gold
slick
information
leads
my
heart
toward
inflation.

i don't know what i'm trying to find ( Read more... )

determination plantation

difficult to breathe.
she finally calmed down.
the house alone,
its not so bad.
not so bad at all.

resignation is the only thing that's gonna get me (us) anywhere.
i can't make you.
i can't make you do anything or feel anything.
I can't make you not do anything or not feel anything.
white flag, darlin.
i love you dearly.
do what you need to do.

everything is wrong here. there are bricks on my head. and smirks in my face and i want to erase everything ( Read more... )

It's Monday and I think it might be warm outside. My eyes are heavy. I should write, I should paint, I should see if it is warm outside. But the only convenient thing seems to be seeing if moral court is on. ha ( Read more... )

followed him with the red hat to the room with the bolt busted off and the door ajar. and the lights that didn't work. and the contents all awry. "very fucking funny. somebody's been in here." and the pseudo girl's voice on the answering machine. recording. a microphone is not a very good weapon. tap tap what the fuck who's there? and then i left ( Read more... )

that room is more painful than anything for me. the truth is, i sit there waiting for things that i know will never come. in my delusion i manage to let the real pass me by. and it seems to me in retrospect like a really sad existence.

his words were sand through my hands like wind past my head like pebbles under foot, ignored, discarded, forever interrupted. the page has turned, a new chapter open. the sun has been visible for three days now and i'm not getting restless. this feeling is new the reason is you i know what you think what you say what you do spending nights into ( Read more... )