Wow I cant believe it!thbeatgozon69April 25 2006, 18:14:24 UTC
Interesting post there Melissa! I dont know what to say. I really dont! I guess that your background has a lot to do with your preferences and your sexuality awareness. I never even dreamed of having those experiences in the past! Of course I had heard that everybody has some homosexual fantasies and desires. I guess more power to you! You are a survivor! C
Re: Wow I cant believe it!spicelieApril 25 2006, 18:31:24 UTC
You don't have to say anything. Everyone including my girlfriend Jaci, the first time I told her she didn't know what to say either. Actually she was more appauled than anything. She's like, "jesus fucking christ Melissa, what the fuck? Are you lying or telling the truth?" And I'd just sit there and she'd look at me and say, "you're serious aren't you"? And I was, I was dead serious. I still am. I don't think I could ever tell my mom, she'd just feel sorry for me even more. And I don't need that. I don't want it. Its in the past, what's done is done
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Re: Wow I cant believe it!thbeatgozon69April 25 2006, 18:35:55 UTC
I guess so. I find that talking about it, even if nobody can find a solution or a way to help heal the hurting does make it better. It just helps to talk about it because you're hearing yourself saying the words, or in this case, seeing yourself typing the words. I have problems too just like everyone else. I have trouble dealing with my past in that I was bullied and constantly tortured and picked on. There is also of course my problems with dealing with loss, as you had read a few days earlier. Then there is the loss of my deep relationship with Wally. Need I say anything more? C
Re: Wow I cant believe it!spicelieApril 25 2006, 18:46:07 UTC
Yeah, I like talking about things too. It does help that my saying it gets it out of me and into the air with only a few mouths to respond to it.
I understand where you are coming from. Being bullied and tortured and picked on in high school is a common thing now a days. Before you know it, we'll all be screwed up in the head and we'll have wackos killing people. I will admit dealing with loss is hard. Especially if you are close.
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I guess that your background has a lot to do with your preferences and your sexuality awareness.
I never even dreamed of having those experiences in the past! Of course I had heard that everybody has some homosexual fantasies and desires.
I guess more power to you! You are a survivor!
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solution or a way to help heal the hurting does make it better. It just helps to talk about it because you're hearing yourself saying the words, or in this case, seeing yourself typing the words.
I have problems too just like everyone else. I have trouble dealing with my past in that I was bullied and constantly tortured and picked on. There is also of course my problems with dealing with loss, as you had read a few days earlier. Then there is the loss of my deep relationship with Wally.
Need I say anything more?
C
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I understand where you are coming from. Being bullied and tortured and picked on in high school is a common thing now a days. Before you know it, we'll all be screwed up in the head and we'll have wackos killing people. I will admit dealing with loss is hard. Especially if you are close.
Need you say more.... nope, I totally agree.
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