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[spidermaniac]

I am pretty much over this shit. I have accepted the fact that no one cares anymore. I have come to terms with the fact that if it doesn't affect you directly, then you're not interested. But don't lie and say that we mean everything to you and you are devoted. Because it's entirely obvious that it's all a lie. If you really cared you wouldn't blow

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[raggdoll23]

Matt, I just want you to know that I have never stopped caring about you. It makes me sad that we haven't hung out more because whenever I've talked to you about my problems, you've always actually listened and cared. I hope I'v been there when you've needed me, and if I've ever failed at that, I'm sorry more than I can say. I really want you to know that I've always been beyond glad to call you my friend. I love you so much.

[hlnmcc05]

sincere love, giant hugs, and total understanding of the words in this post for you, matt, from me.

[so_do_it]

hm. I fear that this is to another facet, than I feel. So, um, I feel the same way, just a different facet. AM I one of the one you wonder about? I dont even think facet is a word, and if it is, I dont think I used it in the right context.

[nessers]

It is, more or less.

[spidermaniac]

No.

[nessers]

I've been distant from you because you've gone a different route. I'm worried about your hanging out with certain groups of people and your want to drink and smoke and try drugs. It scares me, Matt. But I know that if I bring it up, you'll get angry or resentful because I've tried it with others. And I figured you weren't interested in really hanging out with me anymore because you always talk about how I'm not fun because I'm not as active or restless or reckless as I once was.

That, and I really haven't done much of anything with anyone lately.

[spidermaniac]

Vanessa I love you. I do. But I don't so much love the light I have seen you in lately. You have changed so much as has everyone, including myself. As for the smoking and drinking, I may say that I want to try it, but in reality, I wouldn't. I'm not that person. I was pretty much just complaining about my boredom and wanted to do something extreme. But I'm not becoming part of any "group". Yes I hang out with people that do that stuff. But I'm not one to fall into something I really don't want to.

And the fact that we haven't hung out lately really has -nothing- to do with the your less reckless nature. I don't care about that at all. I know I have said stuff like that, but that was just "in the moment" shit. I am just tired of feeling like I'm wasting my time.

[nessers]

Ouch. Okay. Mind if I ask -what- light it is I've been in lately, since I haven't really seen or talked in anyone except in small doses lately?

I'm not sure that whatever it is you're seeing you're seeing the whole picture. But if that's the way you see it, I guess there's not much I can do about it.

I'm sorry you feel that way. I wish you didn't. I'm rather hurt, but if you don't have, for whatever reason, respect of whatever it is you've found lacking for me lately, I suppose I can't hold it against you. If this means you don't want to be around me, I guess I can't hold that against you, either.

You're still my little brother. At least to me. I love you. I'll always be around if you need me.

And, I guess.. good bye until then.

[ricashaye]

Well, I'm sure a bunch of this is aimed at me. I'm not going to say much because I don't want my mouth to run away from me.

You have changed. And I worry about that.

I've felt for awhile that since I've begun to change, you want nothing to do with me.

And if you're done with me, well fine. I'm done with you too, then.