Comments | squishalicious: i still feel like home is in your arms

squishalicious

i still feel like home is in your arms

Mar 21, 2011 02:20

Tom asked me last night if i regret moving to state college. While regret isn't a word that I use, I did admit that i've been feeling a little off lately. His question was rooted in my recent declaration of how much i miss Allentown right now. Seriously. I MISS ALLENTOWN. It's not even the people, or the physical place, or my previous life/job. ( Read more... )

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andyandy123 March 23 2011, 01:25:34 UTC

i'm going through a lot of this too. i keep flitting back and forth, from the LV to some other place, back to the LV, to some other place, back to the LV...

now that i'm living in hokendauqua i start to drive myself crazy with doubt, "why did you move back to the valley? why did you leave new york??"

i'm trying very hard to just BE HAPPY, goddammit. wishing for "something else" can really destroy your entire life.

and yeah, i gave alex hell a few weeks ago, because we have so little time to spend together, and he has a lot of not-so-meaningful friends with whom he goes barhopping, and i just don't do that. i don't do casual alcohol-friendships.

have you talked to tom about all the thoughts you've posted here? do you feel comfortable talking to him about such things?

andyandy123 March 23 2011, 01:59:51 UTC

well, he tried to have this conversation after i was already half asleep in bed. But i can communicate with him about the me feeling sad about friends and missing atown stuff. I don't really talk to him about US TIME because i put too much on his shoulders as it is. there's not much he can do either as far as spending time together. I work in the daytime and he works a night shift. I work on weekends too, so when he has off I don't. BY the time i get to have a discussion with him I will most likely be on the next thing that's bugging me. haha. Since writing this post i have mellowed out A LOT. soo yay. I also think the warmer weather has something to do with me feeling better. One of our neighbors was grilling yesterday and I felt like home.

andyandy123 March 23 2011, 02:14:08 UTC

yeah alex and i have opposing shifts too... it really sucks. i work 7 am - 3:30 pm, and he works 2 pm -10:30 pm. and yeah, he works weekends whereas i don't... so i have a lot of time just sitting alone in the apartment. (although meghan comes over a lot.)

but yeah, by the time he gets home on a weeknight, i'm exhausted and have to go to bed, so that i'm not comatose the next day. it's kind of frustrating.