You should probably know when you're in a relationship right?
You would think so, unless it was some sort of creepy stalker moment, I was fairly certain having a partner needed to be a mutual understanding.....Somehow I missed the point when it actually happened...
Maybe it was growing up, maybe it was my past relationships - but I had felt like I had spent so much time compromising for the happiness of others that I was almost sceptical about the whole concept of being in a relationship. There should be a partnership that compliments instead of complicates - it shouldn't feel like you were actually compromising because you were both equal...right? I don't think you can truly be happy if happiness starts somewhere else. Single never meant lonely, lonely would have meant I had no one, and that was never the case. I had my regular contacts, maintained without any deep emotional connection. A silent and mutual understanding without expectations that a purely physical relationship offers.
I have never been someone who felt like they were missing out on true happiness without someone - I have great friends, a good job and the freedom to escape overseas every now and then to see what the world has to offer. So when I met this guy and we kept it casual, I thought great - the physical relationship's working, I didn't think much of it. Then on the weekend I get a text, a bit of small talk. He starts..
"Hi, how's your weekend going? what've you been up to?"
"Good mate, caught up with a few friends, not doing much now. How about you?"
"Went out last night, had a good night. Some guy hit on me, let him know I was seeing someone but it was a good night."
...Now's comes my oblivious idiot moment..
"Oh really your seeing someone now? who?"
"ummm... you"
At this point I have to take a moment to register. What's going on? Then I think about it. It had been casual but recently I had started seeing him more. It wasn't just physical, we were having conversations, getting to know each other... I hadn't seen anyone else casually for a few weeks. Holy shit! I am in a relationship - when the fuck did that happen? (excuse the pun). I may have it worked out - I think it could've been the moment when had talked afterwards, both of us were hungry so we went and grabbed some food. From then, we ate again the next time, started talking more, meeting more...
This may have been obvious for most people, but I legitimately had no idea and after a few days have decided it must have been the moment we ate together, but that was a couple months ago. Since I hadn't registered an actual relationship had happened I was weirded out. Its almost like relationship entrapment! I was somehow tricked!!!
Now - what's weirding me out is that I am ok with it - but god help me if there's an anniversary date at some point I should be remembering.....
Maybe it was growing up, maybe it was my past relationships - but I had felt like I had spent so much time compromising for the happiness of others that I was almost sceptical about the whole concept of being in a relationship. There should be a partnership that compliments instead of complicates - it shouldn't feel like you were actually compromising because you were both equal...right? I don't think you can truly be happy if happiness starts somewhere else. Single never meant lonely, lonely would have meant I had no one, and that was never the case. I had my regular contacts, maintained without any deep emotional connection. A silent and mutual understanding without expectations that a purely physical relationship offers.
I have never been someone who felt like they were missing out on true happiness without someone - I have great friends, a good job and the freedom to escape overseas every now and then to see what the world has to offer. So when I met this guy and we kept it casual, I thought great - the physical relationship's working, I didn't think much of it. Then on the weekend I get a text, a bit of small talk. He starts..
"Hi, how's your weekend going? what've you been up to?"
"Good mate, caught up with a few friends, not doing much now. How about you?"
"Went out last night, had a good night. Some guy hit on me, let him know I was seeing someone but it was a good night."
...Now's comes my oblivious idiot moment..
"Oh really your seeing someone now? who?"
"ummm... you"
At this point I have to take a moment to register. What's going on? Then I think about it. It had been casual but recently I had started seeing him more. It wasn't just physical, we were having conversations, getting to know each other... I hadn't seen anyone else casually for a few weeks. Holy shit! I am in a relationship - when the fuck did that happen? (excuse the pun). I may have it worked out - I think it could've been the moment when had talked afterwards, both of us were hungry so we went and grabbed some food. From then, we ate again the next time, started talking more, meeting more...
This may have been obvious for most people, but I legitimately had no idea and after a few days have decided it must have been the moment we ate together, but that was a couple months ago. Since I hadn't registered an actual relationship had happened I was weirded out. Its almost like relationship entrapment! I was somehow tricked!!!
Now - what's weirding me out is that I am ok with it - but god help me if there's an anniversary date at some point I should be remembering.....