the anomaly to your identity

[spinning_sorrow]

this is X-linked.

i wish i could erase everything i thought was significant between freshman year of high school and freshman year of college. i feel like i'm here again. and happy.

we try to ignore the way we confuse each other.

it's really an abstract value that i'm seeing. yes, just a concept, a projection. no need to be alarmed.

Comments

[humancolour]

i'm glad you're happy :)

[spinning_sorrow]

how are you about nate? were you able to convince him not to close doors and to see what happens when he gets back? what do you expect now?

[humancolour]

i don't even know where to start. no. the conclusion was that we're done, period, but still love each other, still best friends, blah blah blah... and we've still been talking a lot but most of the time it just made me upset because the only reason i was still talking to him was because i was (am?) still in love with him and he'd just be talking about other random things like nothing had happened. any time he mentioned anything that made him happy i'd get pissed at him for being happy without me. yesterday morning i confronted him about it and how unfair the situation has been to me, and that conversation ended with a mutual "fuck you." we haven't spoken since

[humancolour]

slept with to be taken in the literal sense, not meaning "fucked."

anyway, i miss talking to you. i want to know more about you and your boy.

[snowmanslave]

I'm not your LJ friend?

Since when?

Why not?

[spinning_sorrow]

oh, since you when hated me for a while, i just forgot to change it. i've been on livejournal maybe twice since we graduated. sorry!