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vinny: i feel pretty lame about this when i really think about it, but it really makes it easier to go to sleep thinking about something good, ya know? i'm such a fanboy, i know that, but, hey. i admit it hehe
chuckie: I know what you mean. I have to try to think of good shit when i go to sleep. theres a whole lot of suck in my life. So, whether its some fantasy, or just thinking about awesome people and stuff : ) it always helps to think about something good. The better the good, the less awful the bad seems. of course, that could just be me.
vinny: yeah, i've always had weird fantasy type things in my head, but it also makes things feel better, just for a while at least. i totally get that.
chuckie: and yeah, i know all abot weird fantasies. my sex life has been about 99.8% fantasy, so...i've gotten good at it
vinny: i get that too! well, i think i'm relating this correctly, but....there are some things that i like to think about doing, but that i wouldn't actually be comfortable doing in real life. and for the most part, i think i'm realizing i prefer just thinking about sex to actually doing it, if that makes any sense, i dunno.... people usually seem to be the opposite of that
chuckie: well... I think I know where you're coming from. I enjoy being close and intimate with another person. However, I am... pretty ashamed of how I look for the most part. So the idea of being naked with someone, is pretty weird to me. It pretty much has to be someone i'm pretty comfortable with to begin with I think. so I like the idea of being with someone, and have always enjoyed what little I've been involved in. but when i think about actually doing it...i dunno man. I dunno exactly what i'm getting at here.
vinny: it's okay. i'm pretty uncomfortable with myself too. i understand how that is.
chuckie: i really don't think you were going down this dark a path. heh sorry about that. well, for what its worth, I think, and always have thought, that you're pretty gorgeous. I know that doesn't mean a whole lot coming from me, but...tis true.
vinny: it does mean something to me, and i appreciate it. i really do. it's very sweet : ) but i think with our mindsets, it just takes some trust to be comfortable with our bodies with other people. and that seems like how it is for a lot of people and that's just the way we are. and it's okay about talking about more serious things.
chuckie: yeah. I think you're right. and, thanks for the srs bsns talk. heh, I know I'm a downer sometimes, but along with that trust, comes my opening up, and not being able to shut up. I don't really have a lot of people to talk to about serious stuff, so thanks for that. and also, thanks to me, for that comma-laden run-on sentence.
vinny: don't worry, i love commas! and srs bsns talk comes with friendship. i totally don't mind. even if i don't have anything productive to tell you or anything, i'll always listen to what you need or wanna talk about. also, you and i seem to have a lot of similar opinions on a lot of things, especially dealing with life and its crappiness, so it's good to have somebody to talk to who understands
chuckie: cause, i love jeff. REALLY i do. but he is too fucking happy about shitty life. which, i understand. he's at his dream job, makes enough money to survive, has his own place, ya know, he's doing alright. so its not like hes unnecessarily happy. its just hard to make our problems seem similar enough to relate, i guess.
vinny: i understand that. i'm very, very glad that he's happy of course, but.... even though it's unfortunate someone else gets my situation, it's really nice to talk to someone else who gets an idea of what i'm going through. that's what it seems we're both saying heh
chuckie: lol yeah i guess, to sum up, we're both pretty awesome. thats the moral of this tale.
chuckie: I know what you mean. I have to try to think of good shit when i go to sleep. theres a whole lot of suck in my life. So, whether its some fantasy, or just thinking about awesome people and stuff : ) it always helps to think about something good. The better the good, the less awful the bad seems. of course, that could just be me.
vinny: yeah, i've always had weird fantasy type things in my head, but it also makes things feel better, just for a while at least. i totally get that.
chuckie: and yeah, i know all abot weird fantasies. my sex life has been about 99.8% fantasy, so...i've gotten good at it
vinny: i get that too! well, i think i'm relating this correctly, but....there are some things that i like to think about doing, but that i wouldn't actually be comfortable doing in real life. and for the most part, i think i'm realizing i prefer just thinking about sex to actually doing it, if that makes any sense, i dunno.... people usually seem to be the opposite of that
chuckie: well... I think I know where you're coming from. I enjoy being close and intimate with another person. However, I am... pretty ashamed of how I look for the most part. So the idea of being naked with someone, is pretty weird to me. It pretty much has to be someone i'm pretty comfortable with to begin with I think. so I like the idea of being with someone, and have always enjoyed what little I've been involved in. but when i think about actually doing it...i dunno man. I dunno exactly what i'm getting at here.
vinny: it's okay. i'm pretty uncomfortable with myself too. i understand how that is.
chuckie: i really don't think you were going down this dark a path. heh sorry about that. well, for what its worth, I think, and always have thought, that you're pretty gorgeous. I know that doesn't mean a whole lot coming from me, but...tis true.
vinny: it does mean something to me, and i appreciate it. i really do. it's very sweet : ) but i think with our mindsets, it just takes some trust to be comfortable with our bodies with other people. and that seems like how it is for a lot of people and that's just the way we are. and it's okay about talking about more serious things.
chuckie: yeah. I think you're right. and, thanks for the srs bsns talk. heh, I know I'm a downer sometimes, but along with that trust, comes my opening up, and not being able to shut up. I don't really have a lot of people to talk to about serious stuff, so thanks for that. and also, thanks to me, for that comma-laden run-on sentence.
vinny: don't worry, i love commas! and srs bsns talk comes with friendship. i totally don't mind. even if i don't have anything productive to tell you or anything, i'll always listen to what you need or wanna talk about. also, you and i seem to have a lot of similar opinions on a lot of things, especially dealing with life and its crappiness, so it's good to have somebody to talk to who understands
chuckie: cause, i love jeff. REALLY i do. but he is too fucking happy about shitty life. which, i understand. he's at his dream job, makes enough money to survive, has his own place, ya know, he's doing alright. so its not like hes unnecessarily happy. its just hard to make our problems seem similar enough to relate, i guess.
vinny: i understand that. i'm very, very glad that he's happy of course, but.... even though it's unfortunate someone else gets my situation, it's really nice to talk to someone else who gets an idea of what i'm going through. that's what it seems we're both saying heh
chuckie: lol yeah i guess, to sum up, we're both pretty awesome. thats the moral of this tale.