getting it off my chest
nobody really has to read this, im just stressing myself out
So YESTERDAY was the STRESS filled day... go to school kinda late...not feeling good...come home...work on an essay in like half an hour...go with richard to the doctor so he can get one of his pins removed from his foot...grandparents anniversary...go to the store so my mom can get some present for a baby shower...then go see my WONDEROUS friend crystal, whose birthday was yesterday...then come home and work on my english homework and my government hw, which was like 5 billion papers...go to bed at 2 o'clock wake up at 5:40....go to school...come home...work on gov homework...pass out on my bed after stumbling on the stairs...vaccum my room...walk the dogs(i had to...which sucked)...finish a giant stack of papers from school i have to fill out...then work on these papers i have to fill out from the college im going to...FINALLY i get time to relax and im so tired but i cant sleep...im running on empty and its making me sick...these past couple of days ive been so sick but i dont think i have the flu...i think its stress...stress because i barely get to sleep...then i go to school...then work...my stomach goes into knots
i HAD a boyfriend but we are just going to be friends now because i NEVER get time to ever see him. at school im always tired and he said i look like the walking dead...he visited me twice at work and both times i only got to talk to him for like 5 min...he asks when im available all sarcastically like i make my work schedule all BLAH. so we are just friends.
a lot of my friends think im blowing them off, but im not. im TRYING to work on my #1 priority....which is school. my #2 priority right now is money that i need to get and save so i can move out... im not trying to ditch anyone, im not trying to ignore anyone. if i seem meaner lately...oh well....get over it.
not only that...EVERYONE seems to all have problems at the same time and ive been saying the wrong things apparently. like my friend Anna is having a boyfriend problem...she thinks he is cheating on her AGAIN...and cries everytime i see her. i feel sad but then i told her she should just dump him and go out with this guy she flirts with all the time at Taco Bell. she looked at me like she couldnt believe i said that. then my buddy david's dad died and im trying to be there. but he's so emotional. he's the most emotional guy ive ever met. they drive me CRAZY. not to mention everyone else's problems.
i have MAD props to EVERYONE who has more stressful days.because i know a lot of people go through much more in their days off...and i dont know how they do it. well tomorrow i go to work again...and of course...i'll be working until closing...then i get my schedule...i'll probably have to open sunday because i always do. because everyone sucks balls.