Easter Rising part 4
Part four:
Not Afraid
The Wake
The Letter (1)
The Trip
NOT AFRAID
Andrew:
When I wake up in the early light of morning
and I see your shining face here next to mine.
And the seagulls make their noise and wake the boys who have been sleeping.
And the sun out on the ocean starts to shine.
I will finally know the feeling...
I will finally breath the joy
of the words that I've been too afraid to tell you.
And the questions that have spun inside my [heart]
for the boy that somehow found the way
to turn the night into the day.
This is how I'll start...
I am not afraid to love you.
I've been practicing the words.
I am not afraid to say them loudly
So anyone can hear,
so anyone can hear!
I am not afraid to hold you.
to see you [skipping] at my side.
I am not afraid to say it to the heavens!
To the rising tide.
And I forgot to mention.
And I forgot to say.
And I forgot to...
Take another breath of evening.
Watch the stars light up the evening.
See the waves bring up the evening.
Watching you the whole damn evening,
Caleb,
Caleb!
I am not afraid to love you.
Now I've said it loud and clear!
I am not afraid to learn to walk into the water!
Now that you are here...
When I wake up in the early light of morning
and I see your shining face here next to mine.
When the seagulls make their noise and wake the boys who're out there sleeping.
When the sun out on the ocean starts to shine...
Ah....
THE WAKE
Caleb:
Will there be flowers?
What kind of music?
Do I want a cello?
Do I want a child?
Will they be crying?
Why am I dieing?
Will I be screaming,
or laughing wild?
I could use a little help.
I could use a little time.
Just a year, or ninety more.
One more week would be sublime...
Because the night grows colder,
and the band plays on.
And the music will keep playing
long after I'm gone...
I want the cello.
I like the cello.
It sounds like sorrow.
It sounds like pain.
And that's the ending,
Ten thousand cellos.
I want it louder,
I want champagne!
I could use a little help.
I could use a lot of time.
Just another life to live,
one more reason, one more rhyme...
Before the night grows colder,
and the band plays on.
But I want the music to keep playing
long after I'm gone!
What will I leave you
when it's done?
When will I take you
a place we can stand in the sun?
-I wanna go on a trip.-
April:
-Where? When?-
Caleb:
-To the Gulf. Right now. It's been almost twenty years since I've been.-
April:
-Right now?-
Caleb:
-With Andrew and John, all of us. I can't bare to be here before I die. With the church... With the suits and ties and people crying. Doesn't make sense.-
April:
-Yes.-
Caleb:
Please don't [leave] me!
I could use a little help.
I don't have a lot of time - not a day, a month, a year.
[I cannot end here.]
I won't allow it.
We'll see the ocean,
we'll see the sky.
It's the ending.
I wanna chose it!
I'll chose the ending!
Dieing while I'm in my prime!
THE LETTER (1)
Narrator:
In front of CALEB and APRIL's house. A [month] later.
John:
-I'm not going!-
Andrew:
-Yes you are. Get in the car. I'll even let you drive. You can have more practice.-
John:
-I don't want more practice! I wanna go home!-
Andrew:
-Yea, well so do I!-
John:
-Fine! I will drive you and your... gay love car down to the ocean! And you can just [?] for all I care! Do what you want because when we get home, I'm never gonna see you again! The phone's never gonna ring and there'll be no birthday cards. The door's never gonna open to you standing there and, frankly, even if you were there, I wouldn't open it! I hate you!-
Andrew:
-Oh I know that's not true.-
John:
-How do you know that's not true? You don't know a single thing about me!-
Narrator:
JOHN grabs the keys from ANDREW's hands and climbs into the front seat.
John:
-It's just like on television, you think he'll cry?-
Caleb:
-Are you... driving us?-
John:
-You bet! Buckle up!-
THE TRIP
John:
So here I am behind the wheel and still in Texas. Jesus Christ, just kill me please!
They're forcing me to drive to the ocean in a Honda, how romantic! I can feel the breeze!
It's awkward, just a bit. And still, it doesn't make much sense.
I should have gone to [Astin] with the Walshes. That was stupid. How could I have been so dense?
I'm on the highway-
I-86, my name is John.
I'm on the highway-
I should've stayed at home with mom!
I guess the [?]
Why's she acting like it's fine?
I guess that is love...
-Hey! Those Cornnuts are mine.-
Narrator:
APRIL looks up from her book. She's reading.
April:
-Who gave you your diagnosis?-
Caleb:
-Uh. Doctor Collins.-
April:
-We should go see a specialist. They've got all sorts of clinics.-
Caleb:
-I don't want a specialist.-
April:
-Hospitals just [?].-
Andrew:
-He doesn't to.-
April:
-The most common presenatation of lymphoma is usually a painless swelling of lymph nodes that often occurs in the neck or under the arms. Did Dr. Collins do a thorough examination? It says that here, you should look other places too, around your neck and tonsil area, your shoulders, elbows and your groin...
Caleb:
-April could you put the book away?-
April:
-I swear Caleb, someone could [?].-
John:
-You're all driving me crazy. Fucking people!-
Why is everyone so numb?
You're fiancee is dieing and she hasn't started crying and my father started acting dumb.
So Caleb, go forgive him. [?]
It's not that simple, dad, you've gotta pay a little price for all the shit you've left behind!
I'm on the highway-
We're on the road
Going nowhere...
April:
-Do you have chills?-
Caleb:
-Sometimes.-
April:
-Do you itch?-
Caleb:
-Where?-
April:
-Anywhere!-
Caleb:
-Does it mean something?-
April:
-What about night sweats? I don't think you've had night sweats. He also hasn't slept next to ME for quite a while! Well! I think this is just gonna be lovely! We'll get a nice big suite at the Super8. I'll obviously have to find a cot and it'll be just like that vacation everyone's needed! Did Dr Collins say anything about medication?-
John:
-Please put that fucking book away!-
April:
-Fine!-
Caleb:
-Shouldn't he be in school right now?-
John:
-It's my spring break.-
Caleb:
-Oh my God. I'm so sorry!-
John:
-He's not.-
April:
I hated school.
I cheated on the tests,
I always ate alone.
I couldn't wait to be a grown up
but I'd be all by own.
I use to dream that I could soar up to the sky
My mother said that if I'd [?] go by and by.
That was a lie.
And I never learned to fly.
Andrew:
[?]
I made it all the way to Seven Maple Lane.
[?] time to tell him [?].
This is insane!
I should've stayed away, pretend I never knew.
I should've ripped it up or put it from my view.
But it was you.
Tell me, what was I to do?
Caleb:
-Um. I'd like to drive, if it's ok with all of you.-
John:
-Are you sure you're feeling up to it?-
Caleb:
-*cough* I may never drive again.-
Andrew:
-Oh God, fine. John, pull over.-
Narrator:
JOHN pulls over and they switch seats. ANDREW, APRIL and JOHN all watch CALEB nervously.
April:
I wonder what he is thinking.
Andrew:
I wonder what he is thinking.
April:
I wonder if he's aware.
Andrew:
Or does he not even care.
Andrew and April:
I wonder if he's got a clue.
John:
Is this what grownups really do?
April:
I think I'll scream any minute.
John and Andrew (overlapping)
I think I swear [?].
John:
This is dumb, he looks as healthy as me.
April:
Pull it together!
John (Andrew?):
I gotta pee.
April and Andrew:
It doesn't look like some disease!
John:
Why is there not a single tree?
John and April:
Goddammit, say something please!
April and Andrew:
And the hours are passing.
(piano 'tick-tocks' like a clock)
And the time ticks by.
Four hours pass on this rollercoaster ride.
April:
I knew he wouldn't stay.
Caleb:
Will my life end this way?
Andrew:
This has been an interesting day.
April and Andrew:
Today, God I pray.
Andrew:
Let it be another day!
April (overlapping):
[?]
John (overlapping):
Say something anything...
[??]
Not Afraid
The Wake
The Letter (1)
The Trip
NOT AFRAID
Andrew:
When I wake up in the early light of morning
and I see your shining face here next to mine.
And the seagulls make their noise and wake the boys who have been sleeping.
And the sun out on the ocean starts to shine.
I will finally know the feeling...
I will finally breath the joy
of the words that I've been too afraid to tell you.
And the questions that have spun inside my [heart]
for the boy that somehow found the way
to turn the night into the day.
This is how I'll start...
I am not afraid to love you.
I've been practicing the words.
I am not afraid to say them loudly
So anyone can hear,
so anyone can hear!
I am not afraid to hold you.
to see you [skipping] at my side.
I am not afraid to say it to the heavens!
To the rising tide.
And I forgot to mention.
And I forgot to say.
And I forgot to...
Take another breath of evening.
Watch the stars light up the evening.
See the waves bring up the evening.
Watching you the whole damn evening,
Caleb,
Caleb!
I am not afraid to love you.
Now I've said it loud and clear!
I am not afraid to learn to walk into the water!
Now that you are here...
When I wake up in the early light of morning
and I see your shining face here next to mine.
When the seagulls make their noise and wake the boys who're out there sleeping.
When the sun out on the ocean starts to shine...
Ah....
THE WAKE
Caleb:
Will there be flowers?
What kind of music?
Do I want a cello?
Do I want a child?
Will they be crying?
Why am I dieing?
Will I be screaming,
or laughing wild?
I could use a little help.
I could use a little time.
Just a year, or ninety more.
One more week would be sublime...
Because the night grows colder,
and the band plays on.
And the music will keep playing
long after I'm gone...
I want the cello.
I like the cello.
It sounds like sorrow.
It sounds like pain.
And that's the ending,
Ten thousand cellos.
I want it louder,
I want champagne!
I could use a little help.
I could use a lot of time.
Just another life to live,
one more reason, one more rhyme...
Before the night grows colder,
and the band plays on.
But I want the music to keep playing
long after I'm gone!
What will I leave you
when it's done?
When will I take you
a place we can stand in the sun?
-I wanna go on a trip.-
April:
-Where? When?-
Caleb:
-To the Gulf. Right now. It's been almost twenty years since I've been.-
April:
-Right now?-
Caleb:
-With Andrew and John, all of us. I can't bare to be here before I die. With the church... With the suits and ties and people crying. Doesn't make sense.-
April:
-Yes.-
Caleb:
Please don't [leave] me!
I could use a little help.
I don't have a lot of time - not a day, a month, a year.
[I cannot end here.]
I won't allow it.
We'll see the ocean,
we'll see the sky.
It's the ending.
I wanna chose it!
I'll chose the ending!
Dieing while I'm in my prime!
THE LETTER (1)
Narrator:
In front of CALEB and APRIL's house. A [month] later.
John:
-I'm not going!-
Andrew:
-Yes you are. Get in the car. I'll even let you drive. You can have more practice.-
John:
-I don't want more practice! I wanna go home!-
Andrew:
-Yea, well so do I!-
John:
-Fine! I will drive you and your... gay love car down to the ocean! And you can just [?] for all I care! Do what you want because when we get home, I'm never gonna see you again! The phone's never gonna ring and there'll be no birthday cards. The door's never gonna open to you standing there and, frankly, even if you were there, I wouldn't open it! I hate you!-
Andrew:
-Oh I know that's not true.-
John:
-How do you know that's not true? You don't know a single thing about me!-
Narrator:
JOHN grabs the keys from ANDREW's hands and climbs into the front seat.
John:
-It's just like on television, you think he'll cry?-
Caleb:
-Are you... driving us?-
John:
-You bet! Buckle up!-
THE TRIP
John:
So here I am behind the wheel and still in Texas. Jesus Christ, just kill me please!
They're forcing me to drive to the ocean in a Honda, how romantic! I can feel the breeze!
It's awkward, just a bit. And still, it doesn't make much sense.
I should have gone to [Astin] with the Walshes. That was stupid. How could I have been so dense?
I'm on the highway-
I-86, my name is John.
I'm on the highway-
I should've stayed at home with mom!
I guess the [?]
Why's she acting like it's fine?
I guess that is love...
-Hey! Those Cornnuts are mine.-
Narrator:
APRIL looks up from her book. She's reading.
April:
-Who gave you your diagnosis?-
Caleb:
-Uh. Doctor Collins.-
April:
-We should go see a specialist. They've got all sorts of clinics.-
Caleb:
-I don't want a specialist.-
April:
-Hospitals just [?].-
Andrew:
-He doesn't to.-
April:
-The most common presenatation of lymphoma is usually a painless swelling of lymph nodes that often occurs in the neck or under the arms. Did Dr. Collins do a thorough examination? It says that here, you should look other places too, around your neck and tonsil area, your shoulders, elbows and your groin...
Caleb:
-April could you put the book away?-
April:
-I swear Caleb, someone could [?].-
John:
-You're all driving me crazy. Fucking people!-
Why is everyone so numb?
You're fiancee is dieing and she hasn't started crying and my father started acting dumb.
So Caleb, go forgive him. [?]
It's not that simple, dad, you've gotta pay a little price for all the shit you've left behind!
I'm on the highway-
We're on the road
Going nowhere...
April:
-Do you have chills?-
Caleb:
-Sometimes.-
April:
-Do you itch?-
Caleb:
-Where?-
April:
-Anywhere!-
Caleb:
-Does it mean something?-
April:
-What about night sweats? I don't think you've had night sweats. He also hasn't slept next to ME for quite a while! Well! I think this is just gonna be lovely! We'll get a nice big suite at the Super8. I'll obviously have to find a cot and it'll be just like that vacation everyone's needed! Did Dr Collins say anything about medication?-
John:
-Please put that fucking book away!-
April:
-Fine!-
Caleb:
-Shouldn't he be in school right now?-
John:
-It's my spring break.-
Caleb:
-Oh my God. I'm so sorry!-
John:
-He's not.-
April:
I hated school.
I cheated on the tests,
I always ate alone.
I couldn't wait to be a grown up
but I'd be all by own.
I use to dream that I could soar up to the sky
My mother said that if I'd [?] go by and by.
That was a lie.
And I never learned to fly.
Andrew:
[?]
I made it all the way to Seven Maple Lane.
[?] time to tell him [?].
This is insane!
I should've stayed away, pretend I never knew.
I should've ripped it up or put it from my view.
But it was you.
Tell me, what was I to do?
Caleb:
-Um. I'd like to drive, if it's ok with all of you.-
John:
-Are you sure you're feeling up to it?-
Caleb:
-*cough* I may never drive again.-
Andrew:
-Oh God, fine. John, pull over.-
Narrator:
JOHN pulls over and they switch seats. ANDREW, APRIL and JOHN all watch CALEB nervously.
April:
I wonder what he is thinking.
Andrew:
I wonder what he is thinking.
April:
I wonder if he's aware.
Andrew:
Or does he not even care.
Andrew and April:
I wonder if he's got a clue.
John:
Is this what grownups really do?
April:
I think I'll scream any minute.
John and Andrew (overlapping)
I think I swear [?].
John:
This is dumb, he looks as healthy as me.
April:
Pull it together!
John (Andrew?):
I gotta pee.
April and Andrew:
It doesn't look like some disease!
John:
Why is there not a single tree?
John and April:
Goddammit, say something please!
April and Andrew:
And the hours are passing.
(piano 'tick-tocks' like a clock)
And the time ticks by.
Four hours pass on this rollercoaster ride.
April:
I knew he wouldn't stay.
Caleb:
Will my life end this way?
Andrew:
This has been an interesting day.
April and Andrew:
Today, God I pray.
Andrew:
Let it be another day!
April (overlapping):
[?]
John (overlapping):
Say something anything...
[??]