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Feelin' pretty good today. My truck is finished but I couldn't go pick it up today (sad).. but it's all good. They fixed the compressor and just put airbags on the back again, which only cost $225 for the pair.. the racing springs they would've had to get were $350 a piece. Expensive-ass truck. Ah well.. I'm dealin' with it. I'm also still trying to catch up on paying other things, which was really getting to me, but nothing will get solved that way.. it'll just make me sick, so I figured, why not just stop and take a breath, suck it up and take care of business.
As for being able to concentrate on school.. it's not workin' so well, but I'm trying. I see the point in just getting it over with.. but geezus you'd think it'd be at least a little bit of a challenge.. I feel like a fucking finicky infant about this shit. I need to get over it or find a way to make it interesting/challenging. I frustrate myself with this.. and have throughout my entire life. Eh, enough about this.
I need to find something to calm me down. It's like, I feel calm, and I'm in a really good mood.. but my mind can't focus on just one thing.. I can't figure out what to do with myself... I don't know where I want to be. Like, I think I could be somewhere with people I want to spend time with, but they're busy or not around.. then I try to convince myself to be productive since I'm here with nothing to do really.. but there are books that I would rather read or things I would rather find online.. I don't know what my deal is. It seems that I always get worked up to get things done when what it is isn't an option at the time... I don't know why I do that. Blah, I'm tired of talkin' about it. I really need to stop seeming so negative about everything.