may have just been a "engineers don't have people skills" kind of thing. I am not putting much hope in this job... it's in Denver, I don't feel like I "wowed" the interviewer... We'll see...
All that said, yesterday felt terrible. In an effort to look more professional for my interview yesterday, I chopped off my goatee. Afterwords, I immediately regretted it... I look even more foolish w/o than before. Next, with the sr. project lecture, I found out that I am the only one who didn't get a good internship... also the team I am probably going to end up with will probably be stocked with the "fail engineers" I've been trying to avoid. Then I had the lukewarm interview with Xcel. Finally, I spent the evening with my family. After all of that, I just felt completely drained. I keep having this fear that despite my work, it will be for naught. Despite following all the advice out there, I continue to "fail". Also, I feel like despite generally being charismatic I am not respected nor command the respect I need to land a reasonable job.
Well, I guess that does it for the rant. I need to get ready for my next class.
~Locke
Work with CSU has been okay. Being the only EE on an ME/civE project has its benefits and drawbacks. On the one hand, when EE problems come up, I am the only one to call and there is plenty to do... on the other, if it's not an EE problem, I am more of a "body" than an asset... work is sporadic to say the least.
School started this week and I am reasonably excited about it. Finally get to study what I want to study. Namely, power systems, power electronics and control systems. Also, after some limited work with microcontrollers over the summer, I am decently excited for that class. The overall hope is for a semester full of A's and B's to boost my cumulative. Unfortunately, though I did a bit of hoop-jumping and butt-kissing, I could not get an exemption to take the one 400 level course I need to graduate on time. Sorta pissed, but trying to take it as an "opportunity"... also, with current economic news, I am not as confident about graduating in May any more.
Also, had an interview with Xcel Energy yesterday. It was hard to read the guy to be "engaging" like I know I'm supposed to be. Turns out he's the sort of lead engineer not the supervisor... so it may have just been a "engineers don't have people skills" kind of thing. I am not putting much hope in this job... it's in Denver, I don't feel like I "wowed" the interviewer... We'll see...
All that said, yesterday felt terrible. In an effort to look more professional for my interview yesterday, I chopped off my goatee. Afterwords, I immediately regretted it... I look even more foolish w/o than before. Next, with the sr. project lecture, I found out that I am the only one who didn't get a good internship... also the team I am probably going to end up with will probably be stocked with the "fail engineers" I've been trying to avoid. Then I had the lukewarm interview with Xcel. Finally, I spent the evening with my family. After all of that, I just felt completely drained. I keep having this fear that despite my work, it will be for naught. Despite following all the advice out there, I continue to "fail". Also, I feel like despite generally being charismatic I am not respected nor command the respect I need to land a reasonable job.
Well, I guess that does it for the rant. I need to get ready for my next class.
~Locke