I'm not sure what to post. I've been at a rut in being able to post how I feel.

I don't know if it's a part of getting older, or depression. I feel lost. Void.

Not good enough.

But I have been pretty lonely.

I'll post more later. I'm going to go spend time with my son.

Jeremy is down in Arkansas, helping with a film. It's hard being away from him. But I'm excited for him. He is doing something he loves and gets to see his parents.

I woke up this morning to see an email saying I have a paid account again! Thank you Tallblue!


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Today is another day I've got to relax healing well happy smiling and a lot has been going on with fiancé has some movie works he's dealing with the work producer and then I have a doctors appointment on Friday. A find out if I am healed up and what the results are on all sorts of things but at least I'm over that hurdle of all that pelvic pain ( Read more... )

Today was a long day. But another day alive is nothing to fuss over. It's something I'm deeply grateful for. Not many people are as blessed as I am. Yes, I'm living in a tiny room at my mom's while I piece my health together. But in the next month or two I will be moving in with my fiancé and my best friend. I'll finally be in my own home own rules ( Read more... )

Snow

It's here. The cold rips through Erie, and leaves warm days of the recent summer behind. This time of year is always hard on my body. The cold creeping into my aging joints and causing aches and pains. To the germs being passed around due to being stuck indoors. My 28th birthday falls on thanksgiving this year. Yet I'm not overly excited. I've ( Read more... )

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Well surgery went well. I was hung up a fews days inpatient with some minor complications. Pain became pretty intense. My wonderful doctor said there was adhesions on the uterus. Which was also causing plenty of pain. I'm going into week two of recovery. So life goes on from surgery. But something amazing happened! Jeremy asked me ( Read more... )

Hysterectomy tomorrow...

Struggling today. Day by day I'm coping.

Nodule found in my right lung....

Another day in this place called hospital hell. I am going to demand a psychiatrist this morning. I'm getting sick of having my psych meds meds with...