twenty-fifth ghost faced

[srsbusinessk]

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[The device is propped up on Dean's bed, aimed over to where Sam's sitting on the edge of his own bed. At first, he's leaning on his legs with his fingers intertwined, but then he inhales and straightens up, drying the sweat from his palms on his legs. A low, steady exhale and he looks up at the camera.]I just..want to apologize to..well

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[srsbusinessk]

[He can appreciate the hugging.]

Yeah. It's kind of..weird, but I guess you'd know that better than I would. Thought I'd be used to it, having had an angel's body for so long. But this is..different.

[srsbusinessk]

[He shakes his head a little with a sort-of smile.]

Don't worry about it. It'll take some getting used to, for everyone.

...action...?

[manofgnee]

[Hanna's now out of the hospital, thank god...and so, he knows exactly where he's going.

Knock, knock, Sam.]

[ action! ]

[srsbusinessk]

[Sam almost jumps a little. Dean never knocks, just barges right in, so it's a little new. He takes a second to compose himself before opening it. As soon as he sees who it is, a little grin forms on his lips]

Hey. Good to see you up and running again.

[ action! ]

[manofgnee]

Same to you, man.

[Hanna grins and pulls out a big thing of Jones' Soda from behind his back.]

This is for you.

[ action! ]

[srsbusinessk]

[At that, Sam's face visibly lightens. He hasn't been getting drunk - it's still damn near impossible - but it's been awhile since he's had anything other than beer and whiskey. It's a nice break.]

No way. You're my hero, Hanna.

[justcautious]

I don't understand you an' Hanna sayin' you could've stopped it. S'the bloody Devil.

[srsbusinessk]

Well, no. I doubt anyone could've stopped him, this was all probably gonna happen eventually. But I opened the door for him. That much, I have to own up to.

[justcautious]

What for?

[srsbusinessk]

[A beat.] 'cause this isn't the first time something happened because of me, Chris. Dean'll argue every single one of them into the ground, saying it's not my fault, but I can't just pretend I didn't play a hand in all this. It might not be my fault directly, but I am responsible for it.

[livingmyths]

It's not your fault. Demons and things are sneaky.

[srsbusinessk]

[Something close to a laugh, more like an exhale.]

Yeah, they are. Which is why we gotta learn to be sneakier.

[livingmyths]

I'm not so good at sneaky.

[srsbusinessk]

That's okay. Sneaky's our job, you shouldn't have to worry about it.

[dude_imbatman]

Dude

Shut the hell up.

[srsbusinessk]

[Something of a sigh.]

No, Dean. This isn't me feeling sorry for myself or trying to shoulder everything that happened. I'm just. Taking responsibility, and trying to help out everyone that was affected.

I've messed up plenty of times but..now I have a real chance to fix things. And I'm not gonna let that slip by.

[dude_imbatman]

Yeah I'd be on board for that, Samantha if any of it were your fault.

PMS over something that's your fault instead of something you couldn't control.

[Yeah sorry Sam. You don't get to apologize and it makes Dean be a douche when you do because he feels guilty because naturally he IS trying to shoulder everything that happened]

[srsbusinessk]

[Now you get a real sigh, Deano. No witty comebacks here. Sam's in srs bsns mode.]

Make fun of me all you want, Dean. If anyone had any semblance of control over him, it was me.

You're my big brother, but that doesn't mean everything that happens is your fault.