Because I'm plagued with my own kind of guilt

[spockish_girl]

I wrote some fic.

Title: It Should Have Been Me
Author: spockish_girl
Characters: Captain James T. Kirk
Rating: PG
Summary: Kirk has lost some crewmen.
Spoilers & warnings: It walked off on its own...don't know how its going to turn out.
Disclaimer: Paramount owns 'em of course. I just borrow them once and a while.
Author's notes: I was angry with

Comments

[pheral]

Lovely little fic, very sad, well written.

Feels awful to not complete something you really wanted to, huh? I'm the same, although i'm getting better at letting myself have time off when i need it, sometimes. I know not to take on things like NaNo these days, lol, as i'd never do it. Self discipline's a bitch. :P
Don't feel guilty for too long... if finishing NaNo means you write little things like this, maybe it's not such a bad thing! :D

[spockish_girl]

Thank you :-)

I'm learning what I really have the motivation to do and what I don't have the motivation to do. I'll write some more fic and I'm sure that guilt feeling will go away soon. :-)

[pheral]

i hope so! and hey, no reason why you can't write what you'd planned to, but just not with the time constraints NaNo places. Just let the ideas bubble away in the back of your head, and perhaps they'll spring out some time.

[spockish_girl]

Hehe, someday, I'll be listening to music, and then I'll get an idea on how to bring my thoughts to life and I'll type away. ;-)

Fic today, novel tomorrow. xD

[wirral_bagpuss]

Brilliant!! This is a very accurate portrayal of Jim Kirk and his inner turmoil. Poor old Bones will have his work cut out again fixing that injured arm !! :)

[spockish_girl]

I like to give Bones some work every once and a while, I mean he's always on the bridge...so obviously he is out of work. I need to give him some! And why not give Spock some other injury to worry about? ;)

Thanks so much for the nice comment! :-)

[illariy]

I like this description of survivor's guilt.

But it never would be a large as the stain of blood on his soul.

This sentence, it fits.

Although, um, typo? "a large as"? Not sure. Like it anyway :-)

[spockish_girl]

Thanks! And thanks sooo much for pointing out that typo!