The end is near....and a new beginging

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I was out earlier yesterday having a good time with some friends from a car club I am a member of, when my Uncle called to let me know that, basically my dad is sick, in the hospital and is dying. his liver cancer has moved to his heart and taken up residence in his left atrium. So what>? I haven't spoken to him in 2 years. It started when we

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[peacebaby456]

i dont know how much this will help you, but id like to offer some advice... my mom died of liver and lung cancer and i know what a horrible thing that is...and my boyfriends dad sounds a lot like yours, i mean he doesnt live with them anymore because of the way he was. it's horrible that anyone would have to be treated that way, and i completely understand your anger. i dont think you can ever really forget the things that someone like that, especially a parent, has done, but you can forgive. i know it must be really, really, really hard to imagine that but think about it, youre really the one thats being hurt the most by the anger and hatrid you let build up inside of you, and in a sense that could mean your dad is winning anyway. ive heard a lot of stories about people who have bad relationships with their parents and they die before they can speak their mind, and it haunts them forever. when my boyfriend does have to speak to his dad he only does it so he wont have to deal with crap from the rest of the family...because they

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Hi sweetheart

[peacebaby456]

it's good that youve got the mind set of reaching forgiveness, that may be the best thing anyone could do in that situation. i mean i guess once you can do that everything else will become a lot clearer and just fall into place...i know its hard though, and i wish you luck with it!

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Thank you sweet heart, I know this is not the most pleasant thing to read about. I should prolly stick to posting about my diaper adventures instead. Thats what this journal was created for in the first place. Odd thing is, I don't have much privacy anymore and I don't have much time or occasion to wear....soooooooooooo
If you're ever here in Calif and feel like playing or just need to diaper up, let me know....no problem here....hehehehe I have a good supply. =)
{{{{{{{{{HUGGIES!!!!!}}}}}}
Thanks again for your thoughts and insight, I appreciate it.

I bid you 'peace' ;)

qwack

[peacebaby456]

dont worry, everybody needs to vent sometimes! i can relate with the no privacy thing...actually i havent worn anything in over a year now :( somebodys always at my house lol