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splinched

Sound familar?

Dec 26, 2006 01:08

Dave isn't coming to Disney Land with us. I rubbed Mum's back in little circles for nearly an hour as she cried. His desertion makes her feel worthless and angry and for an unfathomable reason the force of that almost hate (the purest form of love soured) turns inward and she puts her head on her arms and sobs and wants to die. It scares the ( Read more... )

disney land, mom, suicide

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pumpkins_n_pups December 26 2006, 15:03:33 UTC

Call if you need to talk. And 2007 isn't starting out fucked up, 2006 is ending fucked up. There's every possibility still that 2007 will be much better.

Did he say anything regarding why he's not coming? Are he and your mom not together now? Oh, B. :(

splinched December 28 2006, 18:45:43 UTC

That's a deep way of looking at it! haha. If someone I know ever gets charged by a bus on the 31st of December, I'll make them a card:

such and such year isn't starting out fucked up, blah yeah is ending fucked up, next year will be better ponder that to bolster your hope when you remember you're a paraplegic.

By the way, I just fucking lost the game!

He's not coming because of his new business. They're together, she's just despondent because of the absence of a ring. Poo.

pumpkins_n_pups December 28 2006, 18:50:28 UTC

Great, you just made me lose the game. :(

Well... at least she has the fact that they're still together to keep her spirits up a bit. I think she'd probably be in an even worse mood if they were splitting up in addition to this. I know how it feels to have your madre be upset because of the lack of a ring, I dealt with that for quite a long time with Mom. I tell you, it was one thing when we were living in IL, but once we moved here and he still hadn't popped the question, it was just awful being around her when she got in one of her depressed "he's never going to marry me" moods. Good luck to you and your mom on that front, I still don't know if Mom and Chris would have tied the knot if it wasn't for Emmett.

xoxo_chic December 28 2006, 00:31:11 UTC

That is so sad :[
Its so heart-breaking, what you wrote.
I can relate. My mom went through something very similar to that and now my sister is as well. You should tell your mom that she is a very strong women, how much you love her and that you don't want her to "never wake up again." Maybe hearing how much she is loved will help her out through this rough period for her. Hope you have fun at Disneyland, I really do.

xxx

splinched December 28 2006, 18:48:49 UTC

Thanks. I'm sure I will. This is sort of old hat. It's not the first time she's cried and talked about dying. The frequency of break downs is increasing, I'm just worried she's going to DO it one day as opposed to just wishing she could. Honestly, not sure how I'd deal.