I had a dream last night that I keep thinking of. It was odd. But pretty nice.
Dreams really do mean something apparently.

I feel like..numb. Pink Floyd's "comfortably numb" is now my theme song. blahh. good song, bad thing. I'm not taking any pictures of myself until I lose more weight. I've already lost some, which is good, but not good enough. I just want to feel like myself again ( Read more... )

So I'm realizing that my happiness does not have to depend on my relationships with other people.

I feel sick.

Last night was hard. Merisa and I got into an argument. Then we kind of made up, but she's feeling really bad. I'm not sure how to handle this. I will continue to fight for her, and pray for her, but I wish I could do more. I wish I could take away her sickness and even just go through it for her. I kept telling myself last night it was just ( Read more... )

I'm feeling really low. I'm not sure what's wrong with me. I've been depressed for a couple of weeks now and I'm not feeling any better. Nothing is going right. I know that people care, but they have a funny way of showing it.

Merisa felt bad last night. It sucked, but we reuinited in a way that I'll never forget.

We cried together, and even laughed a little together during that tough time.
Her beauty never ceases to amaze me. Her spirit and will to live never quit, even through the hardest times, when it seems there is nothing left. But there is always something left ( Read more... )

Life is so mediocre.

Today was a great day. I saw my lady, which I had not seen in a long, long time. She is as beautiful as she ever was, and if possible, even moreso. I fell in love again. Merisa is the best thing to ever happen to me. God. She's wonderful. I introduced her to my best friend, and they got along well, just as I thought they would. Love is ( Read more... )

I think I get to see merisa today! YAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAY