I'm kind of furious. Part of me wanted to give in but I need to not fall into old patterns.
As per my last post, I texted S saying I didn't get his full message and he texted back saying he's leaving the country tomorrow and do I want to fuck before he leaves ( Read more... )

My life has been kind of hectic lately, but also boring. I realized I don't mind the boring part so much. Still dislike the hectic though ( Read more... )

I DID IT.
I think I'm still in shock.

I was taking a shower and figured I would weigh myself as it's been a while and I had to do it several times before it sank it. I made it below 110. I refuse to make this a small deal by saying it's only half a pound.

I'm so excited!

So I went out last night for my friends birthday to a club. One of her other friends was so tiny and I was kind of jealous but then she tell me "You're so cute and tiny, like me!" and that just made my week. Hell, it made my month ( Read more... )

Just curious as to who (if anyone) still reads my journal?
I am going through some pictures to post which led me to going through my filters and thus friends and I realized so many don't post anymore.

Anyone want to see pictures, yes?

My scale says 110.5 lbs. I weighed myself twice and I still can't really believe it.
I guess I was somehow hoping that when I dropped down to 110 that my fat thighs would disappear :/ but they haven't.
If this number is still around in a few days I'll accept it but I can't do that yet.

WIN!

I hardly ate anything yesterday. Started taking my Ritalin again and it was a pretty good day.

I'm super stressed because I have an exam tomorrow that I want to defer and I e-mailed my prof and advisor and NOBODY has responded yet. I am a ball of nerves.

That is all.

FAIL.

That's all I have to say.

I caved and had to step on the scale b/c I was scared that I would just be ignorant and bloat up to over 120 lbs. It was such a relief, you have no idea how much, to see 114. Like I can actually go out and have fun tonight because of this. Now the goal is to MAINTAIN it or drop more until Thursday and then definetly down to 112 by the end of the ( Read more... )

Each day, for like the past few months I keep saying to myself, "Ok so today was bad and I ate too much. I did well in the morning and then bombed at night when I pigged out. Tomorrow will be different." Then the next morning I do fine and then the same thing happens ( Read more... )