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[squillow]

I am satarting to believe that I was wrong with decreasing/coming off my medication. I am not improving, my mood is low and i am becoming a person I do not like. Being "normal" is becoming a pretence as the feelings of depression is becoming overwelming. I have started self-harming again, I justfying them as little cuts but I know it easily

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[electrokin]

You know, growing up in our generation (Ok you are younger than me but you know what i mean) no two words chill me ot the bone more than "self harm".

*hugs* hurts to see you like this hunny, I wish I could offer some solution

[squillow]

I can understand that, I have friends who self harm and its a horrid thing to witness. Don't worry sweetie, I'll get myself sorted out *huggles back*

[meeping_kitten]

You can't possibly be 23! Surely you're still 17 like when I first
'met' you?!!
I think that maybe speaking to your doctor would be good now. The difference is that you recognise that things aren't right.
be careful

xxx

[squillow]

I still don't feel much older than 17! I really must get over my teenage self-angst! I'm going to make an appointment with my doctor.

xx

[downandup]

Hi sweetie, sorry that things are a bit ugh right now for you.

Look how far you have come, you are amazing. Sorry that you have started to si again.

x

[squillow]

Thank you. It is difficult to remember how I have improved when I feel shitty, but things are a lot better than they were.

xx

[downandup]

angel, you are so strong, I said it years ago when we first met, and then we lost contact for a few years and met again by chance and what straight away struck me was how far you have come
x

[squillow]

Thank you sweetie, you've come a long way too

xx

[squillow]

Thats good! Thank you for your lovely text messages :)We really should try and meet up next time I go to my mums

[ex_4st7lb683]

*many hugs* hope the doc's appointment helps. a pile of bill hicks albums will be on its way to you soon.

i know what you mean. often i don't feel any different to when i was 17, i can't believe i'm supposed to be 25. :/

[squillow]

I'm glad I'm the only one! (I can't believe your 25 either!)

Thank you for the Bill Hicks albums, I love forward to receiving them. You will get a couple of complilation CDs in the post, you will just have to wait until I'm organised enough to make them!

[ex_4st7lb683]

yay, thanks :) that's very nice of you. happy birthday!