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Dodge is full of complete crap.
I got my year book today. I dont like some of the pictures in there because they make the year book look set up. Theres pictures of Me and Renee, Daisy and Renee all huggy and smiley, ironicaly put in by Renee. It looks really fake. I dunno, its really fuckin strange cus sometimes Renee comes up to me and says hi or tries to talk to me like were kool or whatever, one time she offered to give me some earings she was gonna throw out or something. I find that very strange cus were not friends at all...I never really noticed she did that alot. She's weird i guess. Most people might say she might be just trying to be nice, But then again, those same people say that about anyone else they also do not know. Theres a picture of me, Danny and Manny with Renee from Freshman year. Even thats a fakie, None of us are kool with eachother, well, Mannys still kool peoples. Me and Danny are as solid as things get i guess. Me and my baby.
Speaking of which, because dodge is so un-fuckin-organized I ended up getting back here at like 1:10 pm and Danny has to be out BY 2:00pm so he could get to work. He was waiting since 12 pm... T_T I felt so fucking terrible..... It made me feel like i let him Down and ruined the day. I know its not that bad when u compare it to the rest of the wonderful days ill get to spend with him, but my mindset is to live for the Day because u cant promise a tomorrow. I should have left and said fuck the yearbook...ay.....-_-So, u know....it hurts alot, and yea i did cry after he left. He looked hurt when i got here, Me and Him are very very much alike, even in the mind.... i know he felt hurt.
I blame myself...
Im gonna try to do something nice for him, i wanna try to make it up to him.
My heart just shatterd....i just thought "I took the smile off his face". But....even sadder, Im the only one who puts it on his face to begin with and vice verse. ::Deep Sigh::
Tomorrow seems so far away and until then my days remain grey
Ill see you soon is what i say, but until then i survive in dismay
Fuck
I got my year book today. I dont like some of the pictures in there because they make the year book look set up. Theres pictures of Me and Renee, Daisy and Renee all huggy and smiley, ironicaly put in by Renee. It looks really fake. I dunno, its really fuckin strange cus sometimes Renee comes up to me and says hi or tries to talk to me like were kool or whatever, one time she offered to give me some earings she was gonna throw out or something. I find that very strange cus were not friends at all...I never really noticed she did that alot. She's weird i guess. Most people might say she might be just trying to be nice, But then again, those same people say that about anyone else they also do not know. Theres a picture of me, Danny and Manny with Renee from Freshman year. Even thats a fakie, None of us are kool with eachother, well, Mannys still kool peoples. Me and Danny are as solid as things get i guess. Me and my baby.
Speaking of which, because dodge is so un-fuckin-organized I ended up getting back here at like 1:10 pm and Danny has to be out BY 2:00pm so he could get to work. He was waiting since 12 pm... T_T I felt so fucking terrible..... It made me feel like i let him Down and ruined the day. I know its not that bad when u compare it to the rest of the wonderful days ill get to spend with him, but my mindset is to live for the Day because u cant promise a tomorrow. I should have left and said fuck the yearbook...ay.....-_-So, u know....it hurts alot, and yea i did cry after he left. He looked hurt when i got here, Me and Him are very very much alike, even in the mind.... i know he felt hurt.
I blame myself...
Im gonna try to do something nice for him, i wanna try to make it up to him.
My heart just shatterd....i just thought "I took the smile off his face". But....even sadder, Im the only one who puts it on his face to begin with and vice verse. ::Deep Sigh::
Tomorrow seems so far away and until then my days remain grey
Ill see you soon is what i say, but until then i survive in dismay
Fuck