I just want to write. A few months ago I wanted to talk, even sing, but after a while I got tired of hearing my own voice. I started writing again a little while ago. It was very therapeutic for me. But then even that voice inside my head was annoying me. It's almost as if I'm sick of listening to myself at all. I used to be smart and able to read ( Read more... )

Is it so hard to care these days? My own blood can't show compassion when I am sick, but she sure as hell don't mind being nice when asking my to cover or work a little extra. I'm on quite a bit of medication and this may not make any sense, but I'm done being used. There must be something wrong when I'm gullible enough to let my own family members ( Read more... )

Oh, how quickly we change. Love has become something different to me. I used to think it was nothing. Going from guy to guy to girl to guy was my way of experiencing love. Then I met my first love. The earth shattering kind. The kind that changes you for life and your views of sex forever. When that ended I never went back to my previous notions ( Read more... )

It's over. That wretched year of heartache. Still have yet to figure out what I did to deserve so much time in my own prison. I loved, unconditionally, and still got burned. I didn't hurt anyone. They all hurt me. I was faithful. They cheated ( Read more... )

That's it! I'm done giving. I'm done hurting. No one else will ever get inside ever again. And it's all because of you. You have broken my heart for the last time. You are a horrible person and will only get what you deserve. ...I had control. I went into this with a clear and level head. Until you kissed me and screwed me all up. I feel so empty. ( Read more... )

Why can't he see what's right in front of him? Maybe he does see it but just doesn't want it. That can't be. I know he does other wise why would he even be here? He is either too scared to take it or is toying with me. He knows I don't deserve this from him. After four years of silence and a horrible meet last year, there is still so much I want to ( Read more... )

Well well well. I have not been here in a while. I have had such a great week that I just don't want to slow down. I want to keep going. I have found the light. I have been going to the gym and have been looking good. I am damn proud of myself and plan to continue. I haven't felt or looked this good in years ( Read more... )

Dear Cruel Old Woman ( Read more... )

Just had one of the best days I've had in this entire year. No joke. The great weather was the main reason. After a long extremely unusually lava-hot summer, it was time for a nice breezy chill day. It made me so sad that I had to work and couldn't be out enjoying it. So I got offered to leave early and your damn right I took it. My best friend and ( Read more... )

There is so much I want to say and yet the speed in which it comes to me makes it impossible to explain. I feel like I've been turned inside out. And the sad part is that the part that is outside now is who I really am. I've been watching a lot of videos on Corey Taylor lately and his attitude towards life has really helped me put things into ( Read more... )