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[spiritofvelma]

i returned from what i now realize is the wonderful fabulus US. back from sunny miami to cold bitter london. it was a shock getting off the plane, i should have known it was coming, but somehow i was able to deny the truth

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[sad_matilda]

your grandpa does sound really amazing. It is weird, that funerals and weddings are really the only times families unite, and even weddings are usually drama-filled.
Feel better!

[spiritofvelma]

that and the occassional dude ranch extravaganza

by the way, well done on the oscar predictions...pretty accurate

[gabardine_spy]

I'm so sorry about your grandpa. I hope you are feeling better. I totally understand the open casket thing. I hate it and need it at the same time. It's not the person at all, but I need see it to make the death more real. All in all, its horrible, and I'm sorry you had to go through it.

[spiritofvelma]

it's so true, until i see the body for all i know the coffin is empty and it's all a sick joke.
at least it was short, they closed it during the service. for my brother they had it open the WHOLE NIGHT before the funeral. i'm more of a look at leave type a girl. no need to loiter around looking at what used to be a real person.

[jakemercadante]

I always think there is something wrong with my brain that will perhaps develop into something worse much later--but then it is always the intelligent who get mental disorders, no? And what does that say? That they think themselves mad, no? Depressing entry but good

[spiritofvelma]

not necessarily, one could argue that it's the unintellegent who become sick because they aren't smart enough to think themselves out of the illness. i'm not saying i argue that, but some people do.

although there is substantial research to show that a lot of disorders like depression ocd and schizophrenia are caused by a lack of problem solving skills.

[jakemercadante]

I don't know, I've been depressed and I've solved many a problem (in video games). Considering the 'healthy' people I've met and those who weren't, it makes me feel like those who weren't were aware of something that those who were weren't. (whoa)

[spiritofvelma]

not THAT kind of problems. it's like, "i'm depressed and i know there are reasons why i'm depressed, but i don't know what to do to fix those problems so i won't be depressed." it's the whole learned helplessness thing.

BUT you could be right, there's been other research that says that depressed people are more realistic. that nondepressed people kind of delude themselves that their lives are better than they really are so they won't feel bad. depressed people accept the bad things, and naturally it makes them depressed.

huh, turns out i actually have learned something in my classes. who'd have thought