As I am writing this, I am listening to some music that I thought I would never listen to, but I like it… I have a problem and it only seems to be getting worse. It’s my worst fear and it is consuming me. I am speaking of rejection, the fear of not finding anyone to love me. I have tried so hard to develop relationships with people, but they just ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I've updated so let me dust the cob-webs off of Semagic... there we go ( Read more... )

I have been very ill recently. I had a change in my medication and something is not mixing right. I can't eat. I'm always shaking, my body is burning, I feel like I'm going to puke. My mood has been very depressed and sometimes very good. All I ask is that you just keep in mind that I am not feeling well at all. I won't be myself until this gets ( Read more... )

There really hasn't been much to write about so that's why I haven't updated this thing in a while. I had a change in medication late last week and it has had some weird side effects on me. I'm still trying to get it figured out, but until then I may not act quite like myself. I can't seem to sleep when I should be able to, but that isn't anything ( Read more... )

Holy shit it's hot in here. Today we got up to 91º at my house and to add to the mess some thunderstorm came rolling through earlier this evening. Right now it is 73º and the dewpoint is probably very close to the air temp. I wasn't very productive today at all. I got up early this afternoon and went to an appointment in Henrietta. Afterwards my ( Read more... )

I just came back from gawking a fire scene at Buger King. They had an electrical fire that caught the back wall on fire. Needless to say there won't be breakfast there in the morning, though I was oh so tempted to ask anyway.

It's been quite warm around these parts the past couple of days. It's a good thing that I got the pool up and running when I did. Yesterday Kelly stopped over for a while and we sat around and lounged on my deck after I tortured her with some things on the computer. I spent all of today with Tim and Julie going between Tim's house and mine. She ( Read more... )

What am I doing here? Shouldn't I be sleeping?

I drained and cleaned that pool all by myself in one day, dammit! Somehow I managed to get a minor sunburn on my arms but it was cloudy all day. My uncle didn't come over today because he wasn't feeling well. He will probably be here tomorrow though, assuming he is better. Someone who is not good is my sister's boyfriend/husband. They've been ( Read more... )