I would cry if I had tears to shed. My heart just can't take anymore.

I hate insomnia. I am wide awake and so need to get some sleep before work tomorrow. I have had a few drinks already and I'm still awake! Grr. So instead of passingout I am going to write ( Read more... )

and I am the one actor without a voice. I am having this feeling of complete loss. I don't seem to be doing to well here anymore, but feel trapped in my own little drama. To leave, to stay, what do I do... where do I go? It's just all a muddle of confusion and pain and I want to drink it all away, to scream it all out, to hide from all of it.

helllooooo black cherry

Bye bye red..........

So it's been said I need to get on my meds again. Well if I do that, the chance of my having normal health children goes out the window. So, fine, I'll go back on my meds. I am giving up having children to go back on my meds. That should apease the ones who claim to know me so well....

insomnia.... just shoot me.

Hating living in LA. I should have never moved! What the f*ck was I thinking.......

Well, I'm not sure how to deal with this anymore. The hovel I live inis infested with fleas. I have tried on a number of occassions to get it cleaned with no help. I have tried sprays, baths, and you name it. I can't get rid of the fleas. I would keep the house cleaner, but sadly I have to get pissy to just get a dish done. So what do I do? I think ( Read more... )

Tired, confused, need...............something