SOMEONE, pleeasse tell me how to CUT in an Entry!! I dunno how to....Sorry this is long.. x_X
Fuck... hmm..., i dunno... lately shit has been going good still, but for some reason i feel down, Fuckin chemical imbalance bullshit. Eh...i deal with i guess... not so bad.. i know that nothings wrong so its ok.
*One thing.
from one of my best chicky friends some shit...here it goes..
ok, so Jay kept saying that he thinks people and Me think he's an asshole.
**No one ever said that and I dont think he's an asshole, BUT i dont like two things that happend.
Situation A: when we were hanging out once i kinda felt that he was getting a bit too close so alot of times after i started feeling uncomfortable i started to mention My boyfriend ALOT cus i was tring to hint to back off just a bit but in a nice low key kinda way. (Jay later claims that he did nothing of the sort but you have to take into consideration EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT and because he didnt see it like that doesnt mean that I didnt see it that way cus i DID and i got uncomfortable)
Situation B: While jay is venting to Daisy(the best chicky friend i mentioned) he says that i am a "DEPRESSED GOTHIC GIRL WHOSE UP HER BOYFRIENDS ASS".
DEPRESSED: im Manic depressive, yeah so what, BUT i dont go around exploiting it and trying to make it obvious, and most people that are around me dont see any displays of sadness cus i dont try to bring people Down.
GOTHIC GIRL: thanks for the stereo type jay. I didnt expect that from you because even though i dont know you like the back of my hand, I DO know from the times youve said it about yourself that you claim that you hate when people make assumptions about you without getting to know you....i didnt think that someone who hold those beliefs would go and Portray the very thing they said they were against, MAKING ASSUMPTIONS WITHOUT REALLY KNOWING THE PERSON. Im not goth, im not anything, im just a Dezzy, a person. but go ahead, free country, assume as much as you want... my point is that i was surprised that youd Assume so much being that you hate when people ASSUME. but whatever..
WHOSE UP HER BOYFRIENDS ASS: Lemme correct your Insult/opinion...1. "Girl whose up her fiance of 3 years ass", corrected it like that because your version makes it look like im a little girl who is addicted to having a little fling of a BF, which is SO not the situation because 2. Im not up his ass but i guess the fact that from Me Mentioning him ALOT as a way to get you to back off a tad from making me uncomfortable, you go and Jump to a conclusion of "she's up her boyfriends ass"...
Im not making an assumption, but i AM stating MY opinion based on what i have seen for myself.
my opinion based on what ive collected in my mind is that Jay said one thing and did another.
I say this because Jay has stated a few times that he Does not like when people assume things about him without getting to know him. From what Jay has told me and others he is really a nice guy and stuff. So my question is this now... WHy do you have that belief about assumptions but then YOU went and assumed so much about Others? dont you think thats a tad bit Contradictive?
you know what? I Guess maybe i dont know Jay so maybe the assumption theory means assumptions about him cant be made, But thats not a fact...just my own thought.,
why did i write all this crap? For my FINAL POINT which is this:
*****Im trying to make shit clear and get shit cleared up cus i dont want anymore of this He said she said shit goin on and i dont need to have any speck of a damn problem or contraversy AT ALL. JAY, no more shit please, because I did not do a damn thing to you, Ive always thought you were a nice kool guy, But what you said about me was something unexpected and unkool especially from someone who i judged as a good person. Yes, i didnt like how you made me uncomfortable and YES i NOW know that you didnt see it that way(because at the time if i thought you were gettin to close, i pretty much thought that you intended to do that, cus thats how it was making me feel) But thats HOW I FELT, ME, My perspective. Also, I DIDNT CALL YOU AN ASSHOLE. i dont know where you got that from, i think though, that was you assuming maybe? i dunno really... and please tell me, where did you specifically come up with the idea of me being a "depressed gothic girl whose up her boyfriends ass"? does that mean that youve always thought that about me, cus if so then please let me know if u were ever really my friend because i have this theory called "SAY WHAT YOU MEAN AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY".
NO, i dont dislike you, but i DONT like the things you said and assumed or wherever it came from and i dont like how that makes you look like a hypocrite with this situation at least because ive never had a negative opinion or feeling about you before until this.
SO do me a favor, answer any question i directed towards you in this entry and just clarify things with ME.
ONE MORE THING...IMPORTANT. in this entry you can tell i only spoke of shit that involved me and my situation, i didnt speak of anyone elses situation and would appreciate if no one did the He said she said thing. My situation is between me and jay. YES, there are two other people that i know of that do have a similar opinion of jay makin them feel uncomfortable and they know who they are but thats between Jay and them. So...hmm.... i Think thats it about that......
no more he said she said, no more assuming and Jay comment me back and clarify shit, no more talking about me to others...thats not nice...AND ALSO, dont think that Daisy is a gossiper or anything cus she told me cus if it turns out you didnt want your comment about me being "Depressed gothic girl whose up her boyfriends ass" then be careful to not tell my best Chick friend negative things about her best chick friend. Its not nice to talk crap about people either Jay, and seriousely, saying That about me to someone else is considerably Talking shit. so... please...no more shit...
Im trying to settle all this crap because I dont need to have a problem right now, ive got way more imporatnt shit to be concerned with than this little bullshit.
i have no opinion about you right now except that until things are clarified im gonna see you as a bit shady cus hey, i have no other choice if u look at it from my perspective.i havent been talking shit about you calling you things or whatever either okay? but i dont dislike you or have a grudge...but that was some fucked up shit you said about me to daisy, to me it was hella fucked up especially comin from you, who i thought was kool peoplez..
So i dunno where we are as friends right now cus of what you said about me, cus if u really believe what you said then IM gonna have to think that if thats a true opinion about me the youve mustve thought that for some time cus i met you in the summer when i met a few more people over there. So if u really meant what you said, tell me, cus if u really meant it, you mustve of always thougfht it, and if u always thought it, then it was fucked up to pretend to be my friend while thinking that, cus i thought you were a nice guy like even you yourself say... so tell me... WHAT DO YOU REALLY THINK AND FEEL ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING? and tell ME.
.......bullshit sux.... Anyways...oh yea.. Shady Danimal Hamtaro Carangie Darko died some days ago....my poor hamster..=( i buried him in a coffin i made outta black paper and a colorsilk hair dye box...he was old...he died in my hand, held him till his last breath so he wouldnt die alone and in a cage....
SORRY FOR MY LOOOONG ASS ENTRY EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!! but i have to be real specific with what i have to say so that i make sure im clear with my words and thoughts when it comes to situations like this. ANYWAYS...im out till laterz...
OH WAIT, P.S. Jay, i never read your LJ so i dunno if you said anything on there before but im going to it right now through Daisys friends list to let you know to read this entry. So...eh... just lettin ya know jsut in case i go there now and see something not groovy...but i give you full benifit of the doubt anyways cus i dont think youd go that far...anyway if i do see something im just gonna ignore it after this entry jsut comment me back to settle this cus this controversy is unnecessary..
ok....entry is finaly OVER....
*One thing.
from one of my best chicky friends some shit...here it goes..
ok, so Jay kept saying that he thinks people and Me think he's an asshole.
**No one ever said that and I dont think he's an asshole, BUT i dont like two things that happend.
Situation A: when we were hanging out once i kinda felt that he was getting a bit too close so alot of times after i started feeling uncomfortable i started to mention My boyfriend ALOT cus i was tring to hint to back off just a bit but in a nice low key kinda way. (Jay later claims that he did nothing of the sort but you have to take into consideration EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT and because he didnt see it like that doesnt mean that I didnt see it that way cus i DID and i got uncomfortable)
Situation B: While jay is venting to Daisy(the best chicky friend i mentioned) he says that i am a "DEPRESSED GOTHIC GIRL WHOSE UP HER BOYFRIENDS ASS".
DEPRESSED: im Manic depressive, yeah so what, BUT i dont go around exploiting it and trying to make it obvious, and most people that are around me dont see any displays of sadness cus i dont try to bring people Down.
GOTHIC GIRL: thanks for the stereo type jay. I didnt expect that from you because even though i dont know you like the back of my hand, I DO know from the times youve said it about yourself that you claim that you hate when people make assumptions about you without getting to know you....i didnt think that someone who hold those beliefs would go and Portray the very thing they said they were against, MAKING ASSUMPTIONS WITHOUT REALLY KNOWING THE PERSON. Im not goth, im not anything, im just a Dezzy, a person. but go ahead, free country, assume as much as you want... my point is that i was surprised that youd Assume so much being that you hate when people ASSUME. but whatever..
WHOSE UP HER BOYFRIENDS ASS: Lemme correct your Insult/opinion...1. "Girl whose up her fiance of 3 years ass", corrected it like that because your version makes it look like im a little girl who is addicted to having a little fling of a BF, which is SO not the situation because 2. Im not up his ass but i guess the fact that from Me Mentioning him ALOT as a way to get you to back off a tad from making me uncomfortable, you go and Jump to a conclusion of "she's up her boyfriends ass"...
Im not making an assumption, but i AM stating MY opinion based on what i have seen for myself.
my opinion based on what ive collected in my mind is that Jay said one thing and did another.
I say this because Jay has stated a few times that he Does not like when people assume things about him without getting to know him. From what Jay has told me and others he is really a nice guy and stuff. So my question is this now... WHy do you have that belief about assumptions but then YOU went and assumed so much about Others? dont you think thats a tad bit Contradictive?
you know what? I Guess maybe i dont know Jay so maybe the assumption theory means assumptions about him cant be made, But thats not a fact...just my own thought.,
why did i write all this crap? For my FINAL POINT which is this:
*****Im trying to make shit clear and get shit cleared up cus i dont want anymore of this He said she said shit goin on and i dont need to have any speck of a damn problem or contraversy AT ALL. JAY, no more shit please, because I did not do a damn thing to you, Ive always thought you were a nice kool guy, But what you said about me was something unexpected and unkool especially from someone who i judged as a good person. Yes, i didnt like how you made me uncomfortable and YES i NOW know that you didnt see it that way(because at the time if i thought you were gettin to close, i pretty much thought that you intended to do that, cus thats how it was making me feel) But thats HOW I FELT, ME, My perspective. Also, I DIDNT CALL YOU AN ASSHOLE. i dont know where you got that from, i think though, that was you assuming maybe? i dunno really... and please tell me, where did you specifically come up with the idea of me being a "depressed gothic girl whose up her boyfriends ass"? does that mean that youve always thought that about me, cus if so then please let me know if u were ever really my friend because i have this theory called "SAY WHAT YOU MEAN AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY".
NO, i dont dislike you, but i DONT like the things you said and assumed or wherever it came from and i dont like how that makes you look like a hypocrite with this situation at least because ive never had a negative opinion or feeling about you before until this.
SO do me a favor, answer any question i directed towards you in this entry and just clarify things with ME.
ONE MORE THING...IMPORTANT. in this entry you can tell i only spoke of shit that involved me and my situation, i didnt speak of anyone elses situation and would appreciate if no one did the He said she said thing. My situation is between me and jay. YES, there are two other people that i know of that do have a similar opinion of jay makin them feel uncomfortable and they know who they are but thats between Jay and them. So...hmm.... i Think thats it about that......
no more he said she said, no more assuming and Jay comment me back and clarify shit, no more talking about me to others...thats not nice...AND ALSO, dont think that Daisy is a gossiper or anything cus she told me cus if it turns out you didnt want your comment about me being "Depressed gothic girl whose up her boyfriends ass" then be careful to not tell my best Chick friend negative things about her best chick friend. Its not nice to talk crap about people either Jay, and seriousely, saying That about me to someone else is considerably Talking shit. so... please...no more shit...
Im trying to settle all this crap because I dont need to have a problem right now, ive got way more imporatnt shit to be concerned with than this little bullshit.
i have no opinion about you right now except that until things are clarified im gonna see you as a bit shady cus hey, i have no other choice if u look at it from my perspective.i havent been talking shit about you calling you things or whatever either okay? but i dont dislike you or have a grudge...but that was some fucked up shit you said about me to daisy, to me it was hella fucked up especially comin from you, who i thought was kool peoplez..
So i dunno where we are as friends right now cus of what you said about me, cus if u really believe what you said then IM gonna have to think that if thats a true opinion about me the youve mustve thought that for some time cus i met you in the summer when i met a few more people over there. So if u really meant what you said, tell me, cus if u really meant it, you mustve of always thougfht it, and if u always thought it, then it was fucked up to pretend to be my friend while thinking that, cus i thought you were a nice guy like even you yourself say... so tell me... WHAT DO YOU REALLY THINK AND FEEL ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING? and tell ME.
.......bullshit sux.... Anyways...oh yea.. Shady Danimal Hamtaro Carangie Darko died some days ago....my poor hamster..=( i buried him in a coffin i made outta black paper and a colorsilk hair dye box...he was old...he died in my hand, held him till his last breath so he wouldnt die alone and in a cage....
SORRY FOR MY LOOOONG ASS ENTRY EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!! but i have to be real specific with what i have to say so that i make sure im clear with my words and thoughts when it comes to situations like this. ANYWAYS...im out till laterz...
OH WAIT, P.S. Jay, i never read your LJ so i dunno if you said anything on there before but im going to it right now through Daisys friends list to let you know to read this entry. So...eh... just lettin ya know jsut in case i go there now and see something not groovy...but i give you full benifit of the doubt anyways cus i dont think youd go that far...anyway if i do see something im just gonna ignore it after this entry jsut comment me back to settle this cus this controversy is unnecessary..
ok....entry is finaly OVER....