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well since im leaving this lame not interesting journal i figured id leave behind one of my storys i had on fd.net
ok so its kinda uber long, so sue me
Brian looked up as the studio door opened
Davids head poked in "hi, didnt want to disturb you but phone" he said, holding the cordless black phone out
Brian reached over "thanks sweetheart" and took it
David left the room again to let his husband talk in peace
Brian looked at the screen on the phone only to see it said 'unknown caller'
(phonecall)
Brian- hello brian martin speaking
"other- hello, im calling from st marks private hospital emergency room, do you have a son by the name william martin?
Brian- yeah, whats wrong is he ok?
other- theres been an accident im afraid, he and his mother were in a motor accident, mrs aldwin is d.o.a but william is in theater, would you be able to come down, we have you as his only contact other then his mother
Brian- yeah ill be there asap, st marks was it?
other- yes st marks memorial hospital, william is on the 5ft floor in ward 27 childrens theater
Brian- oh god, ok im on my way now, do i have to check in or anything?
other- no just notify the nurse on arrival
Brian- thankyou, bye
(end call)
Brian threw the phone onto his armchair and ran out of his studio
David looked up from his paperwork "whats wrong? he asked
Brian grabbed his keys and jacket "theres been an accident, clairs dead and billys in theater, my babys been in a car crash, i gotta go to st marks" he said
David jumped up and grabbed his keys "ill drive, cmon" he said, taking brians hand and hurrying out of their house to the black utility jeep in the driveway
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"please sit down ir, the doctor will come talk to you in time, hes with your son now" the receptionist said softly
Brian wiped angrily at his tears "how can i just sit here when my baby is in there fighting for his life? he half asked half yelled
David pulled his husbands hand "cmon bri, lets just sit down ok" he said, dragging him to the other end of the room
Brian flopped into a chair and sighed "i havent seen my baby since he was 3 weeks old and here i am yelling at the hired help" he laughed
David held his hand "you care thats all, its not everyday your first and only child has to fight for his life because his stupid abusive mother gets herself killed" he said sourly
Brian laughed even more "geez calm down, shes dead now, she cant tell everyone about us and we can have my little boy with us" he said, going quiet again and looked at the baby posters round the room
"bri hell be ok, hes not gonna die, hes a strong little boy dont worry" David said, lightly kissing brian on the lips
Brian smiled "i love you ya know that" he said
David smiled too "i know, i love you too, im gonna go get some coffee, want anything? he asked, getting up
Brian thought about it "get me coffee too" he said
"and dont kill the nurse while im gone" David said while walking out of the room
--3 hours later--
Brian sat there watching the clock and worrying
David came in and sat down "they dont know how long this is gonna take" he said
Brian sighed "this is her fault, and if she wasnt dead id kill her" he growled
David sighed "i know you would but how about you concentrate on the little boy in there fighting for his life instead of killing his mother" he said
Brian smiled "what would i do without you? he asked
David smiled too "probably go on a rampage" he said softly "and maybe kill that nurse over there" he joked
Brian chuckled "ok no more jokes about the nurse, shes getting edgy" he said, taking Davids hand in his
--another 2 hours later--
Brian sat bolt upright when the doctor walked into he room
"is billy ok? he asked hurridly
the doctor held his hand up "your mr martin i guess? he asked
Brian nodded
"williams got some serious injurys for a a 6 month old, hes in a drug induced coma, we think its best until hes started healing, considering hes malnutritioned and already had injurys, the most worrying thing is he has spinal injurys, at this time were unsure of the extent of them, its too risky to operate on a childs spine, for a child so small. he has 3 broken ribs and one has punctured his left lung, he has a cracked skull and his right leg is broken in 3 places, infact the boy is lucky to be alive, im surprised he made it to the emergency room" the doctor explained
Brian hung his head "my poor baby, is there any way i can stay with him? he asked
the doctor nodded "we have a bed in there for you, we can only allow one in there at a time" he said
Brian took Davids hand "go home, get some sleep ok, ill call in the morning ok? he asked
David nodded "ill bring you some stuff in the morning sweetheart" he said, kissing Brians hand
Brian nodded and left his husband to follow the doctor
Brian sat down beside the cot and tentavly touched the infants tiny hand, he didnt recognise the child, the billy he remembered was a tiny little baby wrapped in a yellow blanket as the car he was in drove away, out of his fathers life supposed to have been gone forever, Billy looked older now, his skinny little face was framed by longish black hair, his face was shaped to fit him, he definatly didnt look like the baby he was, hed grown into himself
Billy was sprawled out in a cot, only in nappys, he had tubes in his nose and mouth and a drip attatched to his thigh of his left leg, his right leg was almost fully covered in plaster, his chest was badly bruised and there was a huge gash on his forehead covered with a white gauze pad stuck to his face
Brian stifled a sob as he watched his childs chest quickly rise and fall with the help of the oxygen machine he was hooked up to
"billy im sorry, i shouldve never let her take you, all because i didnt want people to know what i am, your lying here because i didnt want to ruin my reputation, well i promise i wont let anything or anyone hurt you ever again, your gonna come live with me and poppy, your gonna have nothing but he best, godknows you deserve it" Brian said while stroking the childs hand, determined to make life good for him
--2 days later--
"well hes doing well, hes healing ok, we'll have to do more tests but i think its safe to say theres no serious spinal injurys, his lung is healing and soon ill be able to take him out of the coma" the doctor said, while inserting the new drips cord into the end of the needle on Billys thigh
Brian sighed "thats good news, ive done nothing but worry, hes so small though, is that normal? he asked
the doctor placed a light blanket over the baby "no, his growth rate isnt right for a infant his age, ive put it down to malnutrition, his system is void of anything he shouldve been getting, i dont think hes ever been fed on breast milk, straight to the bottle then off it some time ago, his drip has the most important nutrients he needs and once hes awake we can start him on a formula, he should start gaining weight once that goes ahead but its nothing to be worried about at this stage" he explained
Brian nodded "ok, how long is he gonna be in a coma? he asked softly, slightly worried if he spoke too loud hed wake the baby, which was impossible
"id say untill the end of the week, then his back will have had a good chance at healing so if he does move around alot it wont do any damage" the doctor said
Brian nodded and came over o the plastic crib "ok, and when will i be able to take him home? he asked, softly touching the balled hand
"not sure, sometime in the next 4 weeks i hope, if hes healing well maybe 3 weeks, its best not to rush these things with someone his age" the doctor patted Brians back and started to leave the room, stopping at the door "if theres any questions you have dont hesitate to find me, im here until 7 then he'll have the night pedeatrician come in and check on him" he smiled then left the small room
Brian sat down beside the crib and ran his fingers over the small hands then arms of his son "billy can you even hear me? he asked then smiled "i guess you can, last night i made a list of things for your room, davids going shopping today for it, were gonna get you a crib and a bed, not a big bed but big enough for you while your small, though you wont be in it for 2 more years but still, im gonna make a plan for your room when david brings my paper in, and when our house in annapolis is built youll have a custom designed room, all for you, you need some toys ya know that, nothing your mom ever gave you either, everything new, only the best huh" he leant down and kissed Billys head, just above the healing cut, the doctor had removed the gauze that morning
there was a soft knock at the door then David came in with a duffel bag and a toyshop bag "hi, i wouldve been here sooner but i saw the toy shop and couldnt resist" he said, placing the duffel bag on the floor gently and coming over to the bed
"what did you buy? Brian asked, trying to look in the bag
"just things every little boy needs" David stated, pulling a pacifier out of the bag then a baby mobile and a teddybear
Brian took the pacifier and ripped the package open "this is wierd, its nothing like a nipple or anything, its a hunk of rubber on a piece of plastic" he joked
David sighed "your mother never taught you about babys did she" he said
Brian poked his tounge out and examined the mobile
--a week since the accident--
Brian sat quietly beside the bed, watching Billys hands move slightly
the doctor gently stuck a plaster on Billys thigh where hed taken the drip out, the actual medicine having been stopped and hour beforehand by the nurse
"he should wake up anytime soon, hungry and scared" the doctor told Brian
"ok, so hes not gonna be in pain is he? Brian asked
the doctor smiled "no, hes had a morphine shot and once thats wearing off he'll go on oral painkillers" he said
"how does one get a baby to take medicine orally? David asked
the doctor pulled a needle-less syringe from his pocket "we draw the amount into here and make his mouth open, he should be on mush anyway so this wont be difficult for him" he said, handing the syringe to David to look at
Brian leaned fowards when Billys tiny face scrunched up and his mouth puckered up
the doctor looked over "hes waking up, ill leave you alone" he said leaving the room
Brian gently ran the backs of his fingers over Billys face, in a weak attempt to calm him
David sat on the other side of the bed and watched with a smile on his face
Billys mouth opened and a small scream came out then continued into full on crying, with tears and all
"oh billy shh its ok shh" Brian cooed, rubbing Billys belly softly
Billy opened his eyes and looked at the man with the strange voice
Brian smiled at his child only to be screamed at
David grabbed the pacifier from the steriliser and held it infront of Billy
Billy looked at it and grabbed it with his small hands, stuffing it in his mouth and quietning down
Brian gave Billy his finger to hold onto "hey little buddy, how you feeling huh? he asked
Billys eyes fluttered between the 2 strangers looking at him
there was a knock at the door and the nursery nurse came in "hi, didnt want to disturb you but we thought he might be hungry" she said, placing a tub on the nightstand and showing them the 2 bottles of formula it contained "its also a good bonder, feeding him, although i hear your not allowed to actually lift him up, holding the bottle for him will show him your not gonna hurt him" she said
Brian smiled "thanks, ill try him on it" he said, grabbing a bottle and testing it on his wrist
the nurse smiled and left them alone again
Brian smiled "hey billy you hungry, i guess you should be, you havent eaten in a week" he said, showing Billy the bottle
Billys hands reached out and he spat the pacifier out, he whinged a little, half clapping each hand, wanting the bottle
Brian ignored the outstretched hands and stuck the bottle in his sons mouth, holding it for him
Billy put his small hands on the bottle and drank contentedly
David smiled and touched Billys foot "i guess hes hungry" he said quietly
"yeah, he doesnt seem scared though" Brian said, not moving his gaze from the baby or the smile from his face
they didnt speak anymore, they just sat and watched Billy drink, not bothering to look at each other, all that mattered was the little boy in the crib
everynow and then Billy would smack the bottle, when the suction stopped his food and he had to let go
--Billys 3rd week--
the doctor sighed "sorry kiddo but i gotta take a bloodtest before you can go home" he said, taking Billys chubby bubby foot
Billy looked at him innocently, not expecting this
the doctor got the little needle they used and held the plastic case to Billys foot "hold him marie" he said
the nurse did as she was told
the doctor pressed the button on the plastic and the needle shot into Billys foot
Billy, who had been calm through the check up, screamed and started trying to pull his leg back to himself
Brian stopped packing the baby toys and looked at his son
Billys face was beet red and streaked with tears as he screamed
the doctor collected some blood in a vile then let go
Billys foot flew to his body and he looked round the room "maamaaa! he screamed
the doctor put a bright green plaster on Billys foot then rubbed his knee "its all over now, the horrible doctors finished" he said amusidly
"can i take him home now? Brian asked
"go ahead, hes probably tired of all the prodding and poking hes been through, and im sure hes going to be pampered" the doctor said smiling
David came in from taking the first 2 bags to the car "ill finish if ya want" he said, grabbing some toys and the bag
Brian went to the crib and looked at his pouting baby "you ok? he asked
Billy held his arms out and pouted pathetically
Brian scooped him up, being careful with his plastered leg
Billy pushed his face into his daddys shirt and exhaled loudly
"how about i get you dressed and we go get icecream? Brian asked
Billy looked up and smiled "ice ceeme" he said in his cute little voice
--6 weeks later--
Brian quietly entered the now blue baby room and went to the desk to grab the medicine and dropped, he opened the bottle and stuck the dropper into it, drawing out 50mls of the pink contents, he put the cap on the bottle and stood it back on the desk beside the wall, he walked not so quietly to the bed and watched the child sleeping
Billy had his arms up over his head and his fists balled, his head was to the left and his breath came in small pants, he couldnt breath properly yet because his lung wasnt completly healed, his chest wasnt as bruised as before, just sickly yellow, visible because all he wore was the nappys, thats all the doctors wanted him in so you could see if anything went wrong
Brian gently shook Billys shoulder "billy sweetie cmon medicine time" he said
Billy swung his arm at the disturbance and slept on
Brian smiled "you sure are a sleeper son" he said, this time shaking Billys good leg softly
Billy whined and screwed his face up
Brian tried to get the dropper into his sons mouth but Billy just pushed it away and kept his mouth shut
Brian sighed, the doctors had told him to pinch Billys thigh if he wouldnt take his medicine, so thats what he did, he pinched Billys thigh and almost immediatly got a response
Billy screwed his face up and started to scream in a shrill baby cry
Brian rubbed the boys thigh gently and pushed the dropped between his gums and squeezed, the vile pink medicine going into his sons mouth
Billys screams were silented for a second while he swallowed then he started again
Brian picked him up from the bed and hugged him gently "shh its all over now sweetie shhh" he cooed, jigging round the room
David came into the bedroom with a bottle and a kanga toy "hi, heard his scream so i grabbed this" he said, handing Brian the bottle of warm milk
Brian handed it to Billy and sighed as Billy stuffed it in his mouth and almost instantly quietned down
"how was work? Brian asked
Davd shrugged "havent got anything much, just small cases so i can take more time off if i want, to help you and Billy get settled in" he said, kissing the childs head then his lovers cheek
"were doin ok, he sleeps most of the time, gives me time to work on some designs, ya know, for the house" Brian said, watching as Billy looked round his new bedroom
David gently took the child into his own arms "hey little buddy, i got you this today" he said, handing him the kanga toy
Billys eyes lit up and he dropped the bottle to grab the toy
Brian smiled "i guess hes taking to us pretty well considering" he said
David smiled too "well yeah, his mother beat him, hes probably never been loved, hes getting something he never had before and he likes it" he said logically
Brian chuckled "analising my kid there david, im gonna get dinner on, you ok with him? he asked
David nodded "yeah, dont worry, hes fine with me" he said, watching Billys eyes skim round the room again
Brian laughed "i guess dark blues a good colour for him, hes always looking at the walls" he said, kissing the boys head then walking to the doorway "oh the papers arrived today, we just sign them and hes in our complete care, dad" he then left to the kitchen
David sat down in the armchair with Billy in his lap and he started making faces while Billy laughed and tried to copy him
a couple of days later
Brian woke with a start, not knowing what woke him up, David was fast asleep beside him and no noise was coming from the baby moniter
Brian sighed and rolled to spoon David
"maamaa" a small voice came from the bedside table
Brian looked at the baby moniter and realised Billy must have said something and woken him up
Brian carefully unspooned from David and rolled out of bed, he grabbed his pants from the floor and a tshirt off the back of a chair and left the bedroom
Brian opened the door to the blue baby room and peered in, Billy was sitting up in his crib and he was playing with his toys he had in there
"morning billy" Brian said, entering the room smiling
Billy grinned and held his tigger up "ook" he said
"i see him, how long have you been up huh, its 9am, how long have you let me sleep huh? Brian asked, taking the bars to the crib down and scooping Billy up
Billy clung to his dads tshirt and looked round the room
Brian went to the change table and lay Billy on it "you... smell william" he stated smiling
Billy looked up at the mobile that swung above his head
Brian bussled about the room, gathering nappys, wipes, powder, new clothing and the pacifyer
Billy just lay there, his broken leg sticking out at a awkward angle
once the baby was renappied and dressed Brian examined the outfit on his boy, Billy looked quite stupid, not the clothing but the way his pants hugged the thick cast on his leg
"i wonder if you can walk yet? brian asked, sitting Billy up and tickling his foot
Billy giggled and squirmed round
Brian sighed "i guess i should feed you huh, cos that belly just growled at me" he smiled and scooped the boy up
Billy happily sucked on his thumb while being carried downstairs
Brian pulled the highchair out of the corner and sat Billy in it, pulling the footrest for the kasted leg to rest on
Billy sucked in his lower lip and looked round the kitchen "mamaa" he gurgled
Brian smiled "im gonna have to teach you a few new words cos i can tell ya now im not you mama" he said while grabbing the bread from the cupboard "how about a sandwhich huh, somthing you can make a mess of" he said, grabbing the margarine and peanut butter
Brian came rushing into the bedroom "hey, im running late, if you need me to get anything on the way home page me, and ill see you later lil guy" he said, the first to David and the second to his son who was sitting in a playpen with his foam building blocks
"good luck bri" David said, giving his husband a quick peck
"bye" brian kissed both his men and ran out to his car
"i guess its just us for a couple of hours little guy, what can we do huh, hire some porn, drink beer and burp... not a good idea huh, i guess not, porns bad, cos its all fake boobed mommies like yours and we dont like beer cos its bad and burping... well we save burping for you once youve pigged out" David said, crouching down by the playpen and giving Billy his tiggertoy
David jumped when a shrill cry came from upstairs and the baby moniter
he looked at the clock, noting Billy usually wasnt awake for another hour, he jogged up the stairs and into the blue bedroom
Billy was lying on top of his blankets in his nappys screaming
"billy hey shh whats got you so upset huh? David said softly, lifting the boy out of the crib and hugging him
Billy screamed still and flailed his fists around
David sat in the armchair "what is it? he asked, sitting Billy in his lap "what, are you teething, your not wet... are you hungry what huh, cmon sweetie calm down" he said, hugging Billy
Billy managed to get one word through his screams "owwww! then he continued screaming
David looked at Billys red tearstreaked face "oww, does your back hurt, ok cmon lets go to poppy and daddys room" he stood up and carried Billy through the hall and into the red room
David sat on the bed and one handedly smoothed the covers out
Billy still screamed in pain, his throat was hurting too now
"ok, lie here for me" David said, laying Billy on his tummy on the bed
Billy just screamed even louder now
David hurried into the bathroom and grabbed the liquid painkillers, he drew some of it into the syringe and ran back to the infant "ok billy drink this and itll make it better" he said, pushing the syringe into Billys mouth
Billy drank the medicine and continued to scream
David put the now empty syringe on the nightstand and started to rub Billys back
the doctor had told them Billy was going to have backaches because of his injury and to lay him on a bed and give him a massage and some medicine
Billy quietened some and made a sucking noise
David sighed "bottle or dummie? he asked
Billy looked at him "bopple" he said
"ok, be right back, dont move" David jumped up and ran downstairs to find the bottle of milk and formula hed made that morning, he tested it then ran back upstairs, he slowly sat on the bed and put the nob of the bottle in Billys mouth
Billys hand came up and he held onto it himself and started to drink
David placed his hand on Billys bare back and started to rub in soft circles
Billy lat there watching out the window and drinking his bottle contentedly
David smiled and leant down to kiss Billys head "i reckon you just wanted attention huh" he smirked then sat up again
Billy eventually let his eyes fall closed, he dropped the bottle and lay there breathing softly
David moved up to sit against the headboard, he looked at the infant and smiled, Billy was perfect in everyway
David got bored so he switched the tv on, making sure it wasnt loud enough to wake Billy up
Brian crept up the stairs and peeked into Billys room to find he wasnt there "oh, whats david done with my baby" he muttered to himself, he closed Billys bedroom door and went across the hall to his bedroom, he peered round the door and smiled "hey, my 2 men together in one bed, thats a kodak moment" he said smiling
David tore his gaze away from the tv "hey, when did you get home? he asked, quietly
Brian came in and sat quietly on the other side of the bed "about 5 minutes ago, i thought he was taking to the crib? he asked, rubbing Billys chubby bubby leg softly
"he is, he woke up screaming, he said ow so i brought him in here and gave him the massage, he fell asleep after the bottle though" David said, turning the tv to mute and looking at his husband
Brian grabbed the baby blanket and draped it over Billy "poor fella, i hope he doesnt have it all his life" he said
David sighed "yeah, hey i gotta call the office and get my messages, you gonna stay with him or put the pillows round him? he asked
Brian shrugged "pillows, give him some tummy time by himself" he said
the 2 men organised Pillows under the blankets around Billy in a protective wall so he couldne fall off the bed
Brian smiled as Billys thumb popped into his mouth "hes ok for now, just leave the moniter in here" he said to David
they kissed and left the room to do seperate things
Brian went to cook dinner while David rang the office
Brian hopped upstairs quickly and popped his head into the bedroom, he smiled when he saw Billy sitting up looking round rather frazzled
Brian went into the room and walked to the bed "hey billy, have a nice sleep? he asked
Billy held his arms out and grizzled
"ok, cmon how about we go get some clothes and get something to eat huh? Brian asked as he scooped Billy from the nest they made
Billy smiled and sucked on his dads shirt collar
Brian chuckled "your hungry arent you, how about we skip clothes, youve got nappys, lets go get some food" he said, going down the stairs
Billy smiled really wide when he spotted the tv and he pointed at it
"later huh, how about some mush, we got alot of mush for ya" David said, coming into the room with a plate of... mush
"whats that? Brian asked, sitting Billy in the highchair
David sat down infront of the highchair with the bowl "carrots and potatoes, just from the list dr campbell gave us" he said, getting a small spoonful of it and holding it to Billys mouth
Billy at it and made a face, as if he were thinking, he then opened his mouth again
"i guess he likes it, its kinda sad that hes way behind other babys his age, he should be on solids and hes eating mush" David said thoughtfully
Brian smiled "but theres nothing better then mush poppy" he joked then went into the kitchen
CHAPTER 2
billys first babysitter
David handed his baby to Mike as soon as he opened the door "im gonna be late and im not even ready yet" he said, rushing into the house
"hey there billy, im your uncle mike and were gonna have fun without your strange daddys tonight arent we" Mike said, walking into the living room
"thanks mike, we really didnt know who else to call, we kinda need to find regular babysitters" David said while tying his tie
Mike smiled and lay the baby on the blanket on the floor in his nappy "no problem, this little guy doesnt look like he can do much damage anyway" he said
David smirked "just you wait, hes a little horror, oh crap, look i really have to go, im suposed to be meeting bri in 10 minutes" he said, he scooped Billy off the floor again and kissed his podgy cheek "be back later sweetheart, dont be too much trouble for mike" he said handing the calm child to Mike
Mike took Billy and followed David to the front door "have fun, see ya later" he called
Billy waved and gurgled "bye bye" he said
Mike went back into the iving room and as soon as he sat Billy down he started to scream
Mike scooped him up and he stopped crying
"ohh i get it, this is a game huh, your gonna make things hard for me" Mike said
*across town at a formal dinner party*
Brian raised his eyebrows as David walked up to him
"shut up i know im late" he said smiling
"i wont hold it against ya, how was billy today? Brian asked
"ok, he had some tummy time and stretched his leg a bit, ya know, kicking the living shit outta things" David said
"well lets go make me rich" Brian said, taking Davids hand and walking into the main hall
*back to billy, 3 hours later*
Mike watched the boys eyes blink slower and slower as he drifted to sleep
"about fucking time to huh" mike said softly
Billy had screamed and kicked then threw his mush on the floor, he splashed water everywhere throwing a tantrum in the bath then spread his toys all over the living room, he finally started to wind down about half an hour ago
Mike lifted the bottle away and smiled as the baby just rolled his head to the other side and slept on
"how was it? a voice asked, making Mike jump at least 3 feet in the air
"sorry, aww hes all tuckered out" Brian said, smiling at his brother whod just had the living daylights scared out of him
"he is a brat, made a lot of mess, didnt eat much, took his nappy off godknows how many times ugh, hes a stubborn one" Mike said
brian lifted the boy out of the crib and cradled him to his chest
Billy started to softly whine at the disturbance, he opened his eyes and saw his dad infront of him and grizzled pathetically
"aww did you make trouble for your uncle mike" Brian said, rubbing the boys back
"hes not that bad i guess, he does have his moments" Mike said smiling
"hes great, oh here" brian handed his brther a 20 dollar note "thanks for watching him" he said
"thanks man, ill see ya on sunday i guess" mike said, pockiting the 20
"yeah, bye" brian said, distracted by watching his baby sleep in his arms
Brian looked down at the sleeping child in the baby pack he was wearing "poor lil billy" he said, rubbing the foot sticking out little baby jeans
David came up to him looking frustrated "ya know they couldve sent some remotly smart people to do this, agghh, they were trying to make the bannister with gib instead of the rimu we ordered" he exclaimed, throwing his arms up in annoyance
Brian sighed "call the company and complain, im gonna go out back, billys gonna burn out here" he said, walking away from his pissed off husband and going round to the huge yard the house had
Brian jumped when a little hand grabbed hold of his shirt
he looked down to see Billy looking sleepily round "hey billy, what are you doing awake huh? he asked, rubbing Billys back through the pack
Billy looked up and grizzled, showing his gums and looking very unhappy
Brin frowned "whats wrong sweetie, your not hot, are you hungry? he asked
Billy grizzled and pushed his podgy hand to his left ear
Brian frowned "what, is your ear sore sweetie? he asked concerndly
Billy grizzled more and kicked his feet
Brian moved Billys hand and felt his ear, it was bright red and hot "ok lil buddy i think we have to go to the doctors" he said
Billy just layed his head back on his fathers chest and grizzled
Brian walked round the nearly finished house to the front yard "hey dave somethings wrong with billys ear so im gonna head down to the doctors with him, wanna come or not? he asked
David stopped glowering at the builders and came over "i want to but i dont want them messing our house up, poor billy" he said, rubbing Billys back and kissing his head
Brian rubbed Billys back and started down the road, since the doctors was just around the corner there was no point driving him there
(billys 3 now)
David crawled up Brians body smiling cheekily "ya know its been awhile since we had time to do anything" he said
Brian was about to say something but a small voice came into the room
"daddy, poppy i sweep in here? Billy asked
David rolled onto his back and groaned
Brian sat up 'hey what are you doing up huh? he asked, turning the lamp on
Billy came over ad looked up "hurts to bref" he stated
Brians eyes went wide "it hurts to breath? he asked
Billy nodded and clamboured onto the bed "pwease can we sweep in here? he asked, showing his tigger toy
David got up "i just gonna fix this, what are we gonna do with him? he asked
Brian pulled Billy onto his bedcovered lap "i dont know, if it hurts for him to breath we might have to gt him checked out and i dont want anything to happen while were sleeping" he said
Billy curled up on his daddys lap and pushed his face into his barechest
David nodded "ill go get dressed and we can go to the hospital" he said, going into the walkin wardrobe they had
Brian stroked Billys floppy hair "you tired there buddy? he asked
Billy nodded and stuck his thumb in his mouth
David came out pulling his jacket on "want me to get him dressed? he asked
Brian shook his head "nah, they may want him in overnight, his pyjamas are better, just get his blanket will ya" he said, handing his tired child to his husband
David took his son into his own bedroom "ok bills, you sit here for me and ill find your shoes" he said, sitting Billy on his bed
Billy flopped backwards and grabbed his empty bottle
David took it "no, you know your supposed to only have one when you go to bed billy, do you want some juice or water instead? he asked
Billy nodded "juice poppy" he said
"ok, shoes first though" David said, slipping billys left shoe on and doing the velcro up then doing the same with his right
Billy held his arms up to be carried
David grabbed the blue fluffy blanket and wrapped it round Billy before hoisting him up "ok lets get you some juice" he said, carrying Billy downstairs and into the kitchen
Billy sat on the counter waiting patiently
Brian came down the stairs and into the kitchen "hey billy, were gonna go in the car to see the doctors ok? he asked
Billy nodded
David handed Billy his tommy tippee with apple juice in it
"fankew" Billy said, drinking his drink happily
Brian scooped Billy up off the couter and followed David to the garage
Brian strapped Billy securly in his booster seat
Billy looked round the car "daddy dark" he said worridly
David flicked the light on "that better buddy? he asked
Billy nodded and went back to his juice
Brian stopped from putting his seatbelt on "ya think hes gonna need diapers or anything, i mean he is drinking so he might wet them" he said
David laughed "i think you already decided the answer to that" he said, jumping out and grabbing the outing bag they had packed in the garage
the doctor listened to Billys chest as Billy watched curiously, hed seen enough doctors in his life to not be afraid
Brian and David were standing in the corner watching the doctor examine their son
"ok billy can you take a deep breath for me? the doctor asked
Billy did as he was told, taking a huge breath only to cough it out again
the doctor stood up "well billy i think you have asthma and your daddys can stop worrying" he said, handing Billy some jellybeans
Billy smiled and looked round the bed he was perched on
"so will he get and inhaler or something? David asked
the doctor scribbled something down on a perscription form "yup, take this to the pharmacy and theyll give you 2 inhalers, a orange one for when hes having an attack and a blue one when he gets weezy or short of breath, theyll give you a spacer, just attatch the inhaler on the end and it distributes the medicine more evenly and theyll give you hire of a dehumidifier until you can get your own, just fill out this form and the government will send you one" he said, handing the perscription to David with the form for the dehumidifier
Billy looked up and squealed in delight
all 3 of them looked at him
Billy was staring at a mobile of stars and moons while stuffing jellybeans in his mouth
the doctor smiled "he seems to be doing well considering the first year of his life, hows he sleeping at night? he asked
Brian smiled "usually sleeps right through, he goes out like a light but hes an early waker" he said
the doctor looked at Billy "hes still on a bottle or pacifyer isnt he? he asked
David answered this time "bottle, only when hes in bed, its a comfort thing" he said
the doctor tsked quietly "well hes behind other children his age, he should be toilet trained and off the bottle" he started but Brian cutt him off
"if i wanted a lecture id visit the pedeatrician but i didnt, my son is sick and i am going to take him home so i can look after him" he stated, grabbing Billys blanket and wrapping it round the boy and lifting him up
Billy dropped the empty cup his jellybeans had been in and grabbed his dads jacket "home daddy? he asked
"yeah were going home sweetie' Brian said, leaving David and the doctor behind
David said some choice words to the doctor and stormed out after the 2 men in his life
they went to the pharmacy and waited for their stuff
Billy was looking tired again and was resting his head on Davids shoulder (hes in davids arms now)
Brian went round to the baby isle since they were getting low on some stuff, powder, napyrash ointment and most important, bubblebath, Billy was afraid of the water so they introduced him to bubble bath and he wouldnt take a bath without it now
Billy fell asleep on the way home, head dropped to the side of his booster seat
David carefully lifted him up and followed his husband inside
they both went to the dark blue bedroom full of colourful posters, books and toys with the framed bed along the far wall
"here let me get his shoes" Brian whispered, carefully pulling Billys shoes off and then his socks and throwing them on the floor
David nods toward the bed
Brian bent down and fixed the covers up "man he should lie still in bed, im always remaking it" he joked
David smiled, not wanting to talk because Billys ear was right beside his mouth
they eventually got the bed sorted out
David lowered the child into the bed and pulled the blankets up
Billy squirmed round and stuffed his thumb in his mouth
David kissed his cheek "nighty night billy" he whispered then got out of the way
Brian sat on the edge of the bed and kissed Billys cheek "goodnight sweetie, sleeptight, love you" he said, placed Billys tigger infront of him and turned the nightlight on
they both stood in the doorway watching the small boy sleep for a few minutes then they went to their own room
--Billys randomness day (i dont fuckin know!)--
Billy ran into the study making plane noises
Brian looked up from his plans "hey little man, whatcha doin? he asked
Billy stopped "im a plane daddy" he stated
"oh ok then" Brian said
Billy came over and tried to climb onto his dads lap only to be set on the ground "sorry kiddo, ive gotta get this finished" Brian said
Billy smiled anyway "can we go to the park daddy? he asked innocently
Brian sighed "no billy, im busy go play in your room or go annoy poppy" he said
Billys eyes started to fill up with tears "i hate you! he yelled then ran out of the room
Brian swore and got up "billy come back im sorry" he called
Billy ran into the den and clamboured into the highbacked leather desk chair, he pulled his knees up and started to cry
Brian looked in Billys room, his room then the living room, he was stumped, the front door was locked and the safty guard was across the back door "billy where are you? he called
"nowhere! Billy yelled back
Brian went into the den and saw his son sitting on the chair "oh sweetie im sorry i snapped, come here" he said
Billy got up and went to his crouching dad "im mad at you" he said, pouting
Brian put his hands on Billys waist "look any other day i would love to take you to the park sweetie but if i dont finish the pictures then where are we gonna live huh, so do ya think you can wait till poppy gets home? he asked
Billy shook his head "no you dont love me anymore! he screamed then took off up the stairs
"fuck" Brian swore, he went into the kitchen and grabbed Billys bottle, figuring he was tired and needed some sleep
Brian went upstairs and into the sunroom, knowing Billy would be in there, it was his favourite place in the house
Billy was sitting on the child size sofa crying with his thumb in his mouth
Brian crouched down "im sorry billy, i really am, how about you lie on the sofa with a bottle and watch a video? he asked
Billy nodded and reached out to be carried
Brian picked Billy up and gave him the bottle "ok which video? he asked
Billy shrugged "da ewok one" he said
(waayyy 2 years later)
Billys first day at school
"billy what are you doing? Brian called
Billys innocent voice called back "nufing daddy"
David rushed into the kitchen "im sorry honey, ive gotta get to the station, theyve caught marlen, i dont want to but i really have to go" he said, kissing Brian sweetly
Billy appeared in the doorway "poppy where are you going? he asked softly
David pulled away and crouched down "im sorry billy i have to go to work for a few hours, i know..." he cut off
Billy ran out of the room
they both sighed
there was Billys footsteps upstairs then his bedroom door slammed
David stood up "fuck, thats all i need, hes only just gotten over being mad at me for last time" he swore
Brian sighed "the sooner we move the better, we can spend more time with him together then just one of us most of the time" he said
David sighed "yeah, so when are they gonna start on the house? he asked
"next month hopefully" Brian answered, closing Billys schoolbag now that his lunchbox was in it
"yeah, good, look i really want to go with you but if i dont go then i dont get ppaid then the house goes on hold" David said
Brian kissed him passionatly "i know, go on, ill sort him out" he said, smiling
David shook his head and rushed out of the house
Brian ascended the stairs and opened Billys bedroom door
Billy was back in bed sucking his thumb
Brian crouched down beside the bed "hey cmon sweetie cheer up, poppy really does want to come but he has work and he cant help it" he said rubbing Billys back
Billy opened his teary eyes "he promised, he lied again, he doesnt love me just like momma" he yelled before bursting into tears
Brian pulled Billy out of his bed and into a hug "no sweetie dont say things like that, poppy loves you so much, and momma loved you too, dont ever think we dont love you ok, your our life you mean more to us then anything" he said
Billy looked up "if momma loves me why did she have to go away, is poppy not coming back too? he asked, not old enough to understand death
Brian sighed "ok billy, how about we wait until tommorrow to start school when poppy can come too and today we go visit momma, that sound good? he asked
Billy smiled a little "ok daddy, can we take momma some flowers? he asked innocently, completly unaware that his mother abused him when she was living
Brian nodded "how about you go pick some from your garden" he said
Billy smiled widely and ran down the stairs
ok so its kinda uber long, so sue me
Brian looked up as the studio door opened
Davids head poked in "hi, didnt want to disturb you but phone" he said, holding the cordless black phone out
Brian reached over "thanks sweetheart" and took it
David left the room again to let his husband talk in peace
Brian looked at the screen on the phone only to see it said 'unknown caller'
(phonecall)
Brian- hello brian martin speaking
"other- hello, im calling from st marks private hospital emergency room, do you have a son by the name william martin?
Brian- yeah, whats wrong is he ok?
other- theres been an accident im afraid, he and his mother were in a motor accident, mrs aldwin is d.o.a but william is in theater, would you be able to come down, we have you as his only contact other then his mother
Brian- yeah ill be there asap, st marks was it?
other- yes st marks memorial hospital, william is on the 5ft floor in ward 27 childrens theater
Brian- oh god, ok im on my way now, do i have to check in or anything?
other- no just notify the nurse on arrival
Brian- thankyou, bye
(end call)
Brian threw the phone onto his armchair and ran out of his studio
David looked up from his paperwork "whats wrong? he asked
Brian grabbed his keys and jacket "theres been an accident, clairs dead and billys in theater, my babys been in a car crash, i gotta go to st marks" he said
David jumped up and grabbed his keys "ill drive, cmon" he said, taking brians hand and hurrying out of their house to the black utility jeep in the driveway
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"please sit down ir, the doctor will come talk to you in time, hes with your son now" the receptionist said softly
Brian wiped angrily at his tears "how can i just sit here when my baby is in there fighting for his life? he half asked half yelled
David pulled his husbands hand "cmon bri, lets just sit down ok" he said, dragging him to the other end of the room
Brian flopped into a chair and sighed "i havent seen my baby since he was 3 weeks old and here i am yelling at the hired help" he laughed
David held his hand "you care thats all, its not everyday your first and only child has to fight for his life because his stupid abusive mother gets herself killed" he said sourly
Brian laughed even more "geez calm down, shes dead now, she cant tell everyone about us and we can have my little boy with us" he said, going quiet again and looked at the baby posters round the room
"bri hell be ok, hes not gonna die, hes a strong little boy dont worry" David said, lightly kissing brian on the lips
Brian smiled "i love you ya know that" he said
David smiled too "i know, i love you too, im gonna go get some coffee, want anything? he asked, getting up
Brian thought about it "get me coffee too" he said
"and dont kill the nurse while im gone" David said while walking out of the room
--3 hours later--
Brian sat there watching the clock and worrying
David came in and sat down "they dont know how long this is gonna take" he said
Brian sighed "this is her fault, and if she wasnt dead id kill her" he growled
David sighed "i know you would but how about you concentrate on the little boy in there fighting for his life instead of killing his mother" he said
Brian smiled "what would i do without you? he asked
David smiled too "probably go on a rampage" he said softly "and maybe kill that nurse over there" he joked
Brian chuckled "ok no more jokes about the nurse, shes getting edgy" he said, taking Davids hand in his
--another 2 hours later--
Brian sat bolt upright when the doctor walked into he room
"is billy ok? he asked hurridly
the doctor held his hand up "your mr martin i guess? he asked
Brian nodded
"williams got some serious injurys for a a 6 month old, hes in a drug induced coma, we think its best until hes started healing, considering hes malnutritioned and already had injurys, the most worrying thing is he has spinal injurys, at this time were unsure of the extent of them, its too risky to operate on a childs spine, for a child so small. he has 3 broken ribs and one has punctured his left lung, he has a cracked skull and his right leg is broken in 3 places, infact the boy is lucky to be alive, im surprised he made it to the emergency room" the doctor explained
Brian hung his head "my poor baby, is there any way i can stay with him? he asked
the doctor nodded "we have a bed in there for you, we can only allow one in there at a time" he said
Brian took Davids hand "go home, get some sleep ok, ill call in the morning ok? he asked
David nodded "ill bring you some stuff in the morning sweetheart" he said, kissing Brians hand
Brian nodded and left his husband to follow the doctor
Brian sat down beside the cot and tentavly touched the infants tiny hand, he didnt recognise the child, the billy he remembered was a tiny little baby wrapped in a yellow blanket as the car he was in drove away, out of his fathers life supposed to have been gone forever, Billy looked older now, his skinny little face was framed by longish black hair, his face was shaped to fit him, he definatly didnt look like the baby he was, hed grown into himself
Billy was sprawled out in a cot, only in nappys, he had tubes in his nose and mouth and a drip attatched to his thigh of his left leg, his right leg was almost fully covered in plaster, his chest was badly bruised and there was a huge gash on his forehead covered with a white gauze pad stuck to his face
Brian stifled a sob as he watched his childs chest quickly rise and fall with the help of the oxygen machine he was hooked up to
"billy im sorry, i shouldve never let her take you, all because i didnt want people to know what i am, your lying here because i didnt want to ruin my reputation, well i promise i wont let anything or anyone hurt you ever again, your gonna come live with me and poppy, your gonna have nothing but he best, godknows you deserve it" Brian said while stroking the childs hand, determined to make life good for him
--2 days later--
"well hes doing well, hes healing ok, we'll have to do more tests but i think its safe to say theres no serious spinal injurys, his lung is healing and soon ill be able to take him out of the coma" the doctor said, while inserting the new drips cord into the end of the needle on Billys thigh
Brian sighed "thats good news, ive done nothing but worry, hes so small though, is that normal? he asked
the doctor placed a light blanket over the baby "no, his growth rate isnt right for a infant his age, ive put it down to malnutrition, his system is void of anything he shouldve been getting, i dont think hes ever been fed on breast milk, straight to the bottle then off it some time ago, his drip has the most important nutrients he needs and once hes awake we can start him on a formula, he should start gaining weight once that goes ahead but its nothing to be worried about at this stage" he explained
Brian nodded "ok, how long is he gonna be in a coma? he asked softly, slightly worried if he spoke too loud hed wake the baby, which was impossible
"id say untill the end of the week, then his back will have had a good chance at healing so if he does move around alot it wont do any damage" the doctor said
Brian nodded and came over o the plastic crib "ok, and when will i be able to take him home? he asked, softly touching the balled hand
"not sure, sometime in the next 4 weeks i hope, if hes healing well maybe 3 weeks, its best not to rush these things with someone his age" the doctor patted Brians back and started to leave the room, stopping at the door "if theres any questions you have dont hesitate to find me, im here until 7 then he'll have the night pedeatrician come in and check on him" he smiled then left the small room
Brian sat down beside the crib and ran his fingers over the small hands then arms of his son "billy can you even hear me? he asked then smiled "i guess you can, last night i made a list of things for your room, davids going shopping today for it, were gonna get you a crib and a bed, not a big bed but big enough for you while your small, though you wont be in it for 2 more years but still, im gonna make a plan for your room when david brings my paper in, and when our house in annapolis is built youll have a custom designed room, all for you, you need some toys ya know that, nothing your mom ever gave you either, everything new, only the best huh" he leant down and kissed Billys head, just above the healing cut, the doctor had removed the gauze that morning
there was a soft knock at the door then David came in with a duffel bag and a toyshop bag "hi, i wouldve been here sooner but i saw the toy shop and couldnt resist" he said, placing the duffel bag on the floor gently and coming over to the bed
"what did you buy? Brian asked, trying to look in the bag
"just things every little boy needs" David stated, pulling a pacifier out of the bag then a baby mobile and a teddybear
Brian took the pacifier and ripped the package open "this is wierd, its nothing like a nipple or anything, its a hunk of rubber on a piece of plastic" he joked
David sighed "your mother never taught you about babys did she" he said
Brian poked his tounge out and examined the mobile
--a week since the accident--
Brian sat quietly beside the bed, watching Billys hands move slightly
the doctor gently stuck a plaster on Billys thigh where hed taken the drip out, the actual medicine having been stopped and hour beforehand by the nurse
"he should wake up anytime soon, hungry and scared" the doctor told Brian
"ok, so hes not gonna be in pain is he? Brian asked
the doctor smiled "no, hes had a morphine shot and once thats wearing off he'll go on oral painkillers" he said
"how does one get a baby to take medicine orally? David asked
the doctor pulled a needle-less syringe from his pocket "we draw the amount into here and make his mouth open, he should be on mush anyway so this wont be difficult for him" he said, handing the syringe to David to look at
Brian leaned fowards when Billys tiny face scrunched up and his mouth puckered up
the doctor looked over "hes waking up, ill leave you alone" he said leaving the room
Brian gently ran the backs of his fingers over Billys face, in a weak attempt to calm him
David sat on the other side of the bed and watched with a smile on his face
Billys mouth opened and a small scream came out then continued into full on crying, with tears and all
"oh billy shh its ok shh" Brian cooed, rubbing Billys belly softly
Billy opened his eyes and looked at the man with the strange voice
Brian smiled at his child only to be screamed at
David grabbed the pacifier from the steriliser and held it infront of Billy
Billy looked at it and grabbed it with his small hands, stuffing it in his mouth and quietning down
Brian gave Billy his finger to hold onto "hey little buddy, how you feeling huh? he asked
Billys eyes fluttered between the 2 strangers looking at him
there was a knock at the door and the nursery nurse came in "hi, didnt want to disturb you but we thought he might be hungry" she said, placing a tub on the nightstand and showing them the 2 bottles of formula it contained "its also a good bonder, feeding him, although i hear your not allowed to actually lift him up, holding the bottle for him will show him your not gonna hurt him" she said
Brian smiled "thanks, ill try him on it" he said, grabbing a bottle and testing it on his wrist
the nurse smiled and left them alone again
Brian smiled "hey billy you hungry, i guess you should be, you havent eaten in a week" he said, showing Billy the bottle
Billys hands reached out and he spat the pacifier out, he whinged a little, half clapping each hand, wanting the bottle
Brian ignored the outstretched hands and stuck the bottle in his sons mouth, holding it for him
Billy put his small hands on the bottle and drank contentedly
David smiled and touched Billys foot "i guess hes hungry" he said quietly
"yeah, he doesnt seem scared though" Brian said, not moving his gaze from the baby or the smile from his face
they didnt speak anymore, they just sat and watched Billy drink, not bothering to look at each other, all that mattered was the little boy in the crib
everynow and then Billy would smack the bottle, when the suction stopped his food and he had to let go
--Billys 3rd week--
the doctor sighed "sorry kiddo but i gotta take a bloodtest before you can go home" he said, taking Billys chubby bubby foot
Billy looked at him innocently, not expecting this
the doctor got the little needle they used and held the plastic case to Billys foot "hold him marie" he said
the nurse did as she was told
the doctor pressed the button on the plastic and the needle shot into Billys foot
Billy, who had been calm through the check up, screamed and started trying to pull his leg back to himself
Brian stopped packing the baby toys and looked at his son
Billys face was beet red and streaked with tears as he screamed
the doctor collected some blood in a vile then let go
Billys foot flew to his body and he looked round the room "maamaaa! he screamed
the doctor put a bright green plaster on Billys foot then rubbed his knee "its all over now, the horrible doctors finished" he said amusidly
"can i take him home now? Brian asked
"go ahead, hes probably tired of all the prodding and poking hes been through, and im sure hes going to be pampered" the doctor said smiling
David came in from taking the first 2 bags to the car "ill finish if ya want" he said, grabbing some toys and the bag
Brian went to the crib and looked at his pouting baby "you ok? he asked
Billy held his arms out and pouted pathetically
Brian scooped him up, being careful with his plastered leg
Billy pushed his face into his daddys shirt and exhaled loudly
"how about i get you dressed and we go get icecream? Brian asked
Billy looked up and smiled "ice ceeme" he said in his cute little voice
--6 weeks later--
Brian quietly entered the now blue baby room and went to the desk to grab the medicine and dropped, he opened the bottle and stuck the dropper into it, drawing out 50mls of the pink contents, he put the cap on the bottle and stood it back on the desk beside the wall, he walked not so quietly to the bed and watched the child sleeping
Billy had his arms up over his head and his fists balled, his head was to the left and his breath came in small pants, he couldnt breath properly yet because his lung wasnt completly healed, his chest wasnt as bruised as before, just sickly yellow, visible because all he wore was the nappys, thats all the doctors wanted him in so you could see if anything went wrong
Brian gently shook Billys shoulder "billy sweetie cmon medicine time" he said
Billy swung his arm at the disturbance and slept on
Brian smiled "you sure are a sleeper son" he said, this time shaking Billys good leg softly
Billy whined and screwed his face up
Brian tried to get the dropper into his sons mouth but Billy just pushed it away and kept his mouth shut
Brian sighed, the doctors had told him to pinch Billys thigh if he wouldnt take his medicine, so thats what he did, he pinched Billys thigh and almost immediatly got a response
Billy screwed his face up and started to scream in a shrill baby cry
Brian rubbed the boys thigh gently and pushed the dropped between his gums and squeezed, the vile pink medicine going into his sons mouth
Billys screams were silented for a second while he swallowed then he started again
Brian picked him up from the bed and hugged him gently "shh its all over now sweetie shhh" he cooed, jigging round the room
David came into the bedroom with a bottle and a kanga toy "hi, heard his scream so i grabbed this" he said, handing Brian the bottle of warm milk
Brian handed it to Billy and sighed as Billy stuffed it in his mouth and almost instantly quietned down
"how was work? Brian asked
Davd shrugged "havent got anything much, just small cases so i can take more time off if i want, to help you and Billy get settled in" he said, kissing the childs head then his lovers cheek
"were doin ok, he sleeps most of the time, gives me time to work on some designs, ya know, for the house" Brian said, watching as Billy looked round his new bedroom
David gently took the child into his own arms "hey little buddy, i got you this today" he said, handing him the kanga toy
Billys eyes lit up and he dropped the bottle to grab the toy
Brian smiled "i guess hes taking to us pretty well considering" he said
David smiled too "well yeah, his mother beat him, hes probably never been loved, hes getting something he never had before and he likes it" he said logically
Brian chuckled "analising my kid there david, im gonna get dinner on, you ok with him? he asked
David nodded "yeah, dont worry, hes fine with me" he said, watching Billys eyes skim round the room again
Brian laughed "i guess dark blues a good colour for him, hes always looking at the walls" he said, kissing the boys head then walking to the doorway "oh the papers arrived today, we just sign them and hes in our complete care, dad" he then left to the kitchen
David sat down in the armchair with Billy in his lap and he started making faces while Billy laughed and tried to copy him
a couple of days later
Brian woke with a start, not knowing what woke him up, David was fast asleep beside him and no noise was coming from the baby moniter
Brian sighed and rolled to spoon David
"maamaa" a small voice came from the bedside table
Brian looked at the baby moniter and realised Billy must have said something and woken him up
Brian carefully unspooned from David and rolled out of bed, he grabbed his pants from the floor and a tshirt off the back of a chair and left the bedroom
Brian opened the door to the blue baby room and peered in, Billy was sitting up in his crib and he was playing with his toys he had in there
"morning billy" Brian said, entering the room smiling
Billy grinned and held his tigger up "ook" he said
"i see him, how long have you been up huh, its 9am, how long have you let me sleep huh? Brian asked, taking the bars to the crib down and scooping Billy up
Billy clung to his dads tshirt and looked round the room
Brian went to the change table and lay Billy on it "you... smell william" he stated smiling
Billy looked up at the mobile that swung above his head
Brian bussled about the room, gathering nappys, wipes, powder, new clothing and the pacifyer
Billy just lay there, his broken leg sticking out at a awkward angle
once the baby was renappied and dressed Brian examined the outfit on his boy, Billy looked quite stupid, not the clothing but the way his pants hugged the thick cast on his leg
"i wonder if you can walk yet? brian asked, sitting Billy up and tickling his foot
Billy giggled and squirmed round
Brian sighed "i guess i should feed you huh, cos that belly just growled at me" he smiled and scooped the boy up
Billy happily sucked on his thumb while being carried downstairs
Brian pulled the highchair out of the corner and sat Billy in it, pulling the footrest for the kasted leg to rest on
Billy sucked in his lower lip and looked round the kitchen "mamaa" he gurgled
Brian smiled "im gonna have to teach you a few new words cos i can tell ya now im not you mama" he said while grabbing the bread from the cupboard "how about a sandwhich huh, somthing you can make a mess of" he said, grabbing the margarine and peanut butter
Brian came rushing into the bedroom "hey, im running late, if you need me to get anything on the way home page me, and ill see you later lil guy" he said, the first to David and the second to his son who was sitting in a playpen with his foam building blocks
"good luck bri" David said, giving his husband a quick peck
"bye" brian kissed both his men and ran out to his car
"i guess its just us for a couple of hours little guy, what can we do huh, hire some porn, drink beer and burp... not a good idea huh, i guess not, porns bad, cos its all fake boobed mommies like yours and we dont like beer cos its bad and burping... well we save burping for you once youve pigged out" David said, crouching down by the playpen and giving Billy his tiggertoy
David jumped when a shrill cry came from upstairs and the baby moniter
he looked at the clock, noting Billy usually wasnt awake for another hour, he jogged up the stairs and into the blue bedroom
Billy was lying on top of his blankets in his nappys screaming
"billy hey shh whats got you so upset huh? David said softly, lifting the boy out of the crib and hugging him
Billy screamed still and flailed his fists around
David sat in the armchair "what is it? he asked, sitting Billy in his lap "what, are you teething, your not wet... are you hungry what huh, cmon sweetie calm down" he said, hugging Billy
Billy managed to get one word through his screams "owwww! then he continued screaming
David looked at Billys red tearstreaked face "oww, does your back hurt, ok cmon lets go to poppy and daddys room" he stood up and carried Billy through the hall and into the red room
David sat on the bed and one handedly smoothed the covers out
Billy still screamed in pain, his throat was hurting too now
"ok, lie here for me" David said, laying Billy on his tummy on the bed
Billy just screamed even louder now
David hurried into the bathroom and grabbed the liquid painkillers, he drew some of it into the syringe and ran back to the infant "ok billy drink this and itll make it better" he said, pushing the syringe into Billys mouth
Billy drank the medicine and continued to scream
David put the now empty syringe on the nightstand and started to rub Billys back
the doctor had told them Billy was going to have backaches because of his injury and to lay him on a bed and give him a massage and some medicine
Billy quietened some and made a sucking noise
David sighed "bottle or dummie? he asked
Billy looked at him "bopple" he said
"ok, be right back, dont move" David jumped up and ran downstairs to find the bottle of milk and formula hed made that morning, he tested it then ran back upstairs, he slowly sat on the bed and put the nob of the bottle in Billys mouth
Billys hand came up and he held onto it himself and started to drink
David placed his hand on Billys bare back and started to rub in soft circles
Billy lat there watching out the window and drinking his bottle contentedly
David smiled and leant down to kiss Billys head "i reckon you just wanted attention huh" he smirked then sat up again
Billy eventually let his eyes fall closed, he dropped the bottle and lay there breathing softly
David moved up to sit against the headboard, he looked at the infant and smiled, Billy was perfect in everyway
David got bored so he switched the tv on, making sure it wasnt loud enough to wake Billy up
Brian crept up the stairs and peeked into Billys room to find he wasnt there "oh, whats david done with my baby" he muttered to himself, he closed Billys bedroom door and went across the hall to his bedroom, he peered round the door and smiled "hey, my 2 men together in one bed, thats a kodak moment" he said smiling
David tore his gaze away from the tv "hey, when did you get home? he asked, quietly
Brian came in and sat quietly on the other side of the bed "about 5 minutes ago, i thought he was taking to the crib? he asked, rubbing Billys chubby bubby leg softly
"he is, he woke up screaming, he said ow so i brought him in here and gave him the massage, he fell asleep after the bottle though" David said, turning the tv to mute and looking at his husband
Brian grabbed the baby blanket and draped it over Billy "poor fella, i hope he doesnt have it all his life" he said
David sighed "yeah, hey i gotta call the office and get my messages, you gonna stay with him or put the pillows round him? he asked
Brian shrugged "pillows, give him some tummy time by himself" he said
the 2 men organised Pillows under the blankets around Billy in a protective wall so he couldne fall off the bed
Brian smiled as Billys thumb popped into his mouth "hes ok for now, just leave the moniter in here" he said to David
they kissed and left the room to do seperate things
Brian went to cook dinner while David rang the office
Brian hopped upstairs quickly and popped his head into the bedroom, he smiled when he saw Billy sitting up looking round rather frazzled
Brian went into the room and walked to the bed "hey billy, have a nice sleep? he asked
Billy held his arms out and grizzled
"ok, cmon how about we go get some clothes and get something to eat huh? Brian asked as he scooped Billy from the nest they made
Billy smiled and sucked on his dads shirt collar
Brian chuckled "your hungry arent you, how about we skip clothes, youve got nappys, lets go get some food" he said, going down the stairs
Billy smiled really wide when he spotted the tv and he pointed at it
"later huh, how about some mush, we got alot of mush for ya" David said, coming into the room with a plate of... mush
"whats that? Brian asked, sitting Billy in the highchair
David sat down infront of the highchair with the bowl "carrots and potatoes, just from the list dr campbell gave us" he said, getting a small spoonful of it and holding it to Billys mouth
Billy at it and made a face, as if he were thinking, he then opened his mouth again
"i guess he likes it, its kinda sad that hes way behind other babys his age, he should be on solids and hes eating mush" David said thoughtfully
Brian smiled "but theres nothing better then mush poppy" he joked then went into the kitchen
CHAPTER 2
billys first babysitter
David handed his baby to Mike as soon as he opened the door "im gonna be late and im not even ready yet" he said, rushing into the house
"hey there billy, im your uncle mike and were gonna have fun without your strange daddys tonight arent we" Mike said, walking into the living room
"thanks mike, we really didnt know who else to call, we kinda need to find regular babysitters" David said while tying his tie
Mike smiled and lay the baby on the blanket on the floor in his nappy "no problem, this little guy doesnt look like he can do much damage anyway" he said
David smirked "just you wait, hes a little horror, oh crap, look i really have to go, im suposed to be meeting bri in 10 minutes" he said, he scooped Billy off the floor again and kissed his podgy cheek "be back later sweetheart, dont be too much trouble for mike" he said handing the calm child to Mike
Mike took Billy and followed David to the front door "have fun, see ya later" he called
Billy waved and gurgled "bye bye" he said
Mike went back into the iving room and as soon as he sat Billy down he started to scream
Mike scooped him up and he stopped crying
"ohh i get it, this is a game huh, your gonna make things hard for me" Mike said
*across town at a formal dinner party*
Brian raised his eyebrows as David walked up to him
"shut up i know im late" he said smiling
"i wont hold it against ya, how was billy today? Brian asked
"ok, he had some tummy time and stretched his leg a bit, ya know, kicking the living shit outta things" David said
"well lets go make me rich" Brian said, taking Davids hand and walking into the main hall
*back to billy, 3 hours later*
Mike watched the boys eyes blink slower and slower as he drifted to sleep
"about fucking time to huh" mike said softly
Billy had screamed and kicked then threw his mush on the floor, he splashed water everywhere throwing a tantrum in the bath then spread his toys all over the living room, he finally started to wind down about half an hour ago
Mike lifted the bottle away and smiled as the baby just rolled his head to the other side and slept on
"how was it? a voice asked, making Mike jump at least 3 feet in the air
"sorry, aww hes all tuckered out" Brian said, smiling at his brother whod just had the living daylights scared out of him
"he is a brat, made a lot of mess, didnt eat much, took his nappy off godknows how many times ugh, hes a stubborn one" Mike said
brian lifted the boy out of the crib and cradled him to his chest
Billy started to softly whine at the disturbance, he opened his eyes and saw his dad infront of him and grizzled pathetically
"aww did you make trouble for your uncle mike" Brian said, rubbing the boys back
"hes not that bad i guess, he does have his moments" Mike said smiling
"hes great, oh here" brian handed his brther a 20 dollar note "thanks for watching him" he said
"thanks man, ill see ya on sunday i guess" mike said, pockiting the 20
"yeah, bye" brian said, distracted by watching his baby sleep in his arms
Brian looked down at the sleeping child in the baby pack he was wearing "poor lil billy" he said, rubbing the foot sticking out little baby jeans
David came up to him looking frustrated "ya know they couldve sent some remotly smart people to do this, agghh, they were trying to make the bannister with gib instead of the rimu we ordered" he exclaimed, throwing his arms up in annoyance
Brian sighed "call the company and complain, im gonna go out back, billys gonna burn out here" he said, walking away from his pissed off husband and going round to the huge yard the house had
Brian jumped when a little hand grabbed hold of his shirt
he looked down to see Billy looking sleepily round "hey billy, what are you doing awake huh? he asked, rubbing Billys back through the pack
Billy looked up and grizzled, showing his gums and looking very unhappy
Brin frowned "whats wrong sweetie, your not hot, are you hungry? he asked
Billy grizzled and pushed his podgy hand to his left ear
Brian frowned "what, is your ear sore sweetie? he asked concerndly
Billy grizzled more and kicked his feet
Brian moved Billys hand and felt his ear, it was bright red and hot "ok lil buddy i think we have to go to the doctors" he said
Billy just layed his head back on his fathers chest and grizzled
Brian walked round the nearly finished house to the front yard "hey dave somethings wrong with billys ear so im gonna head down to the doctors with him, wanna come or not? he asked
David stopped glowering at the builders and came over "i want to but i dont want them messing our house up, poor billy" he said, rubbing Billys back and kissing his head
Brian rubbed Billys back and started down the road, since the doctors was just around the corner there was no point driving him there
(billys 3 now)
David crawled up Brians body smiling cheekily "ya know its been awhile since we had time to do anything" he said
Brian was about to say something but a small voice came into the room
"daddy, poppy i sweep in here? Billy asked
David rolled onto his back and groaned
Brian sat up 'hey what are you doing up huh? he asked, turning the lamp on
Billy came over ad looked up "hurts to bref" he stated
Brians eyes went wide "it hurts to breath? he asked
Billy nodded and clamboured onto the bed "pwease can we sweep in here? he asked, showing his tigger toy
David got up "i just gonna fix this, what are we gonna do with him? he asked
Brian pulled Billy onto his bedcovered lap "i dont know, if it hurts for him to breath we might have to gt him checked out and i dont want anything to happen while were sleeping" he said
Billy curled up on his daddys lap and pushed his face into his barechest
David nodded "ill go get dressed and we can go to the hospital" he said, going into the walkin wardrobe they had
Brian stroked Billys floppy hair "you tired there buddy? he asked
Billy nodded and stuck his thumb in his mouth
David came out pulling his jacket on "want me to get him dressed? he asked
Brian shook his head "nah, they may want him in overnight, his pyjamas are better, just get his blanket will ya" he said, handing his tired child to his husband
David took his son into his own bedroom "ok bills, you sit here for me and ill find your shoes" he said, sitting Billy on his bed
Billy flopped backwards and grabbed his empty bottle
David took it "no, you know your supposed to only have one when you go to bed billy, do you want some juice or water instead? he asked
Billy nodded "juice poppy" he said
"ok, shoes first though" David said, slipping billys left shoe on and doing the velcro up then doing the same with his right
Billy held his arms up to be carried
David grabbed the blue fluffy blanket and wrapped it round Billy before hoisting him up "ok lets get you some juice" he said, carrying Billy downstairs and into the kitchen
Billy sat on the counter waiting patiently
Brian came down the stairs and into the kitchen "hey billy, were gonna go in the car to see the doctors ok? he asked
Billy nodded
David handed Billy his tommy tippee with apple juice in it
"fankew" Billy said, drinking his drink happily
Brian scooped Billy up off the couter and followed David to the garage
Brian strapped Billy securly in his booster seat
Billy looked round the car "daddy dark" he said worridly
David flicked the light on "that better buddy? he asked
Billy nodded and went back to his juice
Brian stopped from putting his seatbelt on "ya think hes gonna need diapers or anything, i mean he is drinking so he might wet them" he said
David laughed "i think you already decided the answer to that" he said, jumping out and grabbing the outing bag they had packed in the garage
the doctor listened to Billys chest as Billy watched curiously, hed seen enough doctors in his life to not be afraid
Brian and David were standing in the corner watching the doctor examine their son
"ok billy can you take a deep breath for me? the doctor asked
Billy did as he was told, taking a huge breath only to cough it out again
the doctor stood up "well billy i think you have asthma and your daddys can stop worrying" he said, handing Billy some jellybeans
Billy smiled and looked round the bed he was perched on
"so will he get and inhaler or something? David asked
the doctor scribbled something down on a perscription form "yup, take this to the pharmacy and theyll give you 2 inhalers, a orange one for when hes having an attack and a blue one when he gets weezy or short of breath, theyll give you a spacer, just attatch the inhaler on the end and it distributes the medicine more evenly and theyll give you hire of a dehumidifier until you can get your own, just fill out this form and the government will send you one" he said, handing the perscription to David with the form for the dehumidifier
Billy looked up and squealed in delight
all 3 of them looked at him
Billy was staring at a mobile of stars and moons while stuffing jellybeans in his mouth
the doctor smiled "he seems to be doing well considering the first year of his life, hows he sleeping at night? he asked
Brian smiled "usually sleeps right through, he goes out like a light but hes an early waker" he said
the doctor looked at Billy "hes still on a bottle or pacifyer isnt he? he asked
David answered this time "bottle, only when hes in bed, its a comfort thing" he said
the doctor tsked quietly "well hes behind other children his age, he should be toilet trained and off the bottle" he started but Brian cutt him off
"if i wanted a lecture id visit the pedeatrician but i didnt, my son is sick and i am going to take him home so i can look after him" he stated, grabbing Billys blanket and wrapping it round the boy and lifting him up
Billy dropped the empty cup his jellybeans had been in and grabbed his dads jacket "home daddy? he asked
"yeah were going home sweetie' Brian said, leaving David and the doctor behind
David said some choice words to the doctor and stormed out after the 2 men in his life
they went to the pharmacy and waited for their stuff
Billy was looking tired again and was resting his head on Davids shoulder (hes in davids arms now)
Brian went round to the baby isle since they were getting low on some stuff, powder, napyrash ointment and most important, bubblebath, Billy was afraid of the water so they introduced him to bubble bath and he wouldnt take a bath without it now
Billy fell asleep on the way home, head dropped to the side of his booster seat
David carefully lifted him up and followed his husband inside
they both went to the dark blue bedroom full of colourful posters, books and toys with the framed bed along the far wall
"here let me get his shoes" Brian whispered, carefully pulling Billys shoes off and then his socks and throwing them on the floor
David nods toward the bed
Brian bent down and fixed the covers up "man he should lie still in bed, im always remaking it" he joked
David smiled, not wanting to talk because Billys ear was right beside his mouth
they eventually got the bed sorted out
David lowered the child into the bed and pulled the blankets up
Billy squirmed round and stuffed his thumb in his mouth
David kissed his cheek "nighty night billy" he whispered then got out of the way
Brian sat on the edge of the bed and kissed Billys cheek "goodnight sweetie, sleeptight, love you" he said, placed Billys tigger infront of him and turned the nightlight on
they both stood in the doorway watching the small boy sleep for a few minutes then they went to their own room
--Billys randomness day (i dont fuckin know!)--
Billy ran into the study making plane noises
Brian looked up from his plans "hey little man, whatcha doin? he asked
Billy stopped "im a plane daddy" he stated
"oh ok then" Brian said
Billy came over and tried to climb onto his dads lap only to be set on the ground "sorry kiddo, ive gotta get this finished" Brian said
Billy smiled anyway "can we go to the park daddy? he asked innocently
Brian sighed "no billy, im busy go play in your room or go annoy poppy" he said
Billys eyes started to fill up with tears "i hate you! he yelled then ran out of the room
Brian swore and got up "billy come back im sorry" he called
Billy ran into the den and clamboured into the highbacked leather desk chair, he pulled his knees up and started to cry
Brian looked in Billys room, his room then the living room, he was stumped, the front door was locked and the safty guard was across the back door "billy where are you? he called
"nowhere! Billy yelled back
Brian went into the den and saw his son sitting on the chair "oh sweetie im sorry i snapped, come here" he said
Billy got up and went to his crouching dad "im mad at you" he said, pouting
Brian put his hands on Billys waist "look any other day i would love to take you to the park sweetie but if i dont finish the pictures then where are we gonna live huh, so do ya think you can wait till poppy gets home? he asked
Billy shook his head "no you dont love me anymore! he screamed then took off up the stairs
"fuck" Brian swore, he went into the kitchen and grabbed Billys bottle, figuring he was tired and needed some sleep
Brian went upstairs and into the sunroom, knowing Billy would be in there, it was his favourite place in the house
Billy was sitting on the child size sofa crying with his thumb in his mouth
Brian crouched down "im sorry billy, i really am, how about you lie on the sofa with a bottle and watch a video? he asked
Billy nodded and reached out to be carried
Brian picked Billy up and gave him the bottle "ok which video? he asked
Billy shrugged "da ewok one" he said
(waayyy 2 years later)
Billys first day at school
"billy what are you doing? Brian called
Billys innocent voice called back "nufing daddy"
David rushed into the kitchen "im sorry honey, ive gotta get to the station, theyve caught marlen, i dont want to but i really have to go" he said, kissing Brian sweetly
Billy appeared in the doorway "poppy where are you going? he asked softly
David pulled away and crouched down "im sorry billy i have to go to work for a few hours, i know..." he cut off
Billy ran out of the room
they both sighed
there was Billys footsteps upstairs then his bedroom door slammed
David stood up "fuck, thats all i need, hes only just gotten over being mad at me for last time" he swore
Brian sighed "the sooner we move the better, we can spend more time with him together then just one of us most of the time" he said
David sighed "yeah, so when are they gonna start on the house? he asked
"next month hopefully" Brian answered, closing Billys schoolbag now that his lunchbox was in it
"yeah, good, look i really want to go with you but if i dont go then i dont get ppaid then the house goes on hold" David said
Brian kissed him passionatly "i know, go on, ill sort him out" he said, smiling
David shook his head and rushed out of the house
Brian ascended the stairs and opened Billys bedroom door
Billy was back in bed sucking his thumb
Brian crouched down beside the bed "hey cmon sweetie cheer up, poppy really does want to come but he has work and he cant help it" he said rubbing Billys back
Billy opened his teary eyes "he promised, he lied again, he doesnt love me just like momma" he yelled before bursting into tears
Brian pulled Billy out of his bed and into a hug "no sweetie dont say things like that, poppy loves you so much, and momma loved you too, dont ever think we dont love you ok, your our life you mean more to us then anything" he said
Billy looked up "if momma loves me why did she have to go away, is poppy not coming back too? he asked, not old enough to understand death
Brian sighed "ok billy, how about we wait until tommorrow to start school when poppy can come too and today we go visit momma, that sound good? he asked
Billy smiled a little "ok daddy, can we take momma some flowers? he asked innocently, completly unaware that his mother abused him when she was living
Brian nodded "how about you go pick some from your garden" he said
Billy smiled widely and ran down the stairs