Just wondering why...

Mar 01, 2010 21:35

...we're losing so many friends this year?

Another of my Green Sashes is gone. Young chap. Smart. Amiable. A good friend. First his lovely wife, now him.

I can't even try to wrap my head around it, so I won't. I guess I'll just try and remember the good stuff, but it's damned hard sometimes.

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damesirwamba March 2 2010, 03:54:05 UTC
Some time ago I realized I had crossed into the section of my life when people would be leaving me regularly. I thought they would be family members: great aunts & uncles, grandparents, etc. I lost a few friends as a teenager. I lost some people in my twenties. As my life progresses I expect to lose more and more.

I just never expected to lose so many so young...so close to my own age.

I don't deal with death. I won't get verbose in explaining that. I simply...don't go through the process. It's always odd for me. I feel like I come off cold and distant.

I didn't know Don, Jessilyn, Bert, or Chris well. I don't grieve their loss as others do, but I hurt for you, my friends who do. My pain is in seeing the sadness in those I would rather see happy.

My heart goes out to those of you in pain tonight.

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srgmatt March 3 2010, 04:32:50 UTC
Thanks for your words...I appreciate them.

I keep writing lines to further state my mind about how crappy the situation is and then deleting them. Probably my subconcious being smart enough to warn me about spewing my emotions over the internet.

So I'll just say "thanks" again, and be grateful I'm crazy-busy right now.

See ya Saturday...

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damesirwamba March 3 2010, 10:04:33 UTC
You know...I have an E-Mail address. Having recently purged a bit by typing out what I would otherwise delete, I recognize the need. Feel free to vent my way if you like. If it's not something you want to risk on the internet, just unload it on a friend with broad shoulders and a strong back.

I promise I can take it.

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fire_flutterfly March 2 2010, 05:52:04 UTC
*hugs*
I wish I had words of comfort for you, but I'm grief struck too. I was afraid this would happen because of the connection they shared, but I'd hoped he'd pull through.

*more hugs*

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srgmatt March 3 2010, 04:35:30 UTC
Yeah, me too. He had a lot of folks working with him to try and pull him through (and they're hurting far worse than I), but I guess it wasn't to be.

*hugs back*

And thanks.

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lawpupk9 March 2 2010, 14:24:57 UTC
There are but two certainties in life:
True love for another and death.

Obviously they are connected. *sigh*

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srgmatt March 3 2010, 04:39:11 UTC
Particularly in this case, yeah.

Right now I'm in the "Anger" stage. Waiting for "Acceptance". Hope it comes soon.

Thanks again for contacting me...it's always better to hear bad news from a friend. Do me a favor though? Call me about something happy soon, willya? I twitch now when I see your caller ID :(

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lawpupk9 March 3 2010, 13:53:53 UTC
Obviously, I'm the unofficial-official bearer of bad news. I'm fairly good at this role, whether I like it or not. Meh.

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kangitanka3 March 4 2010, 08:56:23 UTC
Honey, you have my love and empathy

As a community (cast, playtron, masquers, all of us) we have lost far, far too many these past three years

May this be the end of that cycle

Love,
~~Kt3 the At a Loss~~

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