last night I cried, I wanted so bad to be someone else. true.

i cried so hard my breath sounded like screaming and I wanted to rip off my fingers and my eyes and ears and nose and then no one could blame me for being so fucking ugly.

god.

NO ONE LOVES MEEEEEE ( Read more... )

I have to be patient instead of always stopping halfway!!

willpower

And remembering why I'm doing it.

I give myself 15 weeks. That's until 2nd April.

Darn. Gonna be hard to keep that in mind for so long.

(But for now, just 10 days!!)

Hello Yihui ( Read more... )

my cousin Ivan has christened the guitar johnnie walker. too bad it's not mine or I really would go ahead and spray paint the dapper little dude on the back of the guitar. I have no idea whose it is because my brother just handed it to me to practice on, although last time I checked he only had two. the mini one is missing a string ( Read more... )

I went out for dinner tonight; it was my dad's annual company dinner and he just about dies if any of us don't go. I think he's sort of given up on my big brother though ( Read more... )

Suddenly I want to jump up and scream. I can't keep still and my hands are trembling.

I can't stand my mom. Living with her is like having a wet rag shoved down your throat. Yeah she's queen all right. queen of her own garbage tip. every moment spent with her has my nerves all set on edge. I guess she's fine at a distance. but close-range? trying really hard not to hate the woman ( Read more... )

I know Bright Eyes is just about dead but I really fancy them now and I would love to go buy all of their albums and listen to them one after the other.

I'm sick of songs; I want albums.

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