Been thinking a lot lately - almost obsessively, I'm starting to think - about my motives & motivations for doing certain things. Namely, for the way I behave sexually. This is something that's not new for me - periodically, for reasons I've never been able to figure out, I'll start contemplating why I do the things I do, and I'll get stuck on it
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I think this last question is really the most important one, at least in terms of your own life (instead of, for instance, an academic approach to societal views of sex etc etc). I of course have no idea what the answer is to that, but it's a really serious question that deserves consideration, even (especially?) if that consideration feels uncomfortable or if you're tempted to write it off as somehow illiberal or something.
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It could be that you view the world sexually. Keep in mind that relating to people sexually does NOT mean you only relate to them if the possibility of the sex act is there. I relate to people intellectually, but it doesn't mean we have to agree on anything, only that they are able to follow my thoughts usefully and lead me on their thoughts usefully. If someone is incapable of this, I have little incentive for interaction. An intellectually capable girl is far more interesting to me than a hot vapid boy. I would rather spend all night talking to the woman than having sex with the man.
I was talking recently about how SM is a far different group than any I've ever belonged to before. The key word is milieu. SM is a milieu that has sexuality as its primary characteristic. Certainly there are other characteristics: drama, music, and we tend to be geeky. But is our primary characteristic ( ... )
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Theory: As much you tend to fall into the sex-mistress rôle without aforethought, I tend to fall into two categories, socially: little brother and saint. My youthful looks, demeanor, and stature, all play into this.
Observation: In SM, I noticed I have an almost unique position [please excuse me if I have tunnel vision]. Respected by all. Loved by all. Touched by none. Little brother. Saint.
Thought Experiment: Should a member of SM state, casually, that he/she had a new boyfriend/girlfriend, the reaction would be 90% nil. Like a blip on Facebook's News Feed. But, if I ever mentioned that I had a boyfriend, the reaction would most likely be one of extreme interest. I would likely be dragged by six interested people into a corner where I would quickly be interrogated. Who is he? How did I meet him? Etc.
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